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家宜拿著一紙文憑畢業。866Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2vjw2PPu1d
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和很多其他年輕人一樣，她是有夢想的，並一直堅持著。她一直在心中盤算著，要找一份怎麼怎麼的工作，要怎麼怎麼實現她大計……但眼見一封封求職信杳無音訊，石沉大海時，她開始著急。866Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHIW9QP2N5n
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日復日，她心想：「機會在哪兒？」866Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnY6p1t3O8X
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終於，有回音了。縱使只有一個面試機會，她仍興奮得很。866Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFGec4Ttwh7
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面試當日，她穿著整齊，拿著沉甸甸的公事包，於烈日下到一幢舊式工廠大廈去。到達門口時，大汗淋漓的她，被玻璃門後的公司吸引著——是她夢寐以求的室內設計公司！還記得修讀室內設計文憑時，她常幻想著自己會受聘於一間大型室內設計公司，每天都從忙碌中獲得滿足感…866Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡp8Hpm5l91F
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面試後數日，有回音了。「八千五？」她在心裡嚷著：「當日不是說月薪一萬嗎？」866Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyjbzLe32Xg
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「你是零經驗的畢業生…」電話另一頭的男聲解釋說。866Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5QmqhlcYlX
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「好。」家宜吁了一口氣，把心裡的標準降低了少許。866Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVSteIsDqJL
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「那麼，明天上班。」男聲的口吻近乎發號司令。866Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡI6m83HJb8o
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掛線後，家宜把消息告知媽。866Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZIyQTCBnBA
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「八千五…」媽想了想：「差不多…」866Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡb9pqZykTrr
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家宜沉默了。866Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrNznjtUL45
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媽瞥了瞥她，續道：「『零經驗』、『Fresh Grad.』…八千五，已算是不錯！」866Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡc6RtLsT4u8
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這一句話，又把家宜的標準拉低了。866Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxkg0djxRUP
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原來，她自己只值八千五！
一年後，進步不少的家宜被擢升，成為初級設計師。866Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8WT5PdoxL8
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自此，仍然年輕的家宜，決定不會再穿著花花綠綠，只會穿黑白灰。866Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡobBdAMsrb8
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有人說她成熟了，進步了。866Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUPp3kTpSFl
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「我可不這樣認為。」家宜很想要這麼答，但卻總把說話生吞回肚子作罷。866Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMuRIgGVwUl
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似乎，大家都只看到她「正」的一面而已。866Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6AzrZRR3Bi
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這就是大家想要看見的家宜嗎？一個只會穿黑白灰、不苟言笑的女人。大家似乎忘記了——家宜只有二十歲，是屬於青春的年華。真正的她，可是一個愛笑愛玩的小女生；但這只會令她被標籤為「不思進取」、「幼稚」、「被寵壞」的新生代。866Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2AioQeurOx
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還是向現實低頭好了。866Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAEBqzal0jU
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家宜又再穿上套裝，遮掩仍然年輕的身體；化濃妝、塗豔抹，好讓笑容沉重得消失了似的。866Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFQwjo8EWXK
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這就是，大家想要看見的家宜吧！
「我回來了。」家宜脫下高跟鞋，一屁股坐在沙發上。866Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9IrbzC3vIH
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「發薪了嗎？」媽聞聲而至。866Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlCurijcFxS
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「發了。」家宜從手提包拿出支票和糧單。866Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHbZXFlm1Un
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媽看了看，聲線幾近尖叫：「你不是已經升職了嗎？」866Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡx1ycTIMS1A
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家宜沒答話。866Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡx8WSF3boeS
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望著家宜，媽氣得火燒心。866Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMrma50f3Ng
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當初，是家宜承諾會賺到更多的錢。866Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDQ8riJGMDm
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當初，是她講理想，擅自推掉一份待遇優厚的工作。866Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBVyc7uIeUK
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當初，她根本不應為興趣而揀選室內設計。866Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyJeCKIv5iq
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當初…866Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIQ6n8HG7lK
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整個晚上，媽一言不發。866Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡokrvcuuQGZ
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家宜很難受，但卻選擇不多話。是的，她很後悔——為何她當初那麼有理想？原來，理想真的不可當飽飯吃！866Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGGUZWc5PJA
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但現在，何如？
這是家宜首次到酒吧來。866Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡi4vw8SCrt4
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形形色色的男女，都不約而同地帶著一對黑眼圈；家宜也不例外——她昨晚失眠了。866Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnCLAxMLjf7
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從未試過被人當中那麼奚落，還要她道歉。但更難以置信的是——她道歉了。866Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfLKbz6jQZE
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根本不是她的錯！866Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡE48U3SBgMt
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但道歉可保住一椿生意…866Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNXdt42pjuD
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卻扭曲了自己…866Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJKxcJ0WzLm
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值得嗎？866Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5fyH06Y66k
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「你是家宜嗎？」有人從後拍了拍家宜的肩膊。866Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQhtBnav8Bz
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「學姐？」家宜不自覺的伸出手來，公式化地打招呼。866Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyX6Dx5XIXm
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「近來好嗎？」學姐也成熟了不少：「還在那室內設計公司工作嗎？」866Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGJTu0iMHMk
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「是的。」家宜雖然盡力隱藏，但仍掩不住眼裡的失意。866Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeHTyLW0JHa
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「我最近自己設立了一所室內設計公司…」學姐有意無意的說：「需要聘請設計師…」866Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWBrVMtGv2i
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「設計師…」家宜頓時精神起來。866Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡy0Xsfts6et
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「雖是自主度高，但薪金卻…」學姐小心翼翼的試探著：「你會來幫忙嗎？」
草擬了一整晚的辭職信，就在手心。866Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnm9Bthk3fW
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只要家宜有勇氣遞上，再加幾個模稜兩可的原因，理想便能確切的握在手心。866Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡli11AsnvLJ
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「理想不能當飽飯吃！」這句話突然在家宜耳邊響起。866Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcudRmPqHf0
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曾講過這句話的人，有媽、朋友、同事、上司…甚至家宜自己。還記得，講這句話時，家宜自己的心情是絕望的。但大家的表情卻很輕鬆，活像只是講及一些與自己不相干的事。866Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZBkvbHWayd
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理想，不相干嗎？很遙遠嗎？866Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZad0w4LJ6h
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難道大家年輕時沒有理想嗎？866Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkcuoNxbDTS
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還是大家根本知道現實裡沒有理想，乾脆直接放棄了？866Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJBZ3sbGJ0t
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不管了，先遞信吧！866Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡF1tGCmC16B
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「你…」老闆氣定神閒：「很缺錢吧！」866Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZQx9yoW3fB
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家宜呆了。866Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPq3YPWZkuE
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「加薪能留住你嗎？」他豎起兩隻手指，示意加薪兩千元。866Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡshtRsSpO8Y
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她沒即時否定——猶豫了。866Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVZLShjmAkK
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「既然沒問題，你先去工作吧！」他以微笑作結。866Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDKZrUBqvrj
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這是…放棄了嗎？866Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrEkdZghlv1
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家宜只知道自己剛才的確心動了，再沒追求理想的資格…
天，灰灰的。866Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVgXvWwPsjT
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家宜傻傻的抬起頭來，心想：「我到底在做甚麼？」她的手在顫抖著，弄皺了手心的辭職信。從來不相信「為五斗米折腰」；但今天終於領略到。866Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡg30pqVOT2D
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家宜垂頭喪氣地來到家門前，勉力地堆起笑容，按下門鈴。應門的是媽。866Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPDkmB6pgYr
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昨晚，為了工作上的去留問題，她和媽吵起來了。當時大家都氣得面紅耳赤，卻未能分出勝負。家宜最記得媽那一句：「生活艱難！」866Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡW2BDYoSoBu
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當時聽畢，家宜禁不住吐了句：「錢不是萬能的！」但二十四小時後，她願意收回那一句話。866Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxdo4bQjkIs
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「真的辭職了嗎？」媽的語氣，冷淡得令人難受。866Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoaLBLBoUvI
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「沒。」家宜感覺到自己的眼淚快要奪眶而出。866Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUDlHQJtAX1
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「真的？」媽的表情很複雜，既喜且悲。866Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJBqqwF5F1Y
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是的，她很高興家宜沒有辭工；但她實在太熟悉家宜的脾性了——幾近頑固的堅持自己的想法。要是她的想法改變了，原因有二：想通了或是徹底被「擊潰」了。866Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8plDe7jNZI
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媽選擇相信後者：「有話要講嗎？」866Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtwmZ1YPWs8
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「沒。」家宜搖搖頭。866Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4HlGSErIjo
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回到房間，家宜躺在床上，呆望著天花板。866Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdZhrloPuZg
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