「我憎恨你！永遠憎恨你！」567Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9srgPKyjRi
567Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgQoO4FHzci
衣衫單薄的阿妹無視冷雨紛飛，跑出遮雨簷篷，衝過警方封鎖線，直撲上前搥打我胸膛，拳拳復拳拳，拳拳到肉，拳拳入心。我沒有還手——不打算反抗，而且雙手被手拷反扣在後——默默垂眼看著她雙手沾染我衫上血跡。這時何等奇妙的感覺：父母的血在我和她體內，亦在她手上、我衫上。567Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGsnhYe5TV3
567Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ62gn2DS6X6
附近幾位警員沒有立即阻止阿妹，待她發洩將近十秒、有記者正要舉機拍攝時才拉開她。567Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4l0Oqe3Mje
567Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTVlDZoDlbW
登上警車，我輕問身旁警員：「你們是故意的吧？」567Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ40EVkuTlXw
567Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCX8yOEknlg
警員目不斜視，對著空氣道：「你殺死父母，是故意的吧？」567Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡED7N8bNqUl
操場上，烈日刺眼，人影紛亂，或逃跑或追趕。兩幫囚犯因私怨扭打起來，其餘局外囚犯連忙依獄警指示離開現場。我混在逃走行列當中，驀地發現走在前方的人正是與我關係不錯的獄友——阿青。靈機一觸，想到一個減刑方法。567Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ196GeNdTXz
567Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFOKlncq44n
「他有參與打鬥！」臨近操場出入口，我突然指著阿青呼叫。567Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡp49Dhv7I5I
567Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYpxBEPhNHV
阿青尚未意會我所指何事，已然被獄警壓制在地。他面帶怯色，嘗試辯解：「冤枉啊！我沒有……」567Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAInCDMqC5L
567Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiTo7MuHSOZ
「我真的看見阿青參與打鬥！」雖知阿青無辜，但為了建功減刑，我唯有狠下心腸補上一刀：「我平日與阿青關係不錯，沒有冤枉他的理由。」567Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡt05X5XsHij
567Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7sw8bxSh1A
阿青抬頭望我，似乎明白這是甚麼一回事，瞬間臉容扭曲，極力試圖掙脫獄警。更多獄警上前制伏激動不已的阿青，甚至對他施用棍擊。567Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZKbEf3xT6H
567Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRIn7FymyBA
亂棍之下，頭破血流的阿青咬牙切齒，勉力抬頭怒目瞪著我：「你這忘恩負義的傢伙！枉我在獄中處處維護你，代你吃下不少苦頭！走著瞧！我定會算帳！我不會放過你！我永遠憎恨你！」567Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTBgvrzyD7E
狹小房間內，淫穢之聲迴繞不散。在我胯下的年輕小女生或嬌喘或呻吟，胸前兩團白肉隨著抽插節奏晃晃盪盪。567Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRwiCxGk85b
567Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡepIzEehQU6
咔——567Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvAj7ejC575
567Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3m9yKB9dhW
小女生被房外聲響嚇驚，表情僵住：「客廳有人。」567Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwk8xn1RtYm
567Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOm44bVfSjd
「是我妻子。」我處變不驚，繼續重覆腰肢動作。567Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkCIwcS6yUu
567Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhEuI6Ju5l6
「你不怕……」小女生奇怪我的冷靜。567Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhUStbEhchR
567Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnXq5AqaEf8
「孕婦，跑不遠、跑不快，怕甚麼？」我伸手微微施力掐住小女生細長白頸，暗示不滿她話太多。也許不安導致情緒緊張，沒多久我倆雙雙高潮完事。小女生沒有洗澡，匆匆收錢離開。567Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡf8oVjiRpo4
567Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡE900Ao5nnb
我叼菸走向梳化，在芝芝身旁坐下，安慰道：「放心。金錢交易。不是長期關係。」567Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJwulVjOvlB
567Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZz52RAfK7R
挺著巨肚的芝芝低頭不語，臉色玄青。567Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3BRNMA6A7J
567Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrZXh4ItkVu
「沒法子。生理需要。總不能憋住十個月。」我口說得輕鬆，心裡細細數算芝芝跟我多少個年頭。567Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzIhtuuN0S0
567Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsynQ6z56EO
至少三十年。567Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXdDck3rJsN
567Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOpCKMpxSLv
我們相識於中學三年級，彼此都是十五歲。我當時是小混混，她是不良少女，一拍即合。後來我殺人判囚，幸得減刑出獄。沒能回家。苦惱之際，誰料芝芝主動聯絡，供吃供住，只求與我再續前緣。567Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGsZe8Jy6en
567Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡP5DeqfOPFD
「我曾為你的付出感動過。奈何純粹的感動無法改變我本性——我天生就是壞人。」我向芝芝坦白感受，不是出於內疚或推卸責任，而是我沒有隱瞞的原因。567Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWM96oFSFCw
567Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡb5uoRUtmJM
「你曾愛我嗎？」芝芝眼眶通紅，忍淚問了一個傻問題。567Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbIuG2QxLFV
567Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYzw49tbl3X
「我不知道那是否愛。」我對芝芝沒有愛，但在她身上我感受到何謂愛。567Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIDCeIyymHL
567Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOOgT2VaGJu
「你走吧。我和孩子不需要你。」芝芝終於按捺不住，流下兩行清淚，語帶哭腔：「這刻開始，我會開始憎恨你，永遠憎恨你。」567Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2qPilnOGAR
567Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnOuYvFU0Sr
「你早該對我死心。」我聳肩表示沒所謂，直接走出大門，離開單位。567Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOpfFrkhj6n
七十歲的我獨居劏房，不良於行，少有外出，平日依靠社工幫忙購置日用品。567Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡj1M2mI2gLe
567Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVl5AuLL1zT
社工是個初出茅廬的年輕人，不知人世險惡，對我毫無戒心。我撒謊說自己被兒女拋棄，她就拿著我提供的假資料尋人。尋人不果就來關心我更多，買來更多物資。567Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡw5Jm9Spjcb
567Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBZu0F4Zsfw
相識之初，我經常在心裡嘲笑她笨蛋。不過隨著相處時間增多，我多次目睹她為我無私付出，不禁開始動容，深切自省。567Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ18i2yMjfA2
567Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡm6m2NSOe08
夜深人靜，流浪狗吠聲忽遠忽近，對面大廈招牌的刺眼強光穿透薄窗簾，在牆上映出花花綠綠迷幻色塊。無眠，憶起很多人，很多我虧欠過的人。爸媽……阿妹……阿青……芝芝……孩子……其實我一直以來知道自己有多壞、多可惡。為何明知故犯？因為我不相信永遠。567Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSkcr0VPo8z
567Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNd5eSGPFUn
沒有永遠的惡，沒有永遠的愛。只有眼前利益和當刻快感。567Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡccNnZTRYM7
567Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFEQYrYiQiz
我自私？誰不自私？爸媽養兒防老，阿妹需要爸媽供書教學，阿青幫我是貪慕虛榮，芝芝救我是為彌補遺憾。誰沒計算？人人都在計算！567Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrhblAGc1Oj
567Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEm7hkEclTR
感動退散，惡意再生。567Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7EySqv9yuW
567Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdxW7eRiUIJ
缺失很多，要求更多。567Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAntkw6B3SW
567Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5F89d1rX34
缺失愛，索求愛。567Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5AxNNWaRve
567Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsHl9EVuNaa
變本加厲。567Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZ15R54JZ3A
567Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHAxV6dHDxI
理所當然。567Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjyvmN5BXXM
567Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNuBxKGxSc9
社工說疫情險峻，求助人數激增，難以經常前來探望我。我埋怨她不關心我。她解釋說機構人手資源有限，無法重點照顧我一人。567Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFNXNypamge
567Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0K8WpwJc68
她離開。我撒野：「你偽善！快走！別來！我憎恨你！永遠！」567Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqNCSSOsmyr
567Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDfguFRBA8X
沒有永遠的愛。567Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5ALDDJfq9c
567Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnmniNCzx4Z
缺失愛，索求愛。567Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpxQJyFPvbC
567Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIculpxgw8U
鳳姐索價三百元。567Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEQqEHof3th
567Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCcL9m8LeE8
她有眼前利益，我有當刻快感。567Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPM8xfXGjjR
567Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡY4kuNKNQTP
完事。567Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkHkThu0nWZ
567Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvwQhqXvow6
一切歸空。567Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUIvji1zKuZ
567Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdgKSOMgQyu
理所當然。567Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQF0xgWRJMl
