暑假篇：釋懷557Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡn9CrzeRs1J
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「你真喺Alvin啊？」557Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡY7a44CYquB
那名女生仍然一臉難以置信地問著我。557Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1R1Pn3fGo5
其實此刻，在我心一樣徘徊著同樣的問題「你真喺Ivy啊」。557Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCYWiMAWL2u
但是對於記性好的我來說，當然知道她就是Ivy了。557Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ07VhXxAaQd
雖然她把過往的長髮修剪為及肩短髮，並開始佩帶起眼鏡。557Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡI3AmGBLohF
然而她那張熟悉的臉孔，仍然存在於腦海之中。557Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡft3GOhsykX
最糟糕的就是……我在一瞬間也回憶起，她哭泣著的容貌。557Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSiVOIpt8go
亦都是多年前，我最後一次看見她的時候……557Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡztSB1Qx6Rx
557Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxJ1EgvQil3
「我哋好耐無見啦！有無……有無三年啦？」557Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSUiredM6PB
Ivy在一陣驚訝過後，便隨即臉帶笑容說道。557Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBDJfcgxZad
再見時是哭著，現在重遇卻是笑著，是多麼矛盾的事情……557Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsX2j1yMqhu
557Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFqYiuRIaIg
「正確嚟講應該喺四年啦。」我回應她。557Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡusRkbUDinv
而她在聽到我的更正後，也立即數著手指：「一、二、三、四……喺喎！原來已經四年囉，嘻嘻！」557Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlskCny6hl2
看著她傻笑起來的樣子，我的心中卻逐漸產生起一種感覺。557Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2E0LJEeWX5
一種難以形容的內疚感。557Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ56r4OOWJYN
557Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjkNYuR9QFN
而在她的一陣傻笑過後，她似乎也察覺到了我並沒有多說話。557Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhZ0cMjI28B
於是她便接著再說：「Alvin，你成個人成熟咗。」557Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrJgxyJHKwt
「喺……喺咩。」我稍為避開了她的目光說道。557Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡthdltHfzTp
隨即視線也落在她的長袖衣上。557Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFhtoGdimIN
明明現在是夏天，外面三十多度，但她還是穿著長袖。557Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡR30boo4zyQ
是用來遮掩著手臂嗎？557Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡczci5rA7hO
是用來遮掩著手臂上的傷痕嗎？557Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡq2JYRxOSay
是用來遮掩著手臂上因為我而弄出來的傷痕嗎？557Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbEGxsZnzXJ
單是回想起昨晚Mandy所說的畫面，我便不禁倒抽了一口氣。557Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGOa0CudagE
557Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhV0qOWCVMT
「Alvin，你介意緊以前嘅事啊？」557Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQhs6ajKyM2
Ivy很快也發現了我的目光落在她的衣袖上，於是隨即便把衣袖卷起。557Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbXcak6D8FR
展露了手臂上的數條疤痕。557Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfnRsIkHiun
這一瞬間，我的心涼了。557Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvhMeCOxLxF
原來這就是我當時的決定，而導致的後果了嗎……557Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcXW3H5NHsG
我沉默了數秒，接著也開口說：「對唔住。」557Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1x4s7PzlfJ
道歉，因為當時我傷害了她的心。557Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCarNogK9GA
557Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6bPkHfxpvu
「哎呀！做咩道歉啦你？」Ivy立即愕然地說道。557Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡt1eqvB3Ivw
我沒有回應她，只是繼續沉默著。557Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0jTVhJpmC7
使得她隨即也皺眉頭起來，並思考了數秒後說：「睇嚟Alvin你真喺好介意以前嘅事……真喺好對唔住！」557Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpCdYdemDwu
然而在她話後，她卻立即向我九十度鞠躬道歉起來。557Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡN0hbh8O4kx
這次輪到我感到錯愕起來並立即說：「做……做咩突然道歉啦？！」557Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLR8aBKNCBb
557Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqE3UZkvYPB
「因為當年我一時嘅衝動，搞到Alvin你原來一直都介懷於心！真喺好對唔住！」Ivy繼續面朝地板說著。557Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ319pzCYukT
使得我都開始有點不知所措起來，只能不斷揮動手臂，示意她快抬起頭來。557Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDquX78MS1M
557Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7MJMZKV472
於是Ivy也快速地把頭抬來，然後雙眼注視著我說：「如果喺一年前嘅我，我諗依家一定喊哂口。不過依家嘅我已經對一切都釋懷，所以希望Alvin都唔好因為當年嘅事而怪責自己！」557Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9aHwlCdTJ9
「我自責緊……？」我疑惑地重複她最後一句話。557Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmDQfYHFbDh
而她只是隨即指向我並說：「我識少少心理學架！所以咪睇得出你自責緊！」557Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLaCXA7KG78
是嗎，原來我一直都在自責著……557Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxn0nvrIUeY
557Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIG0Li73CbP
「其實講真啊，我都估唔到我哋會咁樣相遇翻，突然之間覺得所有嘢都好似喺琴日發生咁。」557Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9XKY5VhUeh
「如果當時我唔拒……」當我打算開口說道的時候，Ivy卻再說：「唔可以。」557Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6BeNnjRNQz
「吓？咩唔可以？」我瞬間愣住。557Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPbLBZUZH7C
而她只是搖一搖頭，並說：「唔可以因為要迎合其他人，而強迫自己失去咗自我。」557Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡb3sxaYe6Q0
557Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡymRURyeFQU
她的這句話如同子彈一樣，一下子打穿了我的大腦。557Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBN0blSB36o
她說得沒有錯，我一直以來都是在扮演著一個只會迎合其他人的角色。557Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsvV1Jc0DMA
557Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8MXsST0Q4S
「以前我一直都會諗，如果Alvin你無拒絕我，究竟之後會點。」她說道。557Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkQhB1u0XEZ
而我思考了一會後，便說：「我哋會一齊咗，跟住就唔會發生之後嘅事？」557Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ12aqtHXGv3
「喺，我哋喺會一齊，但喺一切都只喺因為你唔想hurt我，而強迫自己同我一齊，咁樣嘅話，我哋根本就唔會過得開心！」557Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDSjDO5jZtd
她說著的時候，語氣明顯變得有點激動起來。557Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8I2WW8HNom
但她仍然繼續說道：「咁所以，唔好再因為我嘅事而怪責自己啦！我依家過得好好，識咗一班好室友，佢哋仲教識咗我好多唔會嘅正向觀念。」557Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmEEy6ghWOX
557Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6fFkgjcDP6
而在她的一番言論後，我便合上嘴巴，並閉上雙眼，大腦開始思考起來。557Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXdG2hF4PCV
因為當初Ivy的事件，我變得開始只會迎合他人。557Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIHCQHlAPyJ
後來與Mandy交往後，我開始執著於承諾。557Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEyUQBEQMCp
結識依玲及Venus後，我仍然只是一直在配合著她們對我的心意而行。557Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡV117A9z7iC
一時是好朋友、一時是前度、一時是曖昧對象。557Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNIm8qkKhSb
到底我的真正想法是甚麼？557Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡow2MYfRSLv
而為什麼，我又會落得如此的地步呢……557Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZgMucIkiHh
557Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwo7JZVK9Pn
想著想著，我便不自覺地冷笑了一下。557Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡv7DRajHB4d
而Ivy也隨即說：「所以希望你唔好再自責啦。」557Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdm9Ed1zbcq
我慢慢地張開眼睛，然後看著她說：「多謝你，我諗我諗通咗啲嘢啦。」557Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0GMYVs2b5J
其實一直迷失著的人，原來就是我自己。557Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGA4OjxATyM
557Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzCRdZl0k4C
「見翻你，可能喺種緣份，喺上天安排我哋再相遇翻，然後解開心結。」557Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiMMVPaCskD
「心結？你唔喺話你釋懷咗啦咩？」我好奇問道。557Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡn28phL6TuI
但Ivy接著卻突然面紅耳赤起來，並說話變得有點口吃起來：「對你喺釋懷……但對另一個人唔喺……」557Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡD7wEh7Ywxx
557Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4tGyWrwYFK
「喂！學生妹原來你喺到啊！」557Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡT3d02XP3ss
此時，從我的後方傳來了一把男聲。557Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUNKNe0ToWK
於是我便立刻扭頭過去查看，發現原來是剛剛那位受我邀請完成任務的Youtuber以及他的另外兩位朋友。557Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡT4rKsaUc0s
而從他剛才的對話推斷，他們應該是認識Ivy的……557Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzPjhpFI9BB
莫非Ivy所說的室友就是他們嗎？！557Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡliIcSPGzAe
557Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBzQVv0mfEG
接下來，其中一名男生更走到我們的身旁時，並稍為打量了一下我。557Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTRDa9A48Mg
然後就一臉恍然地向Ivy說：「哦！原來就喺佢！」557Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCjYsu2jHbW
「嗯？」我立刻擺出了一個疑惑樣子。557Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgMrBHSvY8f
甚麼原來就是我？557Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbGiVOuZAeb
557Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaMl1iuQGfe
然而，那名男生並沒有理會我的反應，只是繼續與Ivy說：557Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuOEwaa0CCr
「你要講嘅嘢喺咪講哂啦？」557Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1qC97PEL8K
「講哂啦！」Ivy立即回應對方，並表情瞬間變得更害羞起來。557Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdUWPKzMqhF
而我對於他們的對話，仍然感到萬分不解。557Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvgfFkKrIh3
但是那名Youtuber也隨即向我說：「我哋幫你哋做完任務啦！記得subscribe同like多啲我啊！」557Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWz3POB15tZ
接著，那三名男生便與Ivy一同向我作了一個簡易的道別。557Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUsxBQVrwkm
然後就轉身從圖書館的另一個出口離開了。557Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡU7aXUVreP8
557Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡthXDqzPJPJ
與此同時，也只留下了完全摸不清頭緒的我並自言自起來：557Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡa503kHlsnF
「到底講緊咩啦……」557Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9J6jOotevQ
不過既然今天能重遇Ivy，並得知她至今還過得挺好的。557Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDTIZ6zC5ml
我想……應該是時候要放過一下自己了。557Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMh9sGyjHua
當年的內疚，應該都會逐漸消散了。557Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrImBfj86TX
這算是解決了我人生其中一個遺憾了吧？557Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4AgSDUI7el
557Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ274pcg3jNK
但是，在解開了過往的困惑同時。557Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXhRMsbPLVj
也提醒了我，在未來，我將再次需要作出選擇。557Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBrn48MriZJ
而且還是三個那麼多……557Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAKiu3PE9SN
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「只有釋懷，才能夠走更遠的路」557Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUm3RPTsviz
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作者閒聊：連動篇總算告一段落了。在不久將來，Ivy還是會再次出現喔，不過那已經是第二個故事了~557Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgpdlHuDSME
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