暑假篇：釋懷471Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡysdGk4eWNc
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「你真喺Alvin啊？」471Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEaHll1nOZp
那名女生仍然一臉難以置信地問著我。471Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoZjQS3BLc6
其實此刻，在我心一樣徘徊著同樣的問題「你真喺Ivy啊」。471Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWhPzZgGFGJ
但是對於記性好的我來說，當然知道她就是Ivy了。471Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbzGcBRfxVj
雖然她把過往的長髮修剪為及肩短髮，並開始佩帶起眼鏡。471Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxgL0rNlWBE
然而她那張熟悉的臉孔，仍然存在於腦海之中。471Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPCobEBtQZk
最糟糕的就是……我在一瞬間也回憶起，她哭泣著的容貌。471Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxnz0mzI0bG
亦都是多年前，我最後一次看見她的時候……471Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEazmihvvJw
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「我哋好耐無見啦！有無……有無三年啦？」471Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiXdyHCkoHq
Ivy在一陣驚訝過後，便隨即臉帶笑容說道。471Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡs05B5JtSIp
再見時是哭著，現在重遇卻是笑著，是多麼矛盾的事情……471Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwH3SjCtWCK
471Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEUvcV34Uij
「正確嚟講應該喺四年啦。」我回應她。471Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkfTN5eS5zz
而她在聽到我的更正後，也立即數著手指：「一、二、三、四……喺喎！原來已經四年囉，嘻嘻！」471Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXap5f8y0CT
看著她傻笑起來的樣子，我的心中卻逐漸產生起一種感覺。471Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyPIpSZGXsh
一種難以形容的內疚感。471Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzfkynDDA8V
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而在她的一陣傻笑過後，她似乎也察覺到了我並沒有多說話。471Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeVgWMeAt2s
於是她便接著再說：「Alvin，你成個人成熟咗。」471Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtsLPFjwq2C
「喺……喺咩。」我稍為避開了她的目光說道。471Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxfiVDuzzLZ
隨即視線也落在她的長袖衣上。471Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGjpdlHj9zT
明明現在是夏天，外面三十多度，但她還是穿著長袖。471Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡx3hYfUlZIB
是用來遮掩著手臂嗎？471Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrA879A6NHo
是用來遮掩著手臂上的傷痕嗎？471Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuUpqUB81GF
是用來遮掩著手臂上因為我而弄出來的傷痕嗎？471Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBDyoYygN8T
單是回想起昨晚Mandy所說的畫面，我便不禁倒抽了一口氣。471Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnd2pnO926t
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「Alvin，你介意緊以前嘅事啊？」471Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWr6d1E9p47
Ivy很快也發現了我的目光落在她的衣袖上，於是隨即便把衣袖卷起。471Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSwNuJE9Lan
展露了手臂上的數條疤痕。471Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPBqI3RK38S
這一瞬間，我的心涼了。471Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0BQIsXlppX
原來這就是我當時的決定，而導致的後果了嗎……471Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡH4DfdimAHS
我沉默了數秒，接著也開口說：「對唔住。」471Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeL09VvqXHs
道歉，因為當時我傷害了她的心。471Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyPYI4fa0rw
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「哎呀！做咩道歉啦你？」Ivy立即愕然地說道。471Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvxKJSQm7XR
我沒有回應她，只是繼續沉默著。471Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaBdIM3FcjI
使得她隨即也皺眉頭起來，並思考了數秒後說：「睇嚟Alvin你真喺好介意以前嘅事……真喺好對唔住！」471Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTVCbcqlFfl
然而在她話後，她卻立即向我九十度鞠躬道歉起來。471Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡatZlxmHcyu
這次輪到我感到錯愕起來並立即說：「做……做咩突然道歉啦？！」471Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBZBTdy1OJD
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「因為當年我一時嘅衝動，搞到Alvin你原來一直都介懷於心！真喺好對唔住！」Ivy繼續面朝地板說著。471Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXVyR5hs8Gq
使得我都開始有點不知所措起來，只能不斷揮動手臂，示意她快抬起頭來。471Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuns4pfpqOx
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於是Ivy也快速地把頭抬來，然後雙眼注視著我說：「如果喺一年前嘅我，我諗依家一定喊哂口。不過依家嘅我已經對一切都釋懷，所以希望Alvin都唔好因為當年嘅事而怪責自己！」471Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVFHJCbV0KK
「我自責緊……？」我疑惑地重複她最後一句話。471Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbhdEaOK0uh
而她只是隨即指向我並說：「我識少少心理學架！所以咪睇得出你自責緊！」471Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSeFgLtBCmZ
是嗎，原來我一直都在自責著……471Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVeFaqxcpxy
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「其實講真啊，我都估唔到我哋會咁樣相遇翻，突然之間覺得所有嘢都好似喺琴日發生咁。」471Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLswqOTqboS
「如果當時我唔拒……」當我打算開口說道的時候，Ivy卻再說：「唔可以。」471Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUrd8YAMiyJ
「吓？咩唔可以？」我瞬間愣住。471Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMqAJYGIEmL
而她只是搖一搖頭，並說：「唔可以因為要迎合其他人，而強迫自己失去咗自我。」471Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgFBvEH9Yk5
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她的這句話如同子彈一樣，一下子打穿了我的大腦。471Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdC7GHFzb47
她說得沒有錯，我一直以來都是在扮演著一個只會迎合其他人的角色。471Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡC8MgjwDjMU
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「以前我一直都會諗，如果Alvin你無拒絕我，究竟之後會點。」她說道。471Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8KcvJ5P3Gd
而我思考了一會後，便說：「我哋會一齊咗，跟住就唔會發生之後嘅事？」471Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNcpXbAV832
「喺，我哋喺會一齊，但喺一切都只喺因為你唔想hurt我，而強迫自己同我一齊，咁樣嘅話，我哋根本就唔會過得開心！」471Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7N89uW6rf9
她說著的時候，語氣明顯變得有點激動起來。471Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlsHvPP9hta
但她仍然繼續說道：「咁所以，唔好再因為我嘅事而怪責自己啦！我依家過得好好，識咗一班好室友，佢哋仲教識咗我好多唔會嘅正向觀念。」471Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAPb5Wq8F20
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而在她的一番言論後，我便合上嘴巴，並閉上雙眼，大腦開始思考起來。471Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUKsPchTTcn
因為當初Ivy的事件，我變得開始只會迎合他人。471Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZ2KbvvUAvL
後來與Mandy交往後，我開始執著於承諾。471Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCY3nEpwA90
結識依玲及Venus後，我仍然只是一直在配合著她們對我的心意而行。471Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡD1ab2lFMLS
一時是好朋友、一時是前度、一時是曖昧對象。471Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJfjv8ANfma
到底我的真正想法是甚麼？471Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRrONDJX6Fb
而為什麼，我又會落得如此的地步呢……471Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzSk3VurdYH
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想著想著，我便不自覺地冷笑了一下。471Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWOWdaDnJh1
而Ivy也隨即說：「所以希望你唔好再自責啦。」471Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGXq7CiympW
我慢慢地張開眼睛，然後看著她說：「多謝你，我諗我諗通咗啲嘢啦。」471Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5NvekWCO6T
其實一直迷失著的人，原來就是我自己。471Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTWL9bkeqM4
471Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvDHPRK3NiP
「見翻你，可能喺種緣份，喺上天安排我哋再相遇翻，然後解開心結。」471Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4WP9CQM0HS
「心結？你唔喺話你釋懷咗啦咩？」我好奇問道。471Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCwERQXKQ59
但Ivy接著卻突然面紅耳赤起來，並說話變得有點口吃起來：「對你喺釋懷……但對另一個人唔喺……」471Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcfhM37PpFD
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「喂！學生妹原來你喺到啊！」471Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoDB1uk1Vjs
此時，從我的後方傳來了一把男聲。471Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqxbFUKREpZ
於是我便立刻扭頭過去查看，發現原來是剛剛那位受我邀請完成任務的Youtuber以及他的另外兩位朋友。471Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeVuEB4sSBh
而從他剛才的對話推斷，他們應該是認識Ivy的……471Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpVENXN1ysC
莫非Ivy所說的室友就是他們嗎？！471Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡk1hruuQLCk
471Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoae7wKR0sN
接下來，其中一名男生更走到我們的身旁時，並稍為打量了一下我。471Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKBizofcCLq
然後就一臉恍然地向Ivy說：「哦！原來就喺佢！」471Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCq5vfbjgYU
「嗯？」我立刻擺出了一個疑惑樣子。471Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsCprSdCjRo
甚麼原來就是我？471Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡV3Zy9umvfO
471Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmW4lZ9N4H3
然而，那名男生並沒有理會我的反應，只是繼續與Ivy說：471Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjKd2JKyN6d
「你要講嘅嘢喺咪講哂啦？」471Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIZ9OKA7izw
「講哂啦！」Ivy立即回應對方，並表情瞬間變得更害羞起來。471Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡc1VVUgvJSk
而我對於他們的對話，仍然感到萬分不解。471Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHQValZ1qiq
但是那名Youtuber也隨即向我說：「我哋幫你哋做完任務啦！記得subscribe同like多啲我啊！」471Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjMEnEjSJxM
接著，那三名男生便與Ivy一同向我作了一個簡易的道別。471Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡE70jDnOtch
然後就轉身從圖書館的另一個出口離開了。471Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡj25fUomqDf
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與此同時，也只留下了完全摸不清頭緒的我並自言自起來：471Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhYywZNWma2
「到底講緊咩啦……」471Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxQJDPiF96T
不過既然今天能重遇Ivy，並得知她至今還過得挺好的。471Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKf82R2LQbr
我想……應該是時候要放過一下自己了。471Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPiotyWg90Q
當年的內疚，應該都會逐漸消散了。471Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0Ak8ylZjC9
這算是解決了我人生其中一個遺憾了吧？471Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjzyAsVXNID
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但是，在解開了過往的困惑同時。471Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwArGidKK6A
也提醒了我，在未來，我將再次需要作出選擇。471Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡA9ZPMfvdXN
而且還是三個那麼多……471Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡg0lhNkxMyJ
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「只有釋懷，才能夠走更遠的路」471Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡt9uPCurEBP
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作者閒聊：連動篇總算告一段落了。在不久將來，Ivy還是會再次出現喔，不過那已經是第二個故事了~471Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0vvp991ZwJ
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