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某一天，在午息時段，Ivy悶悶不樂地來到學校的庭園。509Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡt86bE2yi9i
找了一個寧靜的角落，獨自一人坐下，不禁嘆息起來。509Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLndOwtfO9w
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原來在剛才午飯時間，Ivy又一次鼓起勇氣邀約Alvin一同吃午飯。509Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡN3Fpj2z803
可是早就習慣了與其他男生一同外出用膳的Alvin。509Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtwrWAAqpK6
並且升上中學後，根本就沒有被女生邀約吃飯。509Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaPC5xpOgdI
因此Ivy突如其來邀約，再加上當時朋友們的催促，Alvin也只好當下拒絕了她的邀請。509Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2bP4r5Qx5u
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被喜歡的人拒絕邀約，除了感到可惜及失望之外，就根本甚麼都做不到。509Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnF8ng2vAxn
Ivy曾經嘗試融入對方的生活圈子之中，卻永遠都只是停留在表面上的融入。509Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQK3r11H2WS
至今，她與Alvin仍然是維持在每天上學見面時談上兩三句話的局面。509Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9SQaDW8tmu
即使放學後，她與Alvin透過WhatsApp聊天的次數，也少之又少。509Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhbZvgP7tJS
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「Alvin都好似唔多理我咁……莫非真喺要好似Laura咁講，直接同佢講我鍾意佢……」509Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjHEBVq9Njv
這時，在Ivy的腦海中也閃現出前陣子Laura的一句說話。509Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrwxiYKJkHY
那句叫她向喜歡的人坦承的說話。509Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlvvNRVsHYq
可是對於性格偏向內向的Ivy來說，要與喜歡的人坦白，可是一件難若登天的事情。509Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9nzHRNWzpP
單是起初鼓起勇氣向Alvin進一步搭訕，她其實也在心裡掙扎了好幾天。509Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVpK63Adu5k
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「你鍾意Alvin啊？」509Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBE2I7lmLa7
突然有一把男聲從Ivy的後方傳來。509Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMmo3vBXtqA
使得她馬上驚慌失色起來，並隨即轉過身來，查看聲音的主人。509Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡO9Cs6QB5eS
「Dan……？點解你會嚟庭園嘅？」509Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6Tm6wqGjfE
在確認是同班的同學後，Ivy也接著好奇地問道。509Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyB2J8owsEW
畢竟，學校的庭園平常根本不會有人到訪。509Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2mqFJsn9sn
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「食飽飯無嘢做，咪嚟行過圈囉……但竟然比我八卦到啲嘢啊，呵呵。」509Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnfe7V8wLiA
Dan在說著的同時，奸笑起來，然後就盯著Ivy，等待對方辯解。509Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3vGH6oVkY2
「你唔好講出啊！我求你！」Ivy當然是立即雙手合十，不斷向Dan請求著。509Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSOB8ImW1LD
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接著，Dan也抓一抓自己的頭髮，一臉沾沾自喜地說：509Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBQ30UIF7ub
「乜我似啲會將人哋秘密亂咁爆出去嘅人咩？」509Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMGoa2iaAyK
Ivy思考了一會Dan的這句話，然後就搖頭說：「咁又唔似……」509Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRjgl1vK1X3
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「鍾意咗人幾耐啊？」Dan隨即問道，看來是打算再八卦一下Ivy的事情。509Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEWupuGeB1k
Ivy頓時也面紅耳赤起來，並不斷捏住自己的校裙。509Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEZgSfGK2sr
而在一番內心掙扎後，她也小小聲地說：「大概三個月啦……」509Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJqo2QXhZ6Q
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Dan馬上「哇」了一聲，但很快又一臉認真地摸著下巴說：509Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwSLWGJVFqE
「唔怪得近排見你同Alvin多咗嘢講啦……不過睇嚟你都好似有嘢煩惱緊？」509Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqfsMecS2Xn
在對方的引導下，Ivy也開始向Dan說起了一切的由來。509Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ37qjR0yYrC
由一開始對Alvin產生興趣，然後就是好感，最後就是喜歡了對方。509Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCQASD8Heer
不過卻一直未能向對方表達心意。509Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2PAxhRGmVK
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Dan聆聽完Ivy一番經歷後，隨即也露出一個恍然大悟的樣子。509Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8GvxNFEbPQ
「哦，所以啱啱先見你唉聲嘆氣咁坐喺到。」509Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfM5N0lFqHa
Ivy沒有說話，只是默默地點著頭。509Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTvhO4LdCmZ
於是Dan見況也繼續說：「都明你點解咁沮喪嘅，明明鍾意人，但又無勇氣同對方講，想接近人，但喺又無從入手，令到自己卡咗喺個尷尬位。」509Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4zrqg9G8WN
聽到Dan「一針見血」的總結後，Ivy也馬上再次嘆息起來。509Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEXcR2eOGxj
然後一臉沒精打采地看著Dan，並用低沉的聲音說：「聽嚟我都喺無機架啦……」509Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBWifRMa3TY
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「唔好灰啦！不如我幫你探下Alvin口風啦！知佢點諗你都一件好事啊！」509Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdTwnqY2ETL
Dan見到Ivy一臉死氣沉沉地樣子，馬上轉用一個輕快的口吻說著，希望從而令Ivy振作一點。509Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ12BefIQsxG
而Ivy聽到了Dan的建議後，馬上想起了先前Laura的一句：「唔試過又點知得唔得呢？」509Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUEQslyB4w3
隨即也重燃心中的希望之火，一邊點頭一邊把一切都託付到Dan手上……509Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdIlPgJ6pRs
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數天後，Dan看準了放學時Alvin獨自離開課室的時機。509Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1PEJiZIIkN
馬上裝作想與Alvin一同放學而上前與他搭訕。509Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡc9X2Iifm5H
「Alvin，不如今日一齊走啊！」509Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡz7GzUxOxRr
「少有喎，你今日唔喺同Francis一齊走。」509Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9mis1YB1Fx
「因為……Francis比人罰留堂啊！」509Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjlhLKUDIFg
但此刻Francis其實是在班房裡與其他男生共同挑戰著手機遊戲中的關卡……509Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKO6L53cTOa
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接著，Dan與Alvin二人一邊聊著一邊下樓梯。509Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZqE4R0Udui
聊起兩三句後，Dan也開門見山問道：「Alvin，你喺2E有無鍾意嘅人啊？」509Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtleGPLW8A0
隨即二人也站在了原地。509Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvRYZvfVtXj
而此時，Ivy也剛好走到了樓梯的轉角處，聆聽到了Alvin接下的回答。509Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡD9NQyvwl0F
「無喎。」Alvin的這一個回答，簡單而直接。509Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2Bqk9YvU2W
不過卻同時使Dan愣住了，而偷聽著的Ivy更感到失望起來。509Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6rQ4penhXD
看來她的幻想，都確實只是幻想。509Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJpWGnezO3X
並如同泡沫一樣，在一瞬間破掉化為無物。509Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHdtqTLd2wk
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「真喺無鍾意嘅人？」Dan再問道，並語氣變得質疑起來。509Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyLqPpEWfux
不過Alvin仍然迅速而堅定地回答同樣的答案：「真喺無。」509Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdRBQIb1qfg
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這使得Dan不禁倒抽了一口氣。509Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUnYo10XnOX
不過機智的他，也很快就想到第二條問題：「咁班入面有無邊個女仔吸引到你啊？」509Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0ZjPQD5ICA
Alvin思考了一會，然後答：「嗯……無喎……」509Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQifiVpt2aU
雖然答案一樣，但是這一次Alvin的回答，卻從中感覺到一絲猶如。509Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVNiB9Uv5mT
於是Dan也捉住了這份遲疑，再問：「真喺無？你諗真啲……例如Ivy呢？」509Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡONfQATAH1Q
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在轉角處的Ivy聽到了自己的名字後，也意會到Dan終於把與Alvin的對話引導到自己身上。509Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAQLV2bCArx
她隨即地把雙手放到胸口上，希望能藉此壓抑住活蹦亂跳的心。509Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkxuOeDUNyv
因為對於接下來Alvin的回答，她確實感到額外的緊張起來。509Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaSocQH6ERV
可是，她接著聽到答案是……509Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWRzKRJt2iA
「Ivy啊……無咩特別感覺喎，咪普通同學咁。」509Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsGC3exoIJb
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聽到Alvin的回答，Ivy頓時如同石化了一樣，目瞪口呆地站在原地。509Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4OO62svEDw
連此刻站在Alvin對面的Dan也瞬間感到愕然起來。509Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcCNdmSEtp7
或許他自己也猜想不到，這就是Alvin的答案。509Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXizEWGCLqT
不過，感到有點不知所揩的Dan，也靈機一動，立即再問：509Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3zwzerploM
「如果Ivy喺鍾意你呢？」509Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1nWtGEbq2X
他選擇不再轉彎抹角，而是斬釘截鐵地道出了Ivy的心意。509Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOp8wHiiFZ5
但其實他都猜想不到，原來Ivy一直偷聽著。509Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLC0CjB9slk
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然而，Alvin隨即也皺起眉頭說：「就算佢鍾意我，都唔代表我要鍾意佢。感情呢啲嘢講feel架嘛，如果要迎合佢嘅心意，而勉強自己，我做唔到。」509Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0LlBrn17XQ
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正當Alvin說完這句話後，他們的上方也突然傳來了一聲急促的腳步聲。509Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLbWWt8Y3ML
於是Alvin好奇地探頭瞄了一眼上方，並發現沒有人。509Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgndPq7ImzH
接著也扭過頭來繼續與Dan談論剛剛的話題。509Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWH7PFe7c56
然而，他並不知道，剛才腳步聲的主人，正是Ivy。509Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFWmDG2JlEn
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而與此同時，Ivy也已經淚流滿面，走到了學校的某處。509Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiFe0JmMWjd
孤單一人坐在角落，蜷縮著身體，雙臂抱住雙膝，痛哭起來。509Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡb2TxP8IgL9
她的哭聲，無比悲哀及淒慘，如同心被刀割一樣。509Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡj9owsjRAkw
看來這份傷痛，將永遠刻印在她的心中，成為一條永遠無法修補的疤痕。509Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuvUHZtrvmN
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「就算佢鍾意我，都唔代表我要鍾意佢」509Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZaPmBufTNt
直至深夜時，Ivy再次因為回想起Alvin的這一句話，而驚醒過來。509Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrF2UbGhOiQ
她隨即慢慢地離開了床，並坐在一旁的梳妝桌。509Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡstJkQsbaNC
然後，打開了桌燈，看著鏡中雙眼通紅、神情疲倦的自己。509Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxa3rcey3KC
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接著再回想起Alvin的說話，以及這三個月來自己的所做一切。509Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQQHDcuakwT
她不禁冷笑起來，隨後打開桌上文具盒，拿出了一把美術刀。509Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8M5tY0N5Ho
伸出冰冷的刀鋒，對著自己的手臀……509Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7GALFTeQaC
「嚓—」509Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXAWaZBxW2Y
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「懷著多大的期望，就會迎來同等的失望，甚至最終帶來更深的絕望」509Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhTCLnM03Y1
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作者在此鄭重聲明：509Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCfS6sSfEmo
𠝹手只是劇情的一部份，並且是虛構情節。509Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡScjfvbkicD
讀者們請潔身自愛，切勿嘗試！！！509Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡePMKnI7ah6
無論遇上多麼不如意的事情，都切勿做出任何試圖傷害身體的行為。509Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡirakMPuYxf
若發現事情未如理想，無法獨力承受，請向身邊的人如父母及師長尋求協助。509Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuDp3BOA5ku
切勿將傷害身體來發洩情緒一事合理化，請各位潔身自愛。509Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpUB2aTRAAu
愛人前先要懂得愛錫自己。509Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ30x1sE0PQ1
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過去阿侑的一句：「就算佢鍾意我，都唔代表我要鍾意佢。感情呢啲嘢講feel架嘛，如果要迎合佢嘅心意，而勉強自己，我做唔到。」509Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvflfwB5E7g
完全是在打著現在自己的臉……509Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMJUUqyh7vC
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