過去篇(四)435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGGoTJ18e8h
435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFXGyyHSUFy
某一天，在午息時段，Ivy悶悶不樂地來到學校的庭園。435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡu9be53X8jr
找了一個寧靜的角落，獨自一人坐下，不禁嘆息起來。435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMDHapuy9CA
435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxbLNC3U0WD
原來在剛才午飯時間，Ivy又一次鼓起勇氣邀約Alvin一同吃午飯。435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡl4mz0td2Ak
可是早就習慣了與其他男生一同外出用膳的Alvin。435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6ARX9E3c8J
並且升上中學後，根本就沒有被女生邀約吃飯。435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGgyTFSXqgn
因此Ivy突如其來邀約，再加上當時朋友們的催促，Alvin也只好當下拒絕了她的邀請。435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGGlznWwC6S
435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyJmywL1pph
被喜歡的人拒絕邀約，除了感到可惜及失望之外，就根本甚麼都做不到。435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡj1OKwWWC8b
Ivy曾經嘗試融入對方的生活圈子之中，卻永遠都只是停留在表面上的融入。435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIEaQTKXNiq
至今，她與Alvin仍然是維持在每天上學見面時談上兩三句話的局面。435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡD5a3efKQb4
即使放學後，她與Alvin透過WhatsApp聊天的次數，也少之又少。435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcIUidaouu8
435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmSQTcJSr8b
「Alvin都好似唔多理我咁……莫非真喺要好似Laura咁講，直接同佢講我鍾意佢……」435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtL1rXrg1oe
這時，在Ivy的腦海中也閃現出前陣子Laura的一句說話。435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvVvJppVUJM
那句叫她向喜歡的人坦承的說話。435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0criV2cZ7S
可是對於性格偏向內向的Ivy來說，要與喜歡的人坦白，可是一件難若登天的事情。435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYUuymqravO
單是起初鼓起勇氣向Alvin進一步搭訕，她其實也在心裡掙扎了好幾天。435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0H2CpCsgfU
435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8JW9xRMtMv
「你鍾意Alvin啊？」435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ292nRqShbj
突然有一把男聲從Ivy的後方傳來。435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTz4iA4ADYT
使得她馬上驚慌失色起來，並隨即轉過身來，查看聲音的主人。435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCGMHPCxICI
「Dan……？點解你會嚟庭園嘅？」435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9S3yOrfccj
在確認是同班的同學後，Ivy也接著好奇地問道。435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡm3OKrVwY3r
畢竟，學校的庭園平常根本不會有人到訪。435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡESUUht9i4s
435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJYductOlBJ
「食飽飯無嘢做，咪嚟行過圈囉……但竟然比我八卦到啲嘢啊，呵呵。」435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeIxROFBlwv
Dan在說著的同時，奸笑起來，然後就盯著Ivy，等待對方辯解。435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjUPygJeEqO
「你唔好講出啊！我求你！」Ivy當然是立即雙手合十，不斷向Dan請求著。435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFmz4cKqqGK
435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1zIxrbhr69
接著，Dan也抓一抓自己的頭髮，一臉沾沾自喜地說：435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡC4x8AQ7Vx0
「乜我似啲會將人哋秘密亂咁爆出去嘅人咩？」435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2gfN3YIRCH
Ivy思考了一會Dan的這句話，然後就搖頭說：「咁又唔似……」435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZ2qwo82h1O
435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5s8h4AC3dp
「鍾意咗人幾耐啊？」Dan隨即問道，看來是打算再八卦一下Ivy的事情。435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrBybmsXoAe
Ivy頓時也面紅耳赤起來，並不斷捏住自己的校裙。435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiXIUjyp8Ep
而在一番內心掙扎後，她也小小聲地說：「大概三個月啦……」435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlVz0b5zkab
435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡafoEMBg7PK
Dan馬上「哇」了一聲，但很快又一臉認真地摸著下巴說：435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3DjAPWEsOj
「唔怪得近排見你同Alvin多咗嘢講啦……不過睇嚟你都好似有嘢煩惱緊？」435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBE95Q1mIru
在對方的引導下，Ivy也開始向Dan說起了一切的由來。435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcQr2YtRz8i
由一開始對Alvin產生興趣，然後就是好感，最後就是喜歡了對方。435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBFdIaya49w
不過卻一直未能向對方表達心意。435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLWWTzcC57S
435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKeMiEaeJkX
Dan聆聽完Ivy一番經歷後，隨即也露出一個恍然大悟的樣子。435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHQKtXOnCmI
「哦，所以啱啱先見你唉聲嘆氣咁坐喺到。」435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQF1OxjOVBn
Ivy沒有說話，只是默默地點著頭。435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrKtlfCzTGV
於是Dan見況也繼續說：「都明你點解咁沮喪嘅，明明鍾意人，但又無勇氣同對方講，想接近人，但喺又無從入手，令到自己卡咗喺個尷尬位。」435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfYFSAwTjSA
聽到Dan「一針見血」的總結後，Ivy也馬上再次嘆息起來。435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPtBR5hwhuu
然後一臉沒精打采地看著Dan，並用低沉的聲音說：「聽嚟我都喺無機架啦……」435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGLMwt0E9By
435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIfGfJQxgqf
「唔好灰啦！不如我幫你探下Alvin口風啦！知佢點諗你都一件好事啊！」435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRvM89razeU
Dan見到Ivy一臉死氣沉沉地樣子，馬上轉用一個輕快的口吻說著，希望從而令Ivy振作一點。435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsLZ9mCmLa1
而Ivy聽到了Dan的建議後，馬上想起了先前Laura的一句：「唔試過又點知得唔得呢？」435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ77jibYPSEl
隨即也重燃心中的希望之火，一邊點頭一邊把一切都託付到Dan手上……435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOxbQgEB02T
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435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡepw998sMnr
數天後，Dan看準了放學時Alvin獨自離開課室的時機。435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVy8kkIYTgc
馬上裝作想與Alvin一同放學而上前與他搭訕。435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmSFUbKn2U0
「Alvin，不如今日一齊走啊！」435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡr5fN9Cv63Q
「少有喎，你今日唔喺同Francis一齊走。」435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFQjD2bdB3Y
「因為……Francis比人罰留堂啊！」435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1FyIPkyf5w
但此刻Francis其實是在班房裡與其他男生共同挑戰著手機遊戲中的關卡……435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDVEliG9zye
435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBLko90NaHL
接著，Dan與Alvin二人一邊聊著一邊下樓梯。435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzrbQoYnD0s
聊起兩三句後，Dan也開門見山問道：「Alvin，你喺2E有無鍾意嘅人啊？」435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPH5Fj5KAno
隨即二人也站在了原地。435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtXIR13HpiN
而此時，Ivy也剛好走到了樓梯的轉角處，聆聽到了Alvin接下的回答。435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaHMipxSoFH
「無喎。」Alvin的這一個回答，簡單而直接。435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPI3pSsBPdk
不過卻同時使Dan愣住了，而偷聽著的Ivy更感到失望起來。435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2XX0h32qMa
看來她的幻想，都確實只是幻想。435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJHqhTWTp0v
並如同泡沫一樣，在一瞬間破掉化為無物。435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡch2CTfdJoB
435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8mpqXdV2Ie
「真喺無鍾意嘅人？」Dan再問道，並語氣變得質疑起來。435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0mbGhVsRFH
不過Alvin仍然迅速而堅定地回答同樣的答案：「真喺無。」435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡh5kEZ1mgCL
435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡn1nmUUTUUn
這使得Dan不禁倒抽了一口氣。435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡu0pSfsBnPR
不過機智的他，也很快就想到第二條問題：「咁班入面有無邊個女仔吸引到你啊？」435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbzOJ8WDlxq
Alvin思考了一會，然後答：「嗯……無喎……」435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiLilYCwvuM
雖然答案一樣，但是這一次Alvin的回答，卻從中感覺到一絲猶如。435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGNXHWt92xb
於是Dan也捉住了這份遲疑，再問：「真喺無？你諗真啲……例如Ivy呢？」435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqvNuoN4tsB
435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqNMBybMXah
在轉角處的Ivy聽到了自己的名字後，也意會到Dan終於把與Alvin的對話引導到自己身上。435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMRdLNzCrm3
她隨即地把雙手放到胸口上，希望能藉此壓抑住活蹦亂跳的心。435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlIMytMEauN
因為對於接下來Alvin的回答，她確實感到額外的緊張起來。435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡt2UcTlKRCP
可是，她接著聽到答案是……435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYKxtlAObLs
「Ivy啊……無咩特別感覺喎，咪普通同學咁。」435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡP23O0dOnzt
435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTu1apuM3BY
聽到Alvin的回答，Ivy頓時如同石化了一樣，目瞪口呆地站在原地。435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡddSLAbFVum
連此刻站在Alvin對面的Dan也瞬間感到愕然起來。435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgqDewwOXvS
或許他自己也猜想不到，這就是Alvin的答案。435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaEMvNOmcJe
不過，感到有點不知所揩的Dan，也靈機一動，立即再問：435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGjZqZ9DJ7a
「如果Ivy喺鍾意你呢？」435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCFdTz0n678
他選擇不再轉彎抹角，而是斬釘截鐵地道出了Ivy的心意。435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTK4aHEsoko
但其實他都猜想不到，原來Ivy一直偷聽著。435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQmWvjuoA2d
435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡl0XRe6tOUf
然而，Alvin隨即也皺起眉頭說：「就算佢鍾意我，都唔代表我要鍾意佢。感情呢啲嘢講feel架嘛，如果要迎合佢嘅心意，而勉強自己，我做唔到。」435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡo1BvDCP3Lc
435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQy2lZTckYo
正當Alvin說完這句話後，他們的上方也突然傳來了一聲急促的腳步聲。435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzYvP3HOIx2
於是Alvin好奇地探頭瞄了一眼上方，並發現沒有人。435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡH5l1N9Nz8O
接著也扭過頭來繼續與Dan談論剛剛的話題。435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcMXLcGPM0n
然而，他並不知道，剛才腳步聲的主人，正是Ivy。435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡn98XyRMiqB
435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlbhHROf3WV
而與此同時，Ivy也已經淚流滿面，走到了學校的某處。435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2X6h4gy699
孤單一人坐在角落，蜷縮著身體，雙臂抱住雙膝，痛哭起來。435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDzAucgH9oj
她的哭聲，無比悲哀及淒慘，如同心被刀割一樣。435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5kNdsZFknv
看來這份傷痛，將永遠刻印在她的心中，成為一條永遠無法修補的疤痕。435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡS4NWaG5qe7
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「就算佢鍾意我，都唔代表我要鍾意佢」435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7SnwTLXez2
直至深夜時，Ivy再次因為回想起Alvin的這一句話，而驚醒過來。435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaO1g0YzxWV
她隨即慢慢地離開了床，並坐在一旁的梳妝桌。435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6eYnmuRCmk
然後，打開了桌燈，看著鏡中雙眼通紅、神情疲倦的自己。435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoKtusIAQgM
435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSyzam80eZq
接著再回想起Alvin的說話，以及這三個月來自己的所做一切。435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPfW0a1ifJ8
她不禁冷笑起來，隨後打開桌上文具盒，拿出了一把美術刀。435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡN4HiBL0S92
伸出冰冷的刀鋒，對著自己的手臀……435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrzZesrAMaI
「嚓—」435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAsrVYMc3DL
435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8QawX9FVYX
435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHJ9mzpA09g
「懷著多大的期望，就會迎來同等的失望，甚至最終帶來更深的絕望」435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8IHevabIL1
435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2sTz0vLooX
435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsFNG8y0jHq
作者在此鄭重聲明：435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoyujKGzsLk
𠝹手只是劇情的一部份，並且是虛構情節。435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5KqOGYiCD2
讀者們請潔身自愛，切勿嘗試！！！435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGnFR5YSzDy
無論遇上多麼不如意的事情，都切勿做出任何試圖傷害身體的行為。435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRy3r43ynB0
若發現事情未如理想，無法獨力承受，請向身邊的人如父母及師長尋求協助。435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjTHUFUcXsV
切勿將傷害身體來發洩情緒一事合理化，請各位潔身自愛。435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuhGNfwtyX6
愛人前先要懂得愛錫自己。435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuhDTv8EhBh
435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoruKWflxnH
作者閒聊：435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUacw8mBbBf
過去阿侑的一句：「就算佢鍾意我，都唔代表我要鍾意佢。感情呢啲嘢講feel架嘛，如果要迎合佢嘅心意，而勉強自己，我做唔到。」435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZPtCoXl4M4
完全是在打著現在自己的臉……435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVZbGZZs1k9
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