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我無法相信這個來歷不明的男人。519Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7IPtRANqfA
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媽媽介紹說阿亮是她二十五年前上契的兒子。當時十歲的他又乖又可愛，學業成績很不錯，奈何天生欠運氣，生於不良家庭……519Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZnsATC9P5r
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我一邊聽著陳年舊事，一邊斜眼仔細打量這個所謂「義子」：個子高䠷，五官端正，衣著樸素，彬彬有禮，穩重敦厚。他行為舉止並無不妥，但我硬是沒能輕易放下戒心——二十五年不曾聯絡，誰保證他仍然又乖又可愛？519Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8cDLjc42Xy
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媽媽每天與阿亮逛街、遊玩、看電影，買衫買錶買手提電話，花費全由她負責。她亦會主動替阿亮繳交雜費和屋租。有時候，媽媽被逗得大樂，甚至即興賞他千元。我火冒三丈——與阿亮重遇短短三個月，媽媽的銀行戶口已少了二十萬元！519Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ34Oe4pwcIs
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媽媽屢勸不聽，我唯有跟那傢伙談判。我依著早前在媽媽手袋偷偷找到的水費單地址來到阿亮住所。那是位於近郊地區的一間三層高獨立屋，裝潢新簇，難怪租金高昂。519Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQKv9wVKRhI
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步向大門，正要按下門鈴，忽聞一陣男女交歡淫穢之聲。我心不期然劇烈暴跳——腦海裡竟是媽媽與阿亮赤裸擁吻的畫面……519Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhPHm7ESwlb
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不會吧！阿亮歲數與我差不多，年約三十五，媽媽年過六十……519Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3uAuOSQUVT
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沒可能！沒可能！519Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2J8zIIQwqf
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不會的！不會的！519Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVBHnjaIlv3
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大門旁有一扇趟窗，窗玻璃經磨砂處理，不被看透。發現趟窗未閂，有一細隙。我只消鼓起勇氣踏前幾步，就能清楚看見兩條肉蟲在門後或纏或顫……519Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡztZZR6mBhv
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門後又傳來一陣浪叫，叫得我心驚肉跳，止步不前。我怕媽媽被騙財，更怕她被騙色。被騙財是笨，被騙色是對爸爸的背叛。若東窗事發，爸爸顏面何存？媽媽如何自處？我該講情或是講理？這個家能夠回復平靜嗎？519Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvN1lLF7ey2
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我怕，真的害怕，怕得轉身離開。
三日後，星期六，我放假。心情欠佳，宅在家裡看電視。爸爸與好友外出釣魚，媽媽參加了社區中心舉辦的「海鮮美食一日遊」，二人都說預計晚上九時許回家。519Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡg1TI2uGGTv
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居所空蕩，爸媽各自各精彩，無所事事的我更為心煩。519Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNU6wXTRpNN
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今天是否找阿亮談判的好時機？媽媽說參加活動是否謊話？她是否藉故離家一整天陪伴阿亮？她是否到那獨立屋去？那天被壓在胯下浪叫的女人是否……519Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhZqsOKQjLH
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我不敢繼續想像。519Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5mw5JkCnqo
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咔——嚓——大門手抽忽爾扭動。519Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMlk0OwTZcX
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懶閒的我猛然從梳化彈起，望向大門。519Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUoNJ7W1N1J
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是阿亮！519Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8QwsQtIu99
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「你怎麼會有鎖匙？」我驚詫得抱緊咕𠱸。519Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNLDD2b2QKO
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「你媽給我的。」阿亮脫下波鞋，純熟彎身在鞋櫃找到拖鞋，活像這單位的真正主人。519Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPcSj6ZL7NN
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「我不相信！」相比阿亮的泰然自若，慌張失措的我更似外來者。519Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXRS2hNWPUR
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「你該早知道你媽有多相信我。」阿亮常速步近，在我旁邊座位坐下。「那天，屋外，你在。」519Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyPpTqjM8ja
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我沒能立即反應過來——這傢伙到底是甚麼心態？完全無法理解他何以能夠如此輕易將羞恥事宣之於口！他態度是那麼的光明正大！那麼的理直氣壯！519Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNjCkt1hYRo
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沒待我回話，阿亮逕自拿起遙控器轉換頻道，目光焦點全落在電視屏幕上。519Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZqEy6KVMQM
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我腦袋無法運轉，突感暈眩，唯有背靠梳化休息，盡量放鬆心情。519Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ05Z3aby7Ip
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整整十分鐘。他在我身邊看電視整整十分鐘。519Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxtbGUSXrLe
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他忽然拿起遙控器關掉電視電源，伸一伸懶腰，離開梳化，走向主人房：爸媽的睡房。「別擔心。其實我是來取回一點小東西——之前不小心遺留在這裡。」519Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ65AhtmLG7x
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不知哪來的勇氣。我衝前拉住他，搧他一記耳光。整輩子的力氣和勇氣彷彿耗盡。我氣喘不已，心臟絞痛，腳軟無力。阿亮連忙攙扶我到梳化去，給我取來藥物和暖水。我沒有接過藥丸，猶豫望入他雙眼：這傢伙可信嗎？519Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡG1zhObN7Qd
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「擔心我把藥物換掉嗎？」阿亮似乎明白我的想法，輕蔑一笑，順道在我失神之際強行把藥丸塞入我口，然後灌水。519Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9uy3sxO76F
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我激烈掙扎，使勁推開他。519Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2lP7B0ca5b
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水杯脫手，著地，粉碎。519Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNCyxsoSOFI
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我的理智也跟著粉碎。519Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡONBFRPOQ5Z
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我再次撲前將他壓倒地上，揮拳相向。他先是吃了兩拳，後來在幾下格擋之間已然找到亂拳套路，再來一個突擊重拳就將我打翻在地。我天旋地轉，短時間無法撐身子，只得繼續癱軟地上。519Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8y4WhuZyZB
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他迅速走入主人房取東西，幾秒後出來，順道將藥瓶放到地面、我身邊。519Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡe0b05iCfP5
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「要幫忙嗎？」踏出大門前，他回頭問。519Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRakLYEuGlI
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「你走！」我怒吼。519Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtiToiV8pAq
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他沒回話，利落轉身離開。
我瑟縮被窩，激動不已。519Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbLbOwbXL8J
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怎麼我這樣窩囊？怎麼我連一拳亦受不了？我是女人，卻非弱質纖纖惹人憐愛那類型。皮膚黝黑，體型高大，聲線低沉，講話中氣十足。若把長髮剪短，不認識我的人必會誤以為我是大漢。平日行為粗野，怎麼在關鍵時刻變得如此脆弱？我生自己的氣……519Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡY8qIrNbf5M
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咯——咯——敲門聲。519Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZlY1InJOQe
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「囡呀！」是爸爸。他不是晚上回家嗎？怎麼提早回來？「我買了你最喜歡的椰汁紫米露！快來吃！」519Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLIXu9UjEfh
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「不了。沒胃口。」我左頰瘀青，不敢被他看見，免他擔心。519Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2KNzUsHNPp
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「別生氣吧！是你揮拳在先，阿亮僅是自衛反……」爸爸向來好脾氣，但我真沒料到他得悉女兒被打時還是如此菩薩心腸。519Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJjak5yFOFw
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「你知道事情全部真相嗎？別聽信人家片面之詞就妄下判斷！」我氣得揚被落床衝前開門大吼。反正爸爸已然知道我的狀況，我也不必強撐謊稱自己安好無恙。519Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxVzQvtmf9v
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「阿亮沒需要隱瞞。」爸爸依然慘被蒙在鼓裡卻一副了然於胸的模樣，氣得我牙癢癢同時欲言又止——我實在不希望他感覺受傷。519Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSTECvjiwm2
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我強抑怒火，乖乖到飯廳吃糖水去。519Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcFasoUuCva
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飯廳寧靜得陌生。一枱之隔，七百毫米距離。我倆之間，盡是秘密與誤會。519Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyyAmz0M2FO
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我首次覺得秘密與誤會好東西，不明真相是幸福。519Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6HMV7dTi1C
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受委屈是有價值的。519Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLRpPEpIhbf
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息事寧人、大事化無是做人應有態度。519Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjHg1Q9xH6s
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「我之後會向阿亮道歉。」我說，心甘情願地。519Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjjhrhXaGWf
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爸爸先是一愣，然後找來遙控器略為調高電視聲量，舒緩緊張氣氛。劇集角色正在飯枱邊閒話家常，稱讚湯水美味，說長子完成學業打算回港就業，提及祖母近來身體欠佳……519Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRKcp0WkIrm
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「囡呀。」爸爸一口氣清掉碗中蕃薯糖水。眼神淡然，神情嚴肅，當中不協調令我倍感不安。「我不介意媽媽與阿亮的關係。」519Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡP500KwcrTs
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我拿著湯匙的手應聲凝在半空。幾粒位處匙沿的紫米連帶椰汁滑落碗中，與碗中母體融合如一，無分你我他。519Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡB7WcRUvNgb
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「哈！」我蔑笑，笑自己多管閒事：「你不介意與別人共享妻子？」519Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFm1bM6aLuX
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「不愛了。她不愛我，我不愛她。所以不介意。」爸爸從膠袋拿出第二碗蕃薯糖水，低頭繼續吃。聽說爸爸媽媽以前都愛吃蕃薯糖水。不過後來媽媽口味變了，喜歡新式水果甜品，對蕃薯糖水不再感興趣。519Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbv2LPUMp5x
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「『不愛』就離婚。未離婚就不該與別人發展關係。」我的笑容更深更冷。我不是真的想笑，奈何我必須竭盡全力去穩定情緒、保持理智，無法分神去處理表情。519Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKyz7pxgdYb
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「我們是不會離婚的。」爸爸找不到牙籤剔牙，乾脆動用食指：「一把年紀，無謂生事。與其花時間辦離婚，倒不如釣魚或吃糖水，更快樂。」519Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡi2PfoUuzo2
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「我不明白……」我不明白何以爸爸花了大半輩子在這個家庭、這個女人身上，如今竟可如此豁達面對背叛。519Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡv3EEcfI5zm
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「因為你年紀尚輕。」爸爸似乎估計到我會說甚麼，搶先回答，順利終結話題。
又一個假日，我再次去到阿亮住所門前。毫不猶豫按下門鈴。應門的阿亮呆住兩秒，回神後以手勢示意我內進。他從廚房拿來一罐汽水。我沒有接下，轉身坐在近門的一張扶手椅。他沒趣地將汽水放在茶几上。519Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiHkhI7QgXz
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「來尋仇？」他調侃，右嘴角微微上揚，態度輕佻。519Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡh2t4u6D3rM
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「立即離開我媽！我會給你三十萬！」我開門見山。519Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvSxr5sBAt4
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「不是我不願離開她，是她不願離開我！」他失聲大笑：「你勸她離開我就可以。當然——我是不會退回一分一毫的。」519Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡN2dn5PUwU5
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我上前摑他一記耳光。519Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0RhbgpMwQK
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他不把我的巴掌當作一回事，繼續笑：「你爸你媽比你聰明多了——他們從未對此事認真。」519Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5DVE0NiJTH
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我滿腦子問號，沒有即時反駁。若說爸爸從未對此事認真，我明白。但他說媽媽同樣不曾認真，我不認同，甚至為他對我媽的否定感到氣憤：「她真金白銀花了二十多萬在你身上，怎會不曾認真？」519Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ89N69s9clZ
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「即便我們沒有重遇，只消她在同樣時間點遇上另一個滿嘴甜言蜜語的男人，這二十多萬肯定同樣會被花掉。」阿亮拿起茶几上的汽水，拉環，喝，吐氣，一臉舒爽。「人生在世，每天辛勤工作賺錢，就是想要活得快樂。你媽想要快樂，湊巧遇上一個能令她快樂的人。一拍即合。她願意付款買快樂，對方願意收錢賣快樂。你情我願，簡單易明，不是嗎？」519Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsUH28a9b5m
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「這不是你情我願！這是欺騙！你在騙財騙情！」我對阿亮的歪理感到不耐煩，乾脆拿出支票簿寫銀碼。「三十萬，給你的！立即離開我媽！」519Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNdTPor8jkb
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他接下支票，單指輕彈。啪啪兩聲，輕、短、弱。苦笑：「這是你用多少青春換來的？」519Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkQbSaMWvNG
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聞言，我心不期然緊揪。我學歷不高，收入微薄，唯有靠節衣縮食積累財富。不為甚麼，只因認命——我這質素的女生該不會找到伴侶，晚年生活只得依靠自己……519Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡp2dvQpLxJG
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「有興趣花在我身上嗎？」阿亮在我出神之際不著聲色繞到扶手椅後，雙手搭在我肩溫柔按摩起來。手溫暖和，手勢純熟，力度得宜。連夜加班的我肩頸劇痛得以舒緩。519Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWPI8J1cqTQ
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我激動得無法動彈，因為我開始明白阿亮悉才的一番話。519Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnGVEdlnCst
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阿亮適時彎身從後趨近我耳，以氣音細語：「你值得快樂。」519Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwEJv3WIseI
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我失控掩臉痛哭。阿亮環臂擁抱我。519Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWj1A52M8Hj
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我知道必須推開他！我命令自己推開他、掌摑他、搥打他……519Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlxAbCCmnRa
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「乖！放鬆！」阿亮無視我的亂拳，溫柔為我拭淚：「別難過，你值得快樂。」519Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQuJL8yxmzy
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手腳忽爾酥軟，內心忽爾安寧。似乎找到安頓內心之處——不是阿亮這個人，而是這份溫柔細心與甜蜜呵哄。519Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuW3syULamf
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「乖……」阿亮的臉逐漸趨近。雙眸多麼明亮，皮膚多麼細滑，雙唇多麼柔軟，舌頭多麼靈巧……
