第一二八章:畢業營(七)512Please respect copyright.PENANAN8PQ6ElypO
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一聲喊道下,我便把Mandy拉到懷中緊抱著。512Please respect copyright.PENANAIIVkqtuXgZ
已經不知道,這個舉動到底是理性控制,還是感性驅動了……512Please respect copyright.PENANAYcxt5ieVLv
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不過在我懷中的Mandy,也在一陣錯愕過後。512Please respect copyright.PENANAXwK8ft5HkB
便輕聲地說:「做咩咁突然攬住人……」512Please respect copyright.PENANAbmZdz9An1X
「唔知……我都唔知點解自己會突然咁做。」我仍然摟抱著她說道。512Please respect copyright.PENANAuk3wEYWY76
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而我們唯持了這個姿勢大約半分鐘後,她也再說:「一陣比其他人睇到啊……」512Please respect copyright.PENANAP6u9B5O7Lr
聽到她這這番說話,我才下意識過來,現在還是在營區內,隨時都會有同級的同學或老師出現。512Please respect copyright.PENANAp55hivLbHB
因此,我便很快把她推離懷中,並說:「對……對唔住。」512Please respect copyright.PENANAF8yLmQAe0s
但她沒有責怪我突然的舉動,反而是臉頰泛起一點紅地盯著地板看。512Please respect copyright.PENANA0asSUJUSh2
我想,突然被人抱入懷中,有這個反應也不奇怪。512Please respect copyright.PENANANPLCUMKY3H
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「不如我哋去個邊企?」512Please respect copyright.PENANAB1SlfD7ehz
發現氣氛變得有點尷尬起來的我,便指向了近河畔邊的平台。512Please respect copyright.PENANAS6F3Hgabv0
她抬頭看一看我指向的方向,沉默了一會。512Please respect copyright.PENANAA9z1hK8iey
接著也少少聲地在嘴邊說:「好。」512Please respect copyright.PENANAMgCEPf4UBN
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隨即我們便一同往平台的方向前去,不過路途上卻沒有任何傾談。512Please respect copyright.PENANArj5G21fjrp
畢竟,現在我腦中想著的,都只是她那一句「道別」。512Please respect copyright.PENANAYQYJa7XisO
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直到我們來到平台,並雙雙靠在欄杆上。512Please respect copyright.PENANAcl0xLF73EA
她也開口說:「聖誕之後,我就會翻番澳洲讀書。」512Please respect copyright.PENANAYGxfYG9G0t
「喺啊……」我竟然比想像中表現得平淡。512Please respect copyright.PENANAIO2HU4WscV
而她對於的我反應,似乎都感到有點意外。512Please respect copyright.PENANAX2WNJ9eEf9
於是好奇地望向我,隨即我都一同與她對視起來。512Please respect copyright.PENANAUA4MzMDdmZ
「阿侑你嘅反應比我想像中冷靜喎……啊,唔喺。你啱先都無啦啦攬住我。」512Please respect copyright.PENANA4kmba6WxpR
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其實我的反應會如此鎮定,可能是因為我早就猜想到會有這一天的來臨。512Please respect copyright.PENANALNvTSo4BHh
始終,她已經不是第一次離開我了。512Please respect copyright.PENANAgUPMN02rtr
三年前,她因為移民而前往了澳洲。512Please respect copyright.PENANATONUeN9F32
可是在一年後又回來了與我再次相遇。512Please respect copyright.PENANAooWBIGH3ng
但是她的家人仍然在澳洲,這樣代表,終有一天,她還是要離開……512Please respect copyright.PENANAFzHuQUNjhz
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「點解又突然翻去讀書?」512Please respect copyright.PENANAAkPuS2kjDu
她沒有即時回答,而是扭過頭去看著前方一片漆黑的河畔。512Please respect copyright.PENANAGlb19cmqIc
「本來都諗住考埋DSE先,但屋企人都希望我唔好考,而喺返去讀多兩年high school,然後直接駁入U。」512Please respect copyright.PENANAgqd8pqKXTw
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聽到她這樣說道,我都瞬間理解到為何她的家人會作出如此的抉擇。512Please respect copyright.PENANALAytOXLcn4
畢竟論教育,香港的教育實在太過落後,只專注在菁英培育上。512Please respect copyright.PENANAGRYJ0UlfAX
然後又推行現在的「一試定生死」方式,來區分能力高與低的學生。512Please respect copyright.PENANASeDQaXqyxv
分分鐘考入大學還比在麻將桌上以海底撈月食糊更難呢。512Please respect copyright.PENANAJSTV5L2MY1
換做是我的話,都會選擇在海外升學。512Please respect copyright.PENANAXkTYQ02rO4
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在她的話後,我也一同望向眼前漆黑的河畔。512Please respect copyright.PENANA8elsJrM7ui
頓時覺得眼前的景色,就如同不久的未來一樣。512Please respect copyright.PENANAyarshSF5bL
現在晚上看著,只會覺得一團漆黑,根本捉摸不清眼前的事物。512Please respect copyright.PENANA31IvgSe4pn
換做早上看著的話,卻會清楚地看到河畔上所有的景物。512Please respect copyright.PENANAgICcCpEbRN
人,會因為一時的迷茫,而失去向前的動力。512Please respect copyright.PENANA4WfcBPuVbC
但又會因為熟悉而感到舒適,並最後失去了探索的動力。512Please respect copyright.PENANA5lvhDd5wAU
到底是選擇留在舒適圈,還是離開,都將會引致不同的未來。512Please respect copyright.PENANA1zqIsT2SJY
而我們往往擔憂的,就只是那個未來到底適不適合自己。512Please respect copyright.PENANAqxAEqTA0H7
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Mandy發現我沒有回應,於是又再說起來:「所以今次真喺要再見啦。」512Please respect copyright.PENANArKmxlrRDmf
她又再一次提起了「再見」這一回事。512Please respect copyright.PENANAamiqP8ymkU
但這次我並沒有像剛一樣立即把她拉到懷中,而是說出心中話:512Please respect copyright.PENANA6K21OQVkgr
「老實講啊,其實我唔想你走。」512Please respect copyright.PENANAJ3D3DzjW64
「我知啊,啱先你攬住我個陣,我聽到啊。」她在話後便微笑起來。512Please respect copyright.PENANACBtt5qpAh1
感覺就像在回味剛才的一刻一樣。512Please respect copyright.PENANAcdmJLi17eF
但接著又再問:「點解咁唔想我走?」512Please respect copyright.PENANAl5hHmqskPk
「因為我自私囉。」我直接說道。512Please respect copyright.PENANAr8xCvaEbgy
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然而,她又沒有立即回答,而是轉過身來背靠在欄杆上。512Please respect copyright.PENANABBqD6vp6BL
「唔可以自私喺我到架。」512Please respect copyright.PENANAfgC7jrGtop
「點解啊?」我一臉好奇地反問道。512Please respect copyright.PENANAdEihPUGsfZ
「因為……我唔值得你自私囉!」512Please respect copyright.PENANAer4heB8grh
她這樣一說,使我愣住了。512Please respect copyright.PENANAQ8b6JVmkvH
但是正當我開口時,她又說:「仲有其他人值得你自私。」512Please respect copyright.PENANAvNN30pSH4e
「你嘅其他人喺指?」512Please respect copyright.PENANA7FaWuzipwS
「Venus啊,Elaine啊,甚至可能喺你畢業之後識嘅人。」512Please respect copyright.PENANAtgL1ePo84k
在她提起Venus的名字時,我的腦海卻聯想起一段畫面。512Please respect copyright.PENANAboDa6zXbSY
就是開學的那一天,她與Venus在6C班門前談天的時候。512Please respect copyright.PENANAMJ4lOiJtbl
因此我也不禁問:「愛瑩喺咪一早知架啦?」512Please respect copyright.PENANARjiy1eqADX
她點頭,然後望向夜空:「班入面有幾個女仔都知。其實我都諗住差唔多時間同大家講架啦。」512Please respect copyright.PENANA4xsGoQIMru
即使與全班說,大家都知道後,都是改變不了她要離開的事實。512Please respect copyright.PENANADM8bMSwXNg
而我此刻想對她就只是:「比我……」512Please respect copyright.PENANAMckmqiHyIB
「時間都唔早啦,不如我哋翻去啦。」512Please respect copyright.PENANAUs4AWfi3Tn
她突然的一句打斷了我的說話。512Please respect copyright.PENANAzMdAmbolMb
是巧合?還是刻意呢?512Please respect copyright.PENANAhvzEfj98U5
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並且她在提議後,只是雙眼默默地凝視著我。512Please respect copyright.PENANANjfNOVl3mF
我隨即只能吞下還在口中的說話,點頭回應:512Please respect copyright.PENANA1hE9lZiF8d
「都好。」512Please respect copyright.PENANAXzsS13dKgw
答應了的這一刻也代表著,我們的話題,將會在此結束……512Please respect copyright.PENANAPfmGCAvowP
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片刻後,我帶著複雜的心情返回了宿舍內。512Please respect copyright.PENANAnnRmT17ylR
並在打開門的一刻,就見Harriet拿著毛巾及衣服在大廳的沙發上看著電視。512Please respect copyright.PENANACAa2v2itfL
「散完步翻嚟啦?」Harriet看見我的出現,便立即問道。512Please respect copyright.PENANA6XEZSLtytM
而我只是坐到他的旁邊,並靠在沙發上嘆氣起來。512Please respect copyright.PENANARqIVgYva7a
「唉,感情真喺好複雜呢。」512Please respect copyright.PENANA1rA6FT0Dpj
他先是愣住了,但是也一同靠向後,並輕笑了一聲說:512Please respect copyright.PENANAAblM3qJYv7
「喺啊,感情真喺好複雜架。」512Please respect copyright.PENANA6RbHJyfFmn
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「想放手,但又想捉緊,真複雜」512Please respect copyright.PENANArEx9DkWrIC