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一九九三年，他六歲。434Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPFvyHvwTxc
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夏夜有風。媽媽替他更換小背心當睡衣，撥扇哄他入睡。睡得香甜，不願醒來，懶理微微發癢的臉頰。434Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBCQ5VGZ7lg
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夏日惡毒，毒不過他臉頰上的無名腫毒。媽媽焦急收拾銀包和證件，說要帶他到醫院。爸爸睄他一眼，認為他近日吃過量煎炸食物，長暗瘡，純粹熱氣，無需花錢求醫。媽媽沒好氣，匆匆拖著神智不清的他前往醫院。434Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRbYtW2MZtA
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醫院離家不遠，不過二十分鐘腳程。相識的鄰里、熟悉的街景，既近且遠，扭曲模糊折疊……天旋地轉，手腳一軟，眼前一黑，倒下。434Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLQJLYdqKHT
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看不見，聽得到。434Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ85bxkIPh1Y
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尖叫，呼救。心跳，鼻息。人，車。434Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7ZZQwtFm0F
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電車。434Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGA29mjPs9M
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叮叮——叮叮——434Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8efHYfFynj
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他曾取笑它慢吞吞。媽媽說電車再慢亦會比他快。434Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyxQkyeri9U
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媽媽喜歡電車那叮叮聲，平凡而獨特，隱隱卻嘹亮。434Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCbqUDuO0XY
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他仔細聽、認真聽。平凡而獨特，隱隱卻嘹亮。434Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOiT35d7MOK
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刻骨銘心。434Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ11D7Ua0OA5
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叮叮——叮叮——434Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwASl2XBnYi
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（02）434Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡb0zgBzbraS
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看得見，聽不到。434Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiYn5Tbs2XP
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聽不到醫生說他內耳受感染，無法康復。434Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNsNahkZDK8
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聽不到爸爸怪責媽媽疏忽照顧他。434Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7RtuRkuWrb
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聽不到媽媽自責飲泣。434Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnLxiPK0gON
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但他統統看見了——他看見聲音。434Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVcoOjQoPz1
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絕望聲音是揚沸的黑煙。434Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡb1gpYtjrL4
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憤怒聲音是燃燒的血紅。434Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡU5sA4ptjgW
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罪疚聲音是混濁的海藍。434Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqURJEXP39D
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世界五顏六色，暴烈狂亂。434Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdkc1KGoT9j
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他受驚瑟縮在家，直至媽媽的顏色徹底消失。434Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5aimOLFB4O
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爸爸指向電車，比手畫腳，示意媽媽昨夜在電車自殺。434Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡY4eROICvpm
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叮叮——叮叮——434Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSoE7pmhL9V
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叮……434Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3k4kMFBWzV
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（03）434Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWe02DaDROT
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二零二三年，他三十六歲。434Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9SJbivijuM
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當年媽媽離世後，爸爸帶他遷離港島，遠離電車，遠離傷心地。434Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4y5O9O2iWu
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時日漸過，傷痛漸退，他漸漸看不見聲音的顏色。他明白那是幻覺，是自身心理防禦機制產生出來的，用以舒緩情緒和壓力。聲音的顏色日益淺薄，如煙如霧，再也妨礙不了他的人生路。434Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4BJql0jkOq
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他決定要勇敢，走出陰霾，好好過活，不然會像爸爸一樣帶著哀傷終其此生——爸爸去年自殺，同樣在電車上。明明爸爸比他更抗拒港島和電車，為何偏偏在電車自殺？因為媽媽？沒能知道，沒能問個清楚明白。434Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzCgIYKZUMT
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二十七年來，他首次踏足港島。心情緊張，有如當年踏入新居。434Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8C6uOqUQUJ
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熟悉傢俬配上陌生單位，有形無神，是家不是家。434Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnWGqbVD3Bi
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常見事物配上獨特氛圍，舊瓶新酒，突兀不協調。434Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡz0X6Bd7Fox
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周遭顏色頓變濃稠，阻擋視線，如屏成障。看不見前路，聽不到指引，忽爾忘記將來。人總沒法拋棄過去吧。過去構成現在，現在組構將來。過去如何，將來也必如何……434Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZdl1N9inmP
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一抹綠影突然冒出，撥開重重色彩，在他眼前掠過，緊隨而來是隱隱卻嘹亮的聲音。434Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbSMjzOLXqG
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叮叮——叮叮——434Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIn9wZU3SWd
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震驚。434Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgGBNgZxJvt
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怎麼可以聽到聲音？434Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡq2FsmuoXRJ
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叮叮——叮叮——434Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsVBcGUiWt6
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一股莫名衝動驅使他拼命追趕電車。434Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYVe1OGC6e2
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累。電車再慢亦會比他快。他再快亦追不到那些經已遠去的。434Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGR7NWFV6h3
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他開始不明白自己為何要追趕。他沒有追趕的原因。他再努力亦無法追回那些人事物。434Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlwFQS0i1nx
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他不想再追。很累……434Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡU8wsALtrdd
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叮叮——叮叮——434Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYaKDDK1ypx
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乘客陸續發現行為怪異的他，將手提電話伸出窗外拍攝。434Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnvDxF6Ok6N
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電車似是擁有生命，生出無數觸手，向他招迎。當中有兩隻全綠的右手沒有手提電話。揮動姿勢與其他手臂不同，是多麼的熱情親切，充滿期盼，彷彿在講：「來！快來！」434Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtgUrDyipD1
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他咬咬牙，跑得更快，想要看看綠手主人——會是他們嗎？434Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmUbcpNZYeC
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他沒能看見綠手主人的臉，但他堅信那是父母的手！434Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGHRl7tgT5h
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這可能是他有生之年最後一次與父母團聚！434Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWcFHcSg038
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父母都是自殺的，在他毫無心理準備之時離他而去。434Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlcnDTs2djn
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他接受不了。434Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡompBnfNQnv
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叮叮——叮叮——434Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡS8parvflsd
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電車準備靠站，他快要追到。434Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ465I6G00Nn
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綠手開始氣化。434Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZQ8I6jqRKE
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再努力亦枉然？一切努力只顯得他是那麼無能無力。他唯一做到的僅是無奈接受……434Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVGLAbDBIVv
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綠手在他眼前消散無痕。434Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhq0BRGl4Q5
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他力竭倒地，哭得像個孩子。434Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsVb19Th5XP
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叮叮——叮叮——434Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWJwh3OeIG5
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電車靠站，乘客分道揚鑣，世界運轉如儀，沒有因為他的怪異行徑而改變本身命運。正如他沒有因為努力而及時握著兩隻注定要消散的綠手。434Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRzCy8M5sjH
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緣盡。434Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTqf0wNDeVM
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無謂執著。434Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡu1ksemAvw9
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忽爾澄明。434Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeeMnhMpaVr
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汗止，氣平，淚盡。434Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNw8bACNWLP
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他重新站起來，拍拍褲管塵灰，抬頭挺胸走向電車站。434Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIDpp5CNJku
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排隊，付款，上車。434Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6nFu8Qvz8t
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如同其他乘客。434Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPEuKthZYjL
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如同其他同樣平凡而獨特的乘客。
