x
天藍，樹青，人閒。556Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAKdb7CMaH1
556Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡc9TNGH2BFZ
衣來張手，飯來張口。556Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0du4QTwtk0
556Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5kx4pbdoMc
無煩無憂，無欲無求。556Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJ5WvAksywR
556Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5n5igxwtnj
輕飄飄，輕如無物。556Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡe0JQslzLou
556Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7Aa6e4RD3N
我說：「若有所失。」556Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrgFjmEEWi5
556Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBwMKiaPsrp
祂問：「有何缺失？」556Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYYqelusxwX
556Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDtFXCMp8H6
愣，無法言明。556Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmSH2j1boyE
556Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPs8GasbDak
橫行世間，萬物向我膜拜，因為我是人類，是祂最愛的造物。我說鹿角形態優雅，鹿脫角奉上。我說喜歡蘋果清甜，荒地倏忽長苗，苗成樹，樹開花，花結果，果落地。是蘋果。咬，清甜，如我所願。說不出的滿足，說不出的失落。556Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXtLnd6kNtW
556Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIr4pciamtz
夜，與伴繾綣星光下。奔放，放空，空洞。躺卧大地，仰望繁星。556Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqpiTKWzSbN
556Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡW8JAoheS3r
他問：「哪顆星星最美麗？」556Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBgFRLupKPw
556Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnjUHOiFkNf
我答：「差不多。」556Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8lTsqlj9tB
556Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkV7XSqYtEo
他問：「如果某顆星星消失了，我們該不會察覺到吧。」556Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAStdefOs3E
556Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡh2QDW5yyFz
我答：「是的。」556Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8lIEUQBKff
556Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡc1QTyXtq8B
他苦笑，睡，再也沒有醒來。556Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrwIfcs7mGN
556Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡukCewyYtT0
問祂因由，祂亦感奇怪——人類享有無盡生命，內無疾病，外無創傷，怎會無端暴斃？556Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2AAvqnFFFv
556Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2cVxvJdRB0
「別憂傷。」祂是慈愛的：「我可以給你再造一個新伴侶。」556Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvf2qNjPlvF
556Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDYhYzDaYsA
我說只想要回原本的伴。556Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbf4tOeNpy7
556Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡX4WW75DPuW
祂創造出一個一模一樣的他。556Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4v4ze6uaBl
556Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIhyPwkJqe6
一樣的身體，一樣的性格，一樣的記憶。556Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7BQLxKNhUv
556Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpHmhzKBl6L
但我清楚知道這並不是與我相處百年的那個他。556Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRG2w6L6X4G
556Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUx5sy8V8k3
我沒多話，向祂跪叩道謝。556Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGYeRGTHS4A
556Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUCffrqhyfZ
與新伴離開宮殿、往山下走去時，有人帶著伴侶遺體上山向祂求助。556Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPoAKIM5dso
556Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtUbblwR9Hu
似乎人類暴斃並非單一事件……556Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfnspl52ZGx
556Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ682VfFX0GJ
森林裡、星空下、營火旁，我和新伴與萬歲老者促膝長談。556Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡACK3GJ1Yow
556Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡR0ZPV694ur
「當感受不到自己存在，就會死去。」老者伸手入火堆：「痛楚令我感受到自身存在……」556Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ53m0MxilLB
556Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡP0qhy3z6UV
「順心日子令我開始思考自己是否存在。甚或是……」老者縮手，幽幽莞爾：「我的存在是否有意義？」556Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7EWPr7ht7j
556Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhMZfB4J1Hl
一直沉默的新伴突然開口接話：「那夜，我發現耀眼星星可有可無，我立時明白自己更是不過爾爾。」說罷，新伴倒地死去。556Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡU4Qzhq6Mcy
556Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzBsXrxmblP
我不感悲傷，因為這是他的選擇——他以自己想要的方式去處理自己。556Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAirXdxtUcw
556Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡASOOWvxZl5
「你找到答案沒？」我問老者。556Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpBDqgj1jgJ
556Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡs8r9BUs9qR
「沒。」老者坦言：「『未有答案』也許是最佳答案——我有不停思考的原因。然後『不停思考』成為我繼續活著的原因。」556Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuN6JGz4g5h
556Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXaR5IgU862
「這豈不是自尋煩惱？」我難以想像如何在煩惱狀態下活上萬年：「如此活下去有何意義？」556Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLAhkVABvH0
556Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIFe2SyjbFc
「我只知死亡以後，一切意義於我變得沒意義。」老者沒有正面回應我的提問，避重就輕指出更壞情況，巧妙突顯現狀的好。老者答案偏頗，皆因不欲承認真相。人類沒能承認意識不到的事物。換言之，老者早知答案。556Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBKTkS2hKEL
556Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLIaPPTBv0k
他聰明，知我聰明，亦知道我知道他知道甚麼。556Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaT8g6v0FVg
556Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwcoB4ebnQX
無法繼續逃避，老者倒地斷氣。556Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1Aq9QGBCDR
556Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOEpAN6zuFW
我不驚不訝，伴屍凝望柴火沉思。556Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXsBRGQnfEs
556Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhLAz4HdHWK
我沒有死去，因為我並非思考意義何在，而是思考如何創造意義。556Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtm1VzImNY5
556Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFD3NChqP41
天明。我動手創造意義去。556Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsAx7bKklrx
556Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGzPDJc7tmJ
撥弄柴枝，焚燒遺體，燎亮森林。556Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡj1hvlMmIEA
556Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCBjx2ziWyw
有人運水，有人撲火，有人救人。各施其職，各盡其義。556Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVM4AyYw8At
556Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaEJ8ThuQ4V
我氣定神閒，穿過人群，前往山上宮殿找祂。居高臨下，俯視地面眾生奔波頻撲，頓時百感交集。556Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡY0gS6zS04C
556Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡG8GQCdDbiB
「你不怪責我？」我直接問。556Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡek0T1vU26y
556Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCUUAaxMGdq
「我明白你用意。」祂無所不知。556Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTO0Ll5PN4u
556Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIoZjDCmgjY
「你早知大家暴斃原因？」我所知有限，因為我只是一個普通人類。556Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9FmJL00bqV
556Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0ixMGtwkd1
「我知道原因，但我無法理解，所以沒能解決。」祂愛人類，卻非人類，無法徹底代入人類角度：「我不明白為何人類需要『充滿缺憾的世界』。完美的和平世界不好嗎？」556Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡm3j9cj5LzE
556Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdSF4L8Pv7k
「有我的世界完美和平，無我的世界完美和平，換言之，我就是可有可無的、沒意義的。」我指著忙碌救火的人們說：「看！一場火災令大家由百無聊賴的遊民立時變為救人救火的大英雄。」556Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡW2YUUxN4F9
556Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAFuB5bhHzI
「為了證明自己，寧願離開幸福，不斷遭遇不幸？」完美的祂不明缺憾的美麗。556Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5MRqVcTPJu
556Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡo0DP9g3RgI
我堅決點頭。556Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDogbMmCmcO
556Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCgEpERvM7z
祂悲傷流淚。淚水觸地一刻，我被強大力量彈飛，飛離宮殿，安然著地——祂還是愛著每個人類，包括我。556Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoJXfqssAmF
556Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrQ2llr7PQ0
我回頭遙望，宮殿消失了。556Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡv021kwPo3g
556Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXbhYzC3G2J
感動，感恩，感慨。556Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNjqaf7i8R8
556Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2KC7OqIUlS
祂竟默許我的行動！556Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAx6uvqlTy9
556Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRmIegurntR
我浪跡天涯，到處作惡。556Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡByYwe1g9OI
556Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPVE85jJ9zo
有人追殺我，說我破壞和平，為禍人間。556Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2i7hn8P7w0
556Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡesWlupq2lz
有人認同我，協助我，保護我，膜拜我。556Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7kmKsbPWEu
556Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMJ1BZEpzOe
時日漸過，當追殺者和追隨者各佔世界人口一半，我選擇隱退。556Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAidFs2lr12
556Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8J0o8LBz6G
億年過去。我某天在街頭偶遇祂。祂說剛在新開張的咖啡室買了咖啡和蛋糕，邀我一起到宮殿品嚐。我說好的，不過要先到便利店支付電費。祂笑問為何不繼續拖欠。我說經已拖欠幾季，快要被斷電。祂笑我假壞蛋，我笑祂假正經。556Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSzjtzIQgGb
556Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1h7NYRFD3m
宮殿依舊宏偉，祂依舊和藹，我依舊迷惘。556Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGBUVftcLKQ
556Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzokMuuZ2oR
「覺得現今人類怎麼樣？」我嚐一口咖啡，暗讚苦酸澀比例得宜。556Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJL9wiFg8pA
556Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlIbVx1lVoV
「怪。」祂眉頭輕皺。「你呢？喜歡現在的人間嗎？」556Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcVE3ug46kU
556Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAS7kBzhpIm
「我不敢細想這問題……我擔心自己會後悔……」我望出窗外，俯視雲下人世眾生，雙手不自控微顫：「人類壽命日益縮短，我估計無人可以活過一百二十歲……」556Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4HD6aprsZS
556Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLgSE8YOYmM
「你認為是自己一手造成？」祂倒是比之前更淡然，放下咖啡杯，轉而品嚐蛋糕。沒待我回答，祂又繼續說：「無論你有沒有插手，人類終究會滅亡，分別在於滅亡時間和方式。」556Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhxLl75id6c
556Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOmQNkUqFzz
「我不明白。人類本有永恆壽命，若非我自作聰明，大家該可以……」我的內疚感硬生生被祂的說話壓下——因為祂不會說謊——取而代之的是大量疑問。556Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxMCkvr2qh2
556Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeyY1iOpSAY
「我在造人時加入了『分別心』，令每個人類都有獨特性格和思考模式，希望集思廣益有助促進新一波人類文明快速發展。豈料分別心令人類十分在意自身和周遭人事物的區別，部份偏激人類甚至完全否定自身，因而暴斃。」祂碟上蛋糕不知不覺間缺了大半，當然，也可以說是祂吃掉大半。若有所失同時若有所得：「打算召喚大洪水給大家來個痛快了斷，減輕痛苦，誰料你提出一個奇特方法！我姑且放手讓你一試，效果很不錯。」556Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRnjCqqSTwb
556Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBve5Weg5DO
「不過大家的壽命縮……」我聽不出我的煩惱與祂的解說有何關係。556Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ014CsCGCDQ
556Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡL0JXvIgWWX
「活膩了，自然不想活。無論世界和平或混亂，無論本身壽命長或短，無論生活順心或困苦……」見我思路走入死胡同，祂直斷了當道出當中因由罷：「無論旁人如何對待，最終決定權還是在當事人手上。」556Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJjE5yI3gej
556Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6ZQlD2UvDu
繃緊多年的情緒得到解放，活上億年的我倒在祂懷裡，哭得像個孩子。556Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDTokKJEwf1
556Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMH8AQzfFEL
「我哭累了……」556Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRGUWWei5c4
556Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNc9mhwhY4X
「那就好好入睡吧。」556Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlalW5rzD8g
556Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbPbzHBXIqm
「可以不醒來嗎？」556Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxBlcO3j4YH
556Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4z0itiISMh
「隨你喜歡。」556Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxNUnfig8ix
556Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhF7A1q5wde
「謝謝。」556Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡypCRlHJXQe
556Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLBwUD7fQ4C
「不用謝。」556Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBQh225mrjr
556Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsUtmcA74vw
「我愛祢。」556Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxHdvf8I9UT
556Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOLD6VXFEOy
「我愛你們。」556Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuhN3tV0q8X
