等我能見到他時，又過了一個月。510Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8moXRlVI9l
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深呼吸了好幾口氣，練習了幾次微笑，我才踏進病房。510Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpxRKKsNcML
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他盯著我走近，待我在床前站定，見我微微一笑，他便咧開嘴笑了。510Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡELfkFiJSCY
510Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxwxIDOdCG7
「我妹怎麼變這麼漂亮啦？」510Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUddSzWXCVZ
510Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbvH5HTU52k
我沒理會他的玩笑，只是看著臉色蒼白的他，當下覺得自己的微笑只是一道不讓自己哭出來的防線。510Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnFMwGpCJzc
510Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQ8RcRAbnNB
我查過他的病，既然已到末期，治癒機率已經極低，幾乎是零。也知道他會長期處在各種疼痛裡。510Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ13kea2Y1j1
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所以我無法開口問他還好嗎，也沒辦法要他振作，更不能祝福他康復。510Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡC4ZjqwGNoN
510Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMCwBXtxGt0
只是他仍然對著我笑，笑得那麼真。510Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbUFmv31vAm
510Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBQcCFntZtf
「幹嘛傻在那裡，過來這邊坐啊。」他指指床邊的椅子。510Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGDmWlk4EGU
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我走過去，把椅子拉近病床，坐下。510Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡA4qPqDbH17
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我們幾乎是同時伸出雙手的。510Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEe5lA7ffzw
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碰到他的手時，我的鼻子就酸了，眼睛也模糊了。510Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPo0EVPuuAK
510Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoxaQo6eEiP
「不是答應我不哭了嗎？」那句話有著溫柔的指責。510Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡd3Oje5TwWp
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「現在有沒有哪裡會痛…？」我開口問。510Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhLnGpUh8xn
510Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXdcClX04eu
「每天都在痛啊，肚子也痛、頭也痛，骨頭也都會痛…」510Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDQ4wxbE1dB
510Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡD8FRvcn3Db
他數家珍地說出，而我的眉頭也因此糾結。510Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSpOAhmRlIg
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「現在不痛啦，看到妳都不痛啦。」見我皺眉，他胡亂地撒謊。510Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbL0o1sRb6R
510Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡT780yiYSsJ
我揉著他的手，好像有很多話要說，但又覺得沒什麼好說。510Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKnl6Qyh7pF
510Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1JOYZS9grn
「爸…妳爸爸，有說什麼嗎？他知道嗎？」510Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4JZUEYjDbe
510Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsNvjdudY4G
我愣了一下，沒想到他會問這個問題。510Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKD2htBpZ7m
510Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzBuivMbyUr
「他應該知道，但他沒跟我說什麼…」510Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgbK4u4GLEX
510Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8BcoRmmhtf
「是嗎…我想也是啦。問問而已，妳不要多想。」510Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVqhx1UuSlG
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那一瞬間，我覺得父親的無情是無法被原諒的。510Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡM0Lrge6AgN
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我拿出那晚編好的手繩，放到他手裡。510Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJAxfa6nglw
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「這是新編的。」510Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvMszxPTeXT
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他看了看手繩，又看看我。510Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡu7bU7iXACL
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「妳幫我拿櫃子裡的皮夾出來。」510Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8E8OncKNso
510Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoVzgZdXIC2
我把皮夾遞給他，他從皮夾裡拿出了…好幾年前的那條幸運手繩。510Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQK6vschdvV
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白色的線都變成灰色，已經髒髒的了，他拿出來時還是小心翼翼。510Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfOGRn51QwR
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「妳看。」他得意。510Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡB0CWbTPhLi
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「虧你能留那麼久，我之前皮包掉了，你的照片也搞丟了…」510Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDkjKZFVPEn
510Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrR7iIeLQQu
「幫我戴新的在手上。」他說。510Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnnrOWpkdtg
510Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgftcrq4vRM
我一邊把手繩綁上他變得好細的手腕，一邊說著…510Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ59z5mUU0Bh
510Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡb8C5iO2vp7
「我們以前還說要一起合照，但都沒有做到…」510Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQ9kqKg6YaJ
510Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKv87jyz3LA
「現在拍。」510Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0ggXICoWiV
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「啊？」510Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡI2HxyDB2WM
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「現在就拍啊，妳手機有照相功能吧？」510Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡO2l1w3700W
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「有。」我拿出手機，翻開摺疊螢幕，開啟相機功能。510Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXGT1SZDQwV
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「等一下等一下。」他伸手拿了旁邊的眼鏡戴上。510Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrPj8ydOmMh
510Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxKqz8HyvZl
「我這樣看起來比較不像流氓吧？」他又在笑。510Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXL52hWGPbm
510Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOkuPTabOej
我笑了，起身貼近床，把頭靠在他臉旁，拿著手機對著我們倆的大頭拍了一張照片。510Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUd1HuWVXW0
510Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOEu2MJszBh
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我坐回椅子上，有那麼一段時間，我們都沒有看著彼此，也沒有說話。510Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIb9Mmm1ATg
510Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRbKcnamg1V
「我離婚了。」英傑突然說。
「我被抓後，妳嫂子自己提的。」
「簽字是一定要簽的，拖著她也不對。」510Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡs6oEmyJJAH
510Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfPqc8miuu9
我想起那個沒有喊過他「爸爸」的兒子，但我沒有勇氣開口問。510Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsKGB1cukJ1
510Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡE3J5ZqWsjM
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「妳還有在寫小說嗎？」510Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUQDBhMhnTD
510Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjMKg39zvP2
「…有寫一些小故事。」510Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJNjL2eNH6R
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「那就好，不要隨便放棄喔。」510Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSHdOhLvL1S
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「嗯。我好久沒看到你寫的詩了。」510Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡScw80o7ngw
510Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoyUYJRxZfn
「我太久沒寫字啦…字已經不漂亮，腦子也沒東西了。」510Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡt3eaEgC44y
510Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGDhkHVAuqC
「不會啦，字跡不會隨便改變的。」情感也是。510Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAPcLRvIVfa
510Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcbW6OA7qM9
「妹。」510Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡY8hHkoAeoL
510Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvy2heToIvE
「嗯？」510Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjse8DrrIC6
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「人真的要走到末路的時候，才知道只有家人會無條件的陪在身邊。」
「所以妳一定要好好珍惜家人，不要交壞朋友，也不要太相信外面的人。」
「也不要抽菸、喝太多酒…」
「如果可以，就回去念書，這個社會還是很看學歷…」510Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSvhdWjHyAA
510Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4rLkW8pwxQ
我突然意識到他正在做什麼。510Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMkEip3JdOQ
510Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzAsS7oKqX1
像是交代後事般的叮嚀，我聽在耳裡，痛在心裡，但我不能阻止他這麼做。510Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJ0Gi4DxTT7
510Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡujOKw9iKrh
因為我甚至不知道還有沒有下一次見他的機會。510Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3CkD05Nh98
510Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUYiMsuhAGW
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那天我在醫院陪他直到晚上才離開，他始終笑著，在我面前不表現出痛苦或難過。510Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYnqDjwP5dr
510Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZfp977WLU2
他也答應讓我再去看他，只是要先跟他聯絡。510Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvLzXIf0cCx
510Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVhWfk9JqOG
「我媽有點介意，所以不希望妳們碰到面。」510Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRDnhaUSwvX
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爾後我又見了他兩次，其中一次他告訴我，他信了主耶穌。510Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZLg0zd7PLQ
510Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡftibKqIHGx
我知道是身體病痛的折磨，讓他尋求精神上的慰藉。他親自寫了信給教會的小孩子，用自己的經歷告誡孩子們勿入歧途。510Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeriFltdsop
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我知道他害怕，知道他尋求救贖。510Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡS4tay8jLuO
510Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡg6HWsMDyYM
我知道他就算把地獄或罪人掛在嘴邊，仍是害怕受苦的。510Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEDjdK8A5Ot
510Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡy9nSrF6flI
我知道他也許到了這一刻才開始後悔。510Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzRdCo5jqRV
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但我是欣慰的。510Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsoSpmiHd2U
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那一天來的又快又急。510Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1yDTdCgB3F
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「妹…」510Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡznfRW5SJZs
510Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAfVmAIlYJY
我接起電話，只聽到英傑喊了我，然後是沉重的喘息與啜泣。510Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwzHofBTLax
510Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIRwMlqDMr4
「你怎麼了？怎麼了？」510Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUh9zGpGMEC
510Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1jGy9MijmL
還拿著手機和他說話，我已經起身準備出門去醫院。510Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzGkBU5B4lS
510Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡf69UDa8fRB
「我還不想死…」他哭著說。510Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuvDG27vNrf
510Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDZQnxHGwFe
那句話狠狠地撕裂了我的胸口。510Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsuwYfow1Tb
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我跑進病房，英傑似乎剛剛才穩定下來，吊著點滴、眼眶泛紅、面容消瘦，也比上次更加蒼白、手臂上都是青色與紫色的瘀青。510Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQQwzhlvLtb
510Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuX762udu25
他的母親與姐姐看見我，臉色明顯地不自在。510Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzhvBIPKTvk
510Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqOdaIdC8zD
英傑打那通電話給我的時候，她們是不是也在呢？510Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXpcKrSh9nP
510Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKYqwekNv06
她們小聲地和英傑說了幾句話，就走出病房，留給我和他說話的空間。510Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmejfQPHKBm
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我坐到上次的位置，握住他的手。510Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyPESustky8
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那雙手已又更瘦更冰冷了。510Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ79W69xw5FF
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「我真的，還不想死。」510Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡC8DXXYqTa8
510Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzYpil5xmZE
我握著他的手出了點力。510Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡA8Tqbqqe4b
510Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡj46HZcr4HM
「我很害怕。」510Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSE8Z8gRXwX
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「我很怕死…」510Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFbcKIzfjyi
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他沒看著我，只盯著手。說完，他的眼淚就掉下來。510Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnNOugA0dXT
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那是我第一次看見他掉眼淚，也是最後一次。510Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcmHq5OOaXg
510Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3cMW68zwoj
「你已經悔改了，你一定會去天堂的。」我已經滿臉淚水，但還是看著他的眼睛說。510Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3ojSKck6GS
510Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡF0ZSzr9ICL
「全身都很痛…」他終於抬頭看我。510Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHmvo4ugXsc
510Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLaHu50zHS2
我趕緊抽幾張衛生紙擦他的臉，他的雙頰與眼窩都已經凹陷，我的手盡可能地放輕力道，就怕他疼。510Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡl6zrKcHeNF
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「你很努力了，我知道你很努力了…」510Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡB9ccrsyJq4
510Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXiR987LUxI
我抱住他，驚覺他已弱不禁風的事實。510Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡm2RDted9Ol
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這讓我倏地停止了自己的眼淚。510Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1Vozm6vK4S
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「沒事的，你的主會帶你離開，之後就不痛苦了。」510Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡe6EtBjnFWr
510Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡT9oOTOrZZv
英傑在我的臂彎裡哭泣了許久，才安靜下來。510Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡySIO8rmcE5
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「妹。」510Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1cSsJNGtS4
510Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8wEaccP3zd
「嗯？」510Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaI027yYAyT
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「抽屜裡有一封信是給妳的。」510Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlu73gw4O4U
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我打開抽屜，拿起那個信封。510Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvHkadRcFqy
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「回去再看。」510Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2CuKJeWeyV
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「好。」我收起信。510Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡknaRVmzXp4
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「妳回去吧。」510Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxpey0jdMoU
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「什麼？」510Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡc3EUodVty9
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「謝謝妳來…可是不要再來了。」510Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMfhbepyFKd
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「為什麼？」510Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmrcw0sPzBV
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「我不想要妳送我離開，妳會很傷心，我也不想要看到妳那麼傷心。」510Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrbqxOIhWrW
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「……」510Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1ubWbl5LP4
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「回去吧。」510Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEH2A1aI6o3
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他看著我，又對我笑了，那個笑看起來很費勁，也是他一直以來對我的溫柔表現。510Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIyEezgXhKe
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不讓我送他走，也是哥哥對妹妹的溫柔。510Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6j1qD7AeON
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我又抱了抱他才離開。510Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ70TEAjFxtM
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當天晚上十點多，我收到他姊姊的簡訊。510Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXWwUiQ9i1G
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「英傑已經走了。」510Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaBTO0o9KVL
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那一瞬間我向心裡所有知道的神祈求，希望英傑能到更好的地方，希望他不要再受苦了。510Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOyBbrggq1H
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我打開信封，裡面只有一張書籤大的紙。510Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡj2sZMIrmW2
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「Dear 妹：」510Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡI2ifwICsNl
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「妳永遠是我的天使，510Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzauyKT1Sps
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請不要忘記我。」510Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDrhwXb0h55
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「哥 英傑」510Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvGlfggK4LG
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我抱著自己，放任自己哭到睡著。510Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfjaqUFIIQ5
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之後的每一年，我不選在英傑的忌日，而是在他的冥誕當天悼念他。510Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQIPgVBOkaN
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每一年的五月三十，我都會寫一封信，表達我的思念，讓他知道「我沒有忘記他」。510Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGXEg9PwqHg
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前幾年每到這天，我總是哭，總是放任自己因為想念而哭得泣不成聲。510Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgoq1LckW6i
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後來的後來，我漸漸不哭了，但沒有改變在這一天寫信的習慣。510Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSQoWXBnIB5
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英傑的回憶有時像巨石背在背上，有時像羽毛沾在胸口，無論哪一種，都是無法遺棄。510Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcbNJJCWZg6
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他走後，我便不再輕易評論一個人的好與壞。510Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSTZlfMaEZq
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曾經我在英傑的新聞底下看見很多網友的謾罵、抨擊甚至是汙辱，我感到憤怒與心痛，想一個一個回應他們「你們什麼都不知道！」510Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWrX5MhPx7w
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但我什麼也沒做。510Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLvCQYMBsCB
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因為那些人不認識他，也永遠不會認識他。510Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdnETX4Gqy4
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所以我再也不對任何新聞或社會事件做評論。因為我知道，我不認識當事人，更不能體會當事人的親屬心情。510Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMmCMSCZhaK
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我回去念書，考進了大學，年年以取得獎學金為目標，只為不要白學。510Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbIgL4zvJXx
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一直沒有放棄創作，可能也是因為惦記著他說過的話。510Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjpsiySJpoM
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說起遺憾，大概是我喊他「英傑」比喊他「哥哥」的次數要多更多了吧。510Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJnKOx6FLXx
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去年，我沒有寫信。510Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnPK9BTd3jC
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我選擇在當天完成他的故事。510Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡv0J1MpmzBZ
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他是一隻孤傲的鷹，獨自在天空闖蕩，受盡風霜，最後回巢，在家人身邊闔上眼。510Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWg7ySsvhCp
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我是活在地面的狼，只能抬頭望著，用我的爪在沙上畫下他在天空翱翔的姿態。510Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRlgFF3qIWe
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這是，我哥哥的故事。510Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaxfIijOO9L
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