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家宜拿著一紙文憑畢業。890Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡu2A9v5quPY
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和很多其他年輕人一樣，她是有夢想的，並一直堅持著。她一直在心中盤算著，要找一份怎麼怎麼的工作，要怎麼怎麼實現她大計……但眼見一封封求職信杳無音訊，石沉大海時，她開始著急。890Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAnathIzdcO
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日復日，她心想：「機會在哪兒？」890Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLaXmwEzLsj
890Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡH6tQ2xNlLc
終於，有回音了。縱使只有一個面試機會，她仍興奮得很。890Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡECgGp08V9L
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面試當日，她穿著整齊，拿著沉甸甸的公事包，於烈日下到一幢舊式工廠大廈去。到達門口時，大汗淋漓的她，被玻璃門後的公司吸引著——是她夢寐以求的室內設計公司！還記得修讀室內設計文憑時，她常幻想著自己會受聘於一間大型室內設計公司，每天都從忙碌中獲得滿足感…890Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnPQ9U3DlwN
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面試後數日，有回音了。「八千五？」她在心裡嚷著：「當日不是說月薪一萬嗎？」890Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡi25FtcbONG
890Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXHgjIGh0Xe
「你是零經驗的畢業生…」電話另一頭的男聲解釋說。890Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ16hKLxaMVl
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「好。」家宜吁了一口氣，把心裡的標準降低了少許。890Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQRV14Ycp2P
890Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsG0V486AcU
「那麼，明天上班。」男聲的口吻近乎發號司令。890Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEjme3gtEfG
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掛線後，家宜把消息告知媽。890Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡW9TEC2wr1k
890Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOExCqclFy3
「八千五…」媽想了想：「差不多…」890Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVyiRj6ERNC
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家宜沉默了。890Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡf2zjxtSNqk
890Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgSHACAtr7f
媽瞥了瞥她，續道：「『零經驗』、『Fresh Grad.』…八千五，已算是不錯！」890Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ48pzEgtp7l
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這一句話，又把家宜的標準拉低了。890Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKxfVg0e9s1
890Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡg29R7EFfrA
原來，她自己只值八千五！
一年後，進步不少的家宜被擢升，成為初級設計師。890Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2Aiz1cdGlt
890Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡN5JVfwCUgQ
自此，仍然年輕的家宜，決定不會再穿著花花綠綠，只會穿黑白灰。890Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNjMwHKUsS9
890Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYTTroAlbNM
有人說她成熟了，進步了。890Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2JIpDFrZyO
890Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgrnqVV9YtD
「我可不這樣認為。」家宜很想要這麼答，但卻總把說話生吞回肚子作罷。890Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ20K8KdG3mb
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似乎，大家都只看到她「正」的一面而已。890Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡL49XwMfx4Q
890Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqzLiYs9ZBB
這就是大家想要看見的家宜嗎？一個只會穿黑白灰、不苟言笑的女人。大家似乎忘記了——家宜只有二十歲，是屬於青春的年華。真正的她，可是一個愛笑愛玩的小女生；但這只會令她被標籤為「不思進取」、「幼稚」、「被寵壞」的新生代。890Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlGTrNZSlYn
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還是向現實低頭好了。890Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwg8rBRhVYQ
890Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSmsBzfmgbB
家宜又再穿上套裝，遮掩仍然年輕的身體；化濃妝、塗豔抹，好讓笑容沉重得消失了似的。890Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUTGfjO3CL3
890Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdGVoiGeTrG
這就是，大家想要看見的家宜吧！
「我回來了。」家宜脫下高跟鞋，一屁股坐在沙發上。890Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaLLHz18vWA
890Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFBJoQx09VM
「發薪了嗎？」媽聞聲而至。890Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXn4nEkX0Sg
890Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvwPuPx86ba
「發了。」家宜從手提包拿出支票和糧單。890Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLrpecocRMt
890Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2lT31fTXNy
媽看了看，聲線幾近尖叫：「你不是已經升職了嗎？」890Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaoZUIJrZWA
890Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcz9P45ciLO
家宜沒答話。890Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPkgicTyhY8
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望著家宜，媽氣得火燒心。890Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGYLzJOV0Nd
890Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxOKbOtxnV8
當初，是家宜承諾會賺到更多的錢。890Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1YTzF6Navd
890Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPnuHhFNgJN
當初，是她講理想，擅自推掉一份待遇優厚的工作。890Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNpQZoxZ86d
890Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXboTsrmRjv
當初，她根本不應為興趣而揀選室內設計。890Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUw1aUFwd3R
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當初…890Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHWV8spDr7P
890Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtBJxfoKU6u
整個晚上，媽一言不發。890Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhHKjAv9MMg
890Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjec6LGyBaF
家宜很難受，但卻選擇不多話。是的，她很後悔——為何她當初那麼有理想？原來，理想真的不可當飽飯吃！890Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9SthOm63f9
890Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyFp2BE3gzV
但現在，何如？
這是家宜首次到酒吧來。890Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSOvBGdEUHU
890Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡm0RekqezBH
形形色色的男女，都不約而同地帶著一對黑眼圈；家宜也不例外——她昨晚失眠了。890Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbQ2i6NCKok
890Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyQ0CKO12KF
從未試過被人當中那麼奚落，還要她道歉。但更難以置信的是——她道歉了。890Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuEw8Za4F7z
890Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAwqJULdyIh
根本不是她的錯！890Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUeuS5tsfWl
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但道歉可保住一椿生意…890Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsECjZSxhS9
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卻扭曲了自己…890Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnfF8dt5Gsr
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值得嗎？890Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHlOAoZ4ZHl
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「你是家宜嗎？」有人從後拍了拍家宜的肩膊。890Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡs4ZiMR1OVi
890Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtvGq0j94Xf
「學姐？」家宜不自覺的伸出手來，公式化地打招呼。890Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcLLIJL6KRV
890Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡW4plPCeDpP
「近來好嗎？」學姐也成熟了不少：「還在那室內設計公司工作嗎？」890Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡs92ZxM6ZYa
890Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ37lc9TJgjE
「是的。」家宜雖然盡力隱藏，但仍掩不住眼裡的失意。890Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEo7AtDiyfK
890Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCrcXVS5C7X
「我最近自己設立了一所室內設計公司…」學姐有意無意的說：「需要聘請設計師…」890Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡb3M72icOVu
890Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMiHKCjZRQh
「設計師…」家宜頓時精神起來。890Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbzFdEss6T9
890Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡua2beMuiRc
「雖是自主度高，但薪金卻…」學姐小心翼翼的試探著：「你會來幫忙嗎？」
草擬了一整晚的辭職信，就在手心。890Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeG7nK8oiG9
890Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ35vQWb4Kms
只要家宜有勇氣遞上，再加幾個模稜兩可的原因，理想便能確切的握在手心。890Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5iYdElfRyh
890Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJY2JUqICXa
「理想不能當飽飯吃！」這句話突然在家宜耳邊響起。890Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlid7Pj1AcR
890Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMfYAi71AP0
曾講過這句話的人，有媽、朋友、同事、上司…甚至家宜自己。還記得，講這句話時，家宜自己的心情是絕望的。但大家的表情卻很輕鬆，活像只是講及一些與自己不相干的事。890Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzqTWDzm7qx
890Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrL50DA6OJ8
理想，不相干嗎？很遙遠嗎？890Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnD5Vj5O5K9
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難道大家年輕時沒有理想嗎？890Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCpeINVrivY
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還是大家根本知道現實裡沒有理想，乾脆直接放棄了？890Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡH8ZYCWCECb
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不管了，先遞信吧！890Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBKVxfyTwMt
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「你…」老闆氣定神閒：「很缺錢吧！」890Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQKQXQhbLmf
890Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGf0WeVkq09
家宜呆了。890Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6oBOlK9abJ
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「加薪能留住你嗎？」他豎起兩隻手指，示意加薪兩千元。890Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhn3CeGhM6n
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她沒即時否定——猶豫了。890Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXzbpx0uLmB
890Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOX9aQmxsaR
「既然沒問題，你先去工作吧！」他以微笑作結。890Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnwBfcgz6MH
890Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxotzIa9eIo
這是…放棄了嗎？890Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcXbDGe5Yqb
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家宜只知道自己剛才的確心動了，再沒追求理想的資格…
天，灰灰的。890Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCbPMyeQBpi
890Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2dRuwBhGBf
家宜傻傻的抬起頭來，心想：「我到底在做甚麼？」她的手在顫抖著，弄皺了手心的辭職信。從來不相信「為五斗米折腰」；但今天終於領略到。890Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuBCfjwJkON
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家宜垂頭喪氣地來到家門前，勉力地堆起笑容，按下門鈴。應門的是媽。890Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5SGiOAqqwx
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昨晚，為了工作上的去留問題，她和媽吵起來了。當時大家都氣得面紅耳赤，卻未能分出勝負。家宜最記得媽那一句：「生活艱難！」890Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMTGq33XfRM
890Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡL08DU4XtGt
當時聽畢，家宜禁不住吐了句：「錢不是萬能的！」但二十四小時後，她願意收回那一句話。890Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡANJO6kqBe2
890Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡieqeBkLgMl
「真的辭職了嗎？」媽的語氣，冷淡得令人難受。890Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfEyjkkllsg
890Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5xPTUnFiRZ
「沒。」家宜感覺到自己的眼淚快要奪眶而出。890Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡW9FHmKQEPp
890Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡd1yXruTNA3
「真的？」媽的表情很複雜，既喜且悲。890Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqRF74CWheD
890Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2t3whUSQgr
是的，她很高興家宜沒有辭工；但她實在太熟悉家宜的脾性了——幾近頑固的堅持自己的想法。要是她的想法改變了，原因有二：想通了或是徹底被「擊潰」了。890Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡce2AadZK0O
890Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡztISrZ59hB
媽選擇相信後者：「有話要講嗎？」890Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLZefvG0qHF
890Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡH30JMFJqJp
「沒。」家宜搖搖頭。890Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJs7Cito8wK
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回到房間，家宜躺在床上，呆望著天花板。890Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTxdYTv7Z4N
890Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡehM2yWIp0Z
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