過去篇(四)527Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgJRkNkH9zh
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某一天，在午息時段，Ivy悶悶不樂地來到學校的庭園。527Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡU8CEcoH7dI
找了一個寧靜的角落，獨自一人坐下，不禁嘆息起來。527Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2oUevfOwIJ
527Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpFVoGbLAqS
原來在剛才午飯時間，Ivy又一次鼓起勇氣邀約Alvin一同吃午飯。527Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡs96WxUSs3y
可是早就習慣了與其他男生一同外出用膳的Alvin。527Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡr3GrDKMSwa
並且升上中學後，根本就沒有被女生邀約吃飯。527Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPfSkRHO6gi
因此Ivy突如其來邀約，再加上當時朋友們的催促，Alvin也只好當下拒絕了她的邀請。527Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwTmkBihaXQ
527Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡL3QHpiNSJe
被喜歡的人拒絕邀約，除了感到可惜及失望之外，就根本甚麼都做不到。527Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡa3fK9lbv8O
Ivy曾經嘗試融入對方的生活圈子之中，卻永遠都只是停留在表面上的融入。527Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1amFPGcFUA
至今，她與Alvin仍然是維持在每天上學見面時談上兩三句話的局面。527Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFZNMabvPMf
即使放學後，她與Alvin透過WhatsApp聊天的次數，也少之又少。527Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPF9DfZuD7U
527Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcIImDRDHdj
「Alvin都好似唔多理我咁……莫非真喺要好似Laura咁講，直接同佢講我鍾意佢……」527Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNljMLP6TM5
這時，在Ivy的腦海中也閃現出前陣子Laura的一句說話。527Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRZJJVcqN9f
那句叫她向喜歡的人坦承的說話。527Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡz455LInp6X
可是對於性格偏向內向的Ivy來說，要與喜歡的人坦白，可是一件難若登天的事情。527Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡco8s3Hwn6x
單是起初鼓起勇氣向Alvin進一步搭訕，她其實也在心裡掙扎了好幾天。527Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡr5GCZflMkg
527Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡo7nfHBjctn
「你鍾意Alvin啊？」527Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoU2XpccYxp
突然有一把男聲從Ivy的後方傳來。527Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡI4TslSTZTy
使得她馬上驚慌失色起來，並隨即轉過身來，查看聲音的主人。527Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡD1DNcJ75s5
「Dan……？點解你會嚟庭園嘅？」527Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5wRd3Y9Vbc
在確認是同班的同學後，Ivy也接著好奇地問道。527Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzPJgBiZwUO
畢竟，學校的庭園平常根本不會有人到訪。527Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡla6mIT1bmS
527Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3wPTghd2va
「食飽飯無嘢做，咪嚟行過圈囉……但竟然比我八卦到啲嘢啊，呵呵。」527Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQYbUfqZyTn
Dan在說著的同時，奸笑起來，然後就盯著Ivy，等待對方辯解。527Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡO62We1kLNd
「你唔好講出啊！我求你！」Ivy當然是立即雙手合十，不斷向Dan請求著。527Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6XGwNdkGNF
527Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMe9Rj2IbAw
接著，Dan也抓一抓自己的頭髮，一臉沾沾自喜地說：527Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvvMzvn7LEr
「乜我似啲會將人哋秘密亂咁爆出去嘅人咩？」527Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtwdlJwAgRn
Ivy思考了一會Dan的這句話，然後就搖頭說：「咁又唔似……」527Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtsTdfyagOa
527Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfh0Nw3rYnc
「鍾意咗人幾耐啊？」Dan隨即問道，看來是打算再八卦一下Ivy的事情。527Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyDzopvD39J
Ivy頓時也面紅耳赤起來，並不斷捏住自己的校裙。527Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVnFORSLXYt
而在一番內心掙扎後，她也小小聲地說：「大概三個月啦……」527Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeD5YDQizoz
527Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ39pOQLE9fv
Dan馬上「哇」了一聲，但很快又一臉認真地摸著下巴說：527Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfKfP7H335T
「唔怪得近排見你同Alvin多咗嘢講啦……不過睇嚟你都好似有嘢煩惱緊？」527Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkLDMKDLrvb
在對方的引導下，Ivy也開始向Dan說起了一切的由來。527Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡD54n1ApWEg
由一開始對Alvin產生興趣，然後就是好感，最後就是喜歡了對方。527Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOefXUfnTd0
不過卻一直未能向對方表達心意。527Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKXXGmTYYic
527Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnwsi3tpKle
Dan聆聽完Ivy一番經歷後，隨即也露出一個恍然大悟的樣子。527Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdQmtQAu9oL
「哦，所以啱啱先見你唉聲嘆氣咁坐喺到。」527Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ805IBjOxFT
Ivy沒有說話，只是默默地點著頭。527Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjc9QzaKQkd
於是Dan見況也繼續說：「都明你點解咁沮喪嘅，明明鍾意人，但又無勇氣同對方講，想接近人，但喺又無從入手，令到自己卡咗喺個尷尬位。」527Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFxKRuN0h3z
聽到Dan「一針見血」的總結後，Ivy也馬上再次嘆息起來。527Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡw2kWnf6Of5
然後一臉沒精打采地看著Dan，並用低沉的聲音說：「聽嚟我都喺無機架啦……」527Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPuYkXFYptF
527Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBp4loxBgcS
「唔好灰啦！不如我幫你探下Alvin口風啦！知佢點諗你都一件好事啊！」527Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2aueDXHIgP
Dan見到Ivy一臉死氣沉沉地樣子，馬上轉用一個輕快的口吻說著，希望從而令Ivy振作一點。527Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4tExjS6uwd
而Ivy聽到了Dan的建議後，馬上想起了先前Laura的一句：「唔試過又點知得唔得呢？」527Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxZ37j6ghu2
隨即也重燃心中的希望之火，一邊點頭一邊把一切都託付到Dan手上……527Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeNiHZfveJQ
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527Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7Q3N7sFycV
數天後，Dan看準了放學時Alvin獨自離開課室的時機。527Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsisDItOv11
馬上裝作想與Alvin一同放學而上前與他搭訕。527Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4yg263L5iC
「Alvin，不如今日一齊走啊！」527Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8FKjgqSGYO
「少有喎，你今日唔喺同Francis一齊走。」527Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQfIYw8Xl7R
「因為……Francis比人罰留堂啊！」527Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCeMlDSzgx2
但此刻Francis其實是在班房裡與其他男生共同挑戰著手機遊戲中的關卡……527Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJjlm07lnEb
527Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7F6eHKqOCD
接著，Dan與Alvin二人一邊聊著一邊下樓梯。527Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡs8jvPR6AXw
聊起兩三句後，Dan也開門見山問道：「Alvin，你喺2E有無鍾意嘅人啊？」527Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡU9oMYstXEd
隨即二人也站在了原地。527Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfz1y34Fdyu
而此時，Ivy也剛好走到了樓梯的轉角處，聆聽到了Alvin接下的回答。527Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2gbj8S1N6O
「無喎。」Alvin的這一個回答，簡單而直接。527Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡO57Bi6y5tI
不過卻同時使Dan愣住了，而偷聽著的Ivy更感到失望起來。527Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDXulmHTCuB
看來她的幻想，都確實只是幻想。527Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvURGX3SEjj
並如同泡沫一樣，在一瞬間破掉化為無物。527Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrEihfRMomx
527Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkDWtWTOkep
「真喺無鍾意嘅人？」Dan再問道，並語氣變得質疑起來。527Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZoqpf5yorH
不過Alvin仍然迅速而堅定地回答同樣的答案：「真喺無。」527Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1FUR4ybkT8
527Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSKpXADV3RT
這使得Dan不禁倒抽了一口氣。527Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVcnzUxNWHq
不過機智的他，也很快就想到第二條問題：「咁班入面有無邊個女仔吸引到你啊？」527Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡg9df0MxMpG
Alvin思考了一會，然後答：「嗯……無喎……」527Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡL7jfFDHmwe
雖然答案一樣，但是這一次Alvin的回答，卻從中感覺到一絲猶如。527Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9ovvSKx1BK
於是Dan也捉住了這份遲疑，再問：「真喺無？你諗真啲……例如Ivy呢？」527Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8LaevxJ6Mf
527Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTc0U00hRLz
在轉角處的Ivy聽到了自己的名字後，也意會到Dan終於把與Alvin的對話引導到自己身上。527Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5yujjtGk6V
她隨即地把雙手放到胸口上，希望能藉此壓抑住活蹦亂跳的心。527Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPP03jqUc5w
因為對於接下來Alvin的回答，她確實感到額外的緊張起來。527Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTuP2s3cN1b
可是，她接著聽到答案是……527Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwQNnYucaLa
「Ivy啊……無咩特別感覺喎，咪普通同學咁。」527Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1pHcfmcGOv
527Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRWCfIOTA93
聽到Alvin的回答，Ivy頓時如同石化了一樣，目瞪口呆地站在原地。527Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrij7lEQSBW
連此刻站在Alvin對面的Dan也瞬間感到愕然起來。527Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMwsGeoizM9
或許他自己也猜想不到，這就是Alvin的答案。527Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡi9193QOYjW
不過，感到有點不知所揩的Dan，也靈機一動，立即再問：527Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡC5813CEHrm
「如果Ivy喺鍾意你呢？」527Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2p6CLWBqm3
他選擇不再轉彎抹角，而是斬釘截鐵地道出了Ivy的心意。527Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRXIuXPpvDs
但其實他都猜想不到，原來Ivy一直偷聽著。527Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwzZUOOFQi8
527Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmkqnATnHs6
然而，Alvin隨即也皺起眉頭說：「就算佢鍾意我，都唔代表我要鍾意佢。感情呢啲嘢講feel架嘛，如果要迎合佢嘅心意，而勉強自己，我做唔到。」527Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRcIJ6NJp3H
527Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ57VwukjZfJ
正當Alvin說完這句話後，他們的上方也突然傳來了一聲急促的腳步聲。527Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJDHsZn6uLS
於是Alvin好奇地探頭瞄了一眼上方，並發現沒有人。527Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWWUvl1bjtN
接著也扭過頭來繼續與Dan談論剛剛的話題。527Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjnizGslG4w
然而，他並不知道，剛才腳步聲的主人，正是Ivy。527Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfEz8zKBIf7
527Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgEvy4IcIXL
而與此同時，Ivy也已經淚流滿面，走到了學校的某處。527Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqmkfsElVML
孤單一人坐在角落，蜷縮著身體，雙臂抱住雙膝，痛哭起來。527Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSJ9eMS1ba6
她的哭聲，無比悲哀及淒慘，如同心被刀割一樣。527Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡungzlhWZNW
看來這份傷痛，將永遠刻印在她的心中，成為一條永遠無法修補的疤痕。527Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5rZ0SMr1VS
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「就算佢鍾意我，都唔代表我要鍾意佢」527Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnKKUkjddXl
直至深夜時，Ivy再次因為回想起Alvin的這一句話，而驚醒過來。527Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡT0AOzJF7Hj
她隨即慢慢地離開了床，並坐在一旁的梳妝桌。527Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6A3Qmqdks6
然後，打開了桌燈，看著鏡中雙眼通紅、神情疲倦的自己。527Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXPVOeG0Ivy
527Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqJtqEn13fN
接著再回想起Alvin的說話，以及這三個月來自己的所做一切。527Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGjdNqKZmsB
她不禁冷笑起來，隨後打開桌上文具盒，拿出了一把美術刀。527Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWA4jzFoMJL
伸出冰冷的刀鋒，對著自己的手臀……527Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeiH4Xh1HTi
「嚓—」527Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡO5ZTrGDxEK
527Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbbG0R2GA7h
527Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0to4YfrLAP
「懷著多大的期望，就會迎來同等的失望，甚至最終帶來更深的絕望」527Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyB1t9HcG6K
527Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIMBOSh4Q48
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作者在此鄭重聲明：527Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyIuJ3N1HcF
𠝹手只是劇情的一部份，並且是虛構情節。527Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCD1gdPAaIV
讀者們請潔身自愛，切勿嘗試！！！527Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡU1QHHseATA
無論遇上多麼不如意的事情，都切勿做出任何試圖傷害身體的行為。527Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrX5kynivky
若發現事情未如理想，無法獨力承受，請向身邊的人如父母及師長尋求協助。527Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqxLXQbaFi6
切勿將傷害身體來發洩情緒一事合理化，請各位潔身自愛。527Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRsWrF1v0xa
愛人前先要懂得愛錫自己。527Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlv6X06UTgm
527Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7SwuYBgNKg
作者閒聊：527Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrvDHpalSe1
過去阿侑的一句：「就算佢鍾意我，都唔代表我要鍾意佢。感情呢啲嘢講feel架嘛，如果要迎合佢嘅心意，而勉強自己，我做唔到。」527Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaD2OFXB50Q
完全是在打著現在自己的臉……527Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjIUjhsVZEK
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