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家宜拿著一紙文憑畢業。815Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRN7zCjjWiD
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和很多其他年輕人一樣，她是有夢想的，並一直堅持著。她一直在心中盤算著，要找一份怎麼怎麼的工作，要怎麼怎麼實現她大計……但眼見一封封求職信杳無音訊，石沉大海時，她開始著急。815Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7URrn4L1aG
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日復日，她心想：「機會在哪兒？」815Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡT8WBhQnfwa
815Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7TUM9mURBp
終於，有回音了。縱使只有一個面試機會，她仍興奮得很。815Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnfTeXxxS1m
815Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIQALLL4pE4
面試當日，她穿著整齊，拿著沉甸甸的公事包，於烈日下到一幢舊式工廠大廈去。到達門口時，大汗淋漓的她，被玻璃門後的公司吸引著——是她夢寐以求的室內設計公司！還記得修讀室內設計文憑時，她常幻想著自己會受聘於一間大型室內設計公司，每天都從忙碌中獲得滿足感…815Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnl3CrurqDj
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面試後數日，有回音了。「八千五？」她在心裡嚷著：「當日不是說月薪一萬嗎？」815Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCfC4H0oga7
815Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡu0yI1dF5Zz
「你是零經驗的畢業生…」電話另一頭的男聲解釋說。815Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLcuFDoNwP6
815Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCf0HMJrsnL
「好。」家宜吁了一口氣，把心裡的標準降低了少許。815Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRjexKcfKLm
815Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡajoOSZ54dA
「那麼，明天上班。」男聲的口吻近乎發號司令。815Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPOmWuOaUIs
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掛線後，家宜把消息告知媽。815Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeiDsBrgE9G
815Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWSIRxYrjac
「八千五…」媽想了想：「差不多…」815Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSY3Y8wW3DN
815Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcjZfQL9XI4
家宜沉默了。815Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKdGdyrzeha
815Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmeZLdwzgq2
媽瞥了瞥她，續道：「『零經驗』、『Fresh Grad.』…八千五，已算是不錯！」815Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡd7qhY6nMxZ
815Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMGQLPnhMMJ
這一句話，又把家宜的標準拉低了。815Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYP6wiRvf8v
815Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡK3Q0ufYAkb
原來，她自己只值八千五！
一年後，進步不少的家宜被擢升，成為初級設計師。815Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLaENCGdOxt
815Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHRaaBDF3zt
自此，仍然年輕的家宜，決定不會再穿著花花綠綠，只會穿黑白灰。815Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQHFXFfFXBD
815Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6cDIzjrHC8
有人說她成熟了，進步了。815Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuItu2oYedP
815Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtLvpNLhQjI
「我可不這樣認為。」家宜很想要這麼答，但卻總把說話生吞回肚子作罷。815Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6NNLqXC6QA
815Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9FJEvdn9jU
似乎，大家都只看到她「正」的一面而已。815Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡI2v74tj7nl
815Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDbanw7KB3W
這就是大家想要看見的家宜嗎？一個只會穿黑白灰、不苟言笑的女人。大家似乎忘記了——家宜只有二十歲，是屬於青春的年華。真正的她，可是一個愛笑愛玩的小女生；但這只會令她被標籤為「不思進取」、「幼稚」、「被寵壞」的新生代。815Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwEn3EBLH67
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還是向現實低頭好了。815Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3E22QktAMh
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家宜又再穿上套裝，遮掩仍然年輕的身體；化濃妝、塗豔抹，好讓笑容沉重得消失了似的。815Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡT2dvXu4tDd
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這就是，大家想要看見的家宜吧！
「我回來了。」家宜脫下高跟鞋，一屁股坐在沙發上。815Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxXricvJPhT
815Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoJshrXfnmV
「發薪了嗎？」媽聞聲而至。815Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfoDf0zmGbt
815Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiNU4tAzCj4
「發了。」家宜從手提包拿出支票和糧單。815Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqWfD0JdOgF
815Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8AKCLp8Z9z
媽看了看，聲線幾近尖叫：「你不是已經升職了嗎？」815Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡW3oteoqUu7
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家宜沒答話。815Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyNHu9V99Jg
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望著家宜，媽氣得火燒心。815Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrkFyLjrDpR
815Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPxdPI0xiJG
當初，是家宜承諾會賺到更多的錢。815Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfyYjx8byuV
815Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡExj4U9684D
當初，是她講理想，擅自推掉一份待遇優厚的工作。815Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHj1SMXSTe2
815Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKBEF1YuzXk
當初，她根本不應為興趣而揀選室內設計。815Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡM2ZyQleRNl
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當初…815Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAGayWQyF7C
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整個晚上，媽一言不發。815Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuDKNmBakfK
815Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7lnMKVJ47B
家宜很難受，但卻選擇不多話。是的，她很後悔——為何她當初那麼有理想？原來，理想真的不可當飽飯吃！815Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDOoI4zwVQ3
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但現在，何如？
這是家宜首次到酒吧來。815Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlpWIilnvsE
815Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAnghY9rwmc
形形色色的男女，都不約而同地帶著一對黑眼圈；家宜也不例外——她昨晚失眠了。815Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLniVIYRPwM
815Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYuumzB0GIa
從未試過被人當中那麼奚落，還要她道歉。但更難以置信的是——她道歉了。815Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjalkEZE2QB
815Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoWsGNa2jEy
根本不是她的錯！815Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOaxDrzJ1us
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但道歉可保住一椿生意…815Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuOsPyl49UB
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卻扭曲了自己…815Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡF2hIs2jWk3
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值得嗎？815Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYDu2YUAnk0
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「你是家宜嗎？」有人從後拍了拍家宜的肩膊。815Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgm9eNIgzAF
815Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXdn6F5b2W4
「學姐？」家宜不自覺的伸出手來，公式化地打招呼。815Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1sV4lJTZmU
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「近來好嗎？」學姐也成熟了不少：「還在那室內設計公司工作嗎？」815Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDws4SBGSBc
815Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwk3UowFa04
「是的。」家宜雖然盡力隱藏，但仍掩不住眼裡的失意。815Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmoiNxvGaut
815Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuQo4R5vUSX
「我最近自己設立了一所室內設計公司…」學姐有意無意的說：「需要聘請設計師…」815Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZuBjt61g3z
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「設計師…」家宜頓時精神起來。815Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfbtg49j4nw
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「雖是自主度高，但薪金卻…」學姐小心翼翼的試探著：「你會來幫忙嗎？」
草擬了一整晚的辭職信，就在手心。815Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOxbqYSnVsX
815Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3q63pXUWHH
只要家宜有勇氣遞上，再加幾個模稜兩可的原因，理想便能確切的握在手心。815Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡveCFxLee8z
815Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcMKeC8xlpP
「理想不能當飽飯吃！」這句話突然在家宜耳邊響起。815Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvms4cCozjx
815Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrlaOI6K7Tp
曾講過這句話的人，有媽、朋友、同事、上司…甚至家宜自己。還記得，講這句話時，家宜自己的心情是絕望的。但大家的表情卻很輕鬆，活像只是講及一些與自己不相干的事。815Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡv06B20Q8NA
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理想，不相干嗎？很遙遠嗎？815Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOW22HFFvqR
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難道大家年輕時沒有理想嗎？815Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrJDK5vxzAE
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還是大家根本知道現實裡沒有理想，乾脆直接放棄了？815Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡE0EQjcXvwr
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不管了，先遞信吧！815Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzllAVlGiFE
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「你…」老闆氣定神閒：「很缺錢吧！」815Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWLakeC46YZ
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家宜呆了。815Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgTyW360Ie8
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「加薪能留住你嗎？」他豎起兩隻手指，示意加薪兩千元。815Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfjvw7fj5sZ
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她沒即時否定——猶豫了。815Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVXJVq2445j
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「既然沒問題，你先去工作吧！」他以微笑作結。815Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCryz5bxIX3
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這是…放棄了嗎？815Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3trgughSFs
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家宜只知道自己剛才的確心動了，再沒追求理想的資格…
天，灰灰的。815Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMtrgPOoZUr
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家宜傻傻的抬起頭來，心想：「我到底在做甚麼？」她的手在顫抖著，弄皺了手心的辭職信。從來不相信「為五斗米折腰」；但今天終於領略到。815Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6ihyBeoA24
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家宜垂頭喪氣地來到家門前，勉力地堆起笑容，按下門鈴。應門的是媽。815Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡb1knyUghA5
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昨晚，為了工作上的去留問題，她和媽吵起來了。當時大家都氣得面紅耳赤，卻未能分出勝負。家宜最記得媽那一句：「生活艱難！」815Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgv4TR3WTX7
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當時聽畢，家宜禁不住吐了句：「錢不是萬能的！」但二十四小時後，她願意收回那一句話。815Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVmqE8V4vNG
815Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtzwynwZwUq
「真的辭職了嗎？」媽的語氣，冷淡得令人難受。815Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzUYFqrV5Mf
815Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnl0yrNrgGm
「沒。」家宜感覺到自己的眼淚快要奪眶而出。815Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGiY6kXFeQI
815Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXTXf8ELFYb
「真的？」媽的表情很複雜，既喜且悲。815Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5wIZlTYGz3
815Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYUHIsdaJh3
是的，她很高興家宜沒有辭工；但她實在太熟悉家宜的脾性了——幾近頑固的堅持自己的想法。要是她的想法改變了，原因有二：想通了或是徹底被「擊潰」了。815Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEBBIBgkLIF
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媽選擇相信後者：「有話要講嗎？」815Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDquXy1fKAD
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「沒。」家宜搖搖頭。815Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVVdiSoBep9
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回到房間，家宜躺在床上，呆望著天花板。815Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4Fj0Fj2xDB
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