第五十九.五章680Please respect copyright.PENANAZt1mPFVDMl
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「何鵬侑,其實你對我仲有無感覺?」680Please respect copyright.PENANApQNiCYWeVd
我終於都決定要問一次,這一個一直埋藏在我心底裡的問題。680Please respect copyright.PENANAGGxIHiiuKW
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我已經拖延了Alvin不少時間了,他可是還要回去為姐姐買晚飯的。680Please respect copyright.PENANAnzsuTH6hzQ
雖然心裡是這樣想著,但我還是把他從醫院帶來了車站,再由車站從帶到來了現在暫住的家樓下。680Please respect copyright.PENANA8GtINIcJIL
原因就只是希望能夠問道他這一條問題……680Please respect copyright.PENANA55Y5NnPhQq
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但當我問完後,只見Alvin思考了一會。680Please respect copyright.PENANAPuSkbEKPs5
拜託,你一定要回答「已經放下了我」。680Please respect copyright.PENANATmiMoeHTSr
這樣我才能夠有藉口都讓自己放下你的……680Please respect copyright.PENANAOL5LQHXo7q
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「你要我老實答嘅話,喺仲有感覺。」他思考完後,就看著我說。680Please respect copyright.PENANAzhOlIC97jq
聽到他這一個答案,我的大腦頓時如同電腦當了機一樣。680Please respect copyright.PENANAMs7Ghckxd2
他這個答案,完全打亂了我原先預定好要與他說的話……680Please respect copyright.PENANAIP8D6WK7Wh
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我初初是希望他會回答我「已經放下了」。680Please respect copyright.PENANAf2YuGCo8wC
然後我就可以順勢假裝自己都放下,並與他再一次由「朋友」的關係,重新再來一次。680Please respect copyright.PENANAZwMjNNXwhO
但現在他竟然直接回答我「還有感覺」……680Please respect copyright.PENANAX0SMk510uc
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單單就是這一句,就足夠令我已經很想立即走進他懷中,然後跟他說,其實我都一樣還沒有放下……680Please respect copyright.PENANAQWk0sI8ZMt
雖然感性上,我真的想與他再一起。680Please respect copyright.PENANAxefHqDQX5L
但理性上告訴了我,一開始令他失望及傷心的人……是我。680Please respect copyright.PENANASYa6CfApfw
即使我知道一切都已經過去了……680Please respect copyright.PENANA1p511yZVVX
但是曾經的傷痕裂縫,是沒法輕易就能填補得到的。680Please respect copyright.PENANAHl4E5ryJs4
我或許已經沒有資格,在他的心裡再佔上一格。680Please respect copyright.PENANAEU2bAdSlw7
我更不能再在他的心裡刻上第二條傷痕……680Please respect copyright.PENANASIUa7UGauj
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但是這刻情緒已經有一點開始湧現出來。680Please respect copyright.PENANA7okpzUaoEQ
然而,我都一定要假裝冷靜,不能讓他看穿我此刻的情緒。680Please respect copyright.PENANAhWcgZ0VwM5
於是我便深呼吸了一下,然後說:「都過咗成年啦……點會仲有感覺架……」680Please respect copyright.PENANAosumJXgjln
我說著的時候,心裡其實都一陣隱隱作痛。680Please respect copyright.PENANA2UzQHRcTsH
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「原先都無乜架啦,但同你相遇翻之後,個感覺即刻出翻哂嚟。」680Please respect copyright.PENANAKBJC87MioE
他回答著我。680Please respect copyright.PENANAFSoYqQI3TK
為何你一定要說這些說話呢……680Please respect copyright.PENANAFaARoZVflo
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雖然心裡很難受,但我自己弄出來的問題,就必須由我自己來解決。680Please respect copyright.PENANA68KvcahGLP
「問題就喺呢到啦!」我立即回應他。680Please respect copyright.PENANAmiWC2PKXZF
而他都很快就看著我問:「問題?」680Please respect copyright.PENANA5OJ9ufQ7dw
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「我哋依家嘅身份仲喺前男女朋友,所以一見翻臉就自然會咩感覺都出翻哂嚟……明明大家都已經分咗手成年,但你仲喺好似move on唔到咁。」680Please respect copyright.PENANAKZuiZnZb4l
我都不知道自己正在亂說著甚麼……但我說完後,就立即轉身背向著他。680Please respect copyright.PENANAefAS01Stgm
因為我真的開始壓抑不住心中一直不斷湧現著的情緒了……680Please respect copyright.PENANAEIMFHILGdW
每當我說一句與心相反的說話,我就變得更難受了。680Please respect copyright.PENANAWVGS2WHbg3
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「你咁樣講,好似講到自己已經放低咗咁。」他又回應了我。680Please respect copyright.PENANABCwqZEIKvg
原來你認為我已經將你放下了嗎……680Please respect copyright.PENANAPco0uY5a8X
雖然,心真的很痛,但既然已經決定了,我就必須繼續演下去。680Please respect copyright.PENANAYxgsey3hGO
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「我……放低咗架啦!」我說道。680Please respect copyright.PENANAy42EVvMcjw
但這時候,淚水都終於壓抑不住,從雙眼開始流下來。680Please respect copyright.PENANAb1Wzdkhu9o
對不起……我撒謊了,但這都是為了你好。680Please respect copyright.PENANAENE9oJ6cBk
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「喺啊……你放低到咪好囉……唔似我咁。」他回答我。680Please respect copyright.PENANAutQ4JVGvce
拜託不要再說這些說話了……680Please respect copyright.PENANAwUJOV5gxnw
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此刻,聽完他的說話後,我的心真很痛,很痛,很痛。680Please respect copyright.PENANASmOx3BKFDk
但是我還得繼續演下去……680Please respect copyright.PENANAbQ1WP13nf7
於是我強忍著眼淚,並轉身看著他。680Please respect copyright.PENANAIZU52TlUuT
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幸好,這時旁邊的的路燈剛好因時限而熄滅了。680Please respect copyright.PENANAqyH4IIObQM
這麼暗的環境,他應該是看不到我的表情的……680Please respect copyright.PENANAaij6idaD85
於是我便立即向他說道:「所以我覺得點解有時我哋喺班房到會有啲尷尬就喺因為我哋身份嘅問題。」680Please respect copyright.PENANA3NawGAnSqC
句子之間完全沒有停頓,因為一停頓下來,我就會又想哭了。680Please respect copyright.PENANAIPlYhngiTs
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「身份嘅問題?」他問道我。680Please respect copyright.PENANAn1dRPWEuvo
「你仲覺得我喺你前女朋友,所以有時喺交流上先會有啲尷尬……你應該好似我咁放低哂,然後就以一個新嘅身份去面對你!」680Please respect copyright.PENANAlQkhMkvKGi
我看似很有道理地說著。680Please respect copyright.PENANAdu3Uq1ohdw
但其實我根本就沒有放下過對他的感情。680Please respect copyright.PENANA7ISaBngrPg
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接著,Alvin竟然沒有回應我。680Please respect copyright.PENANAv7qJt1xpjj
於是我都只好繼續說:「不如我哋重新嚟過,唔喺曾經嘅戀人,唔喺前男女朋友,而喺重新由朋友呢個關係再開始過。」680Please respect copyright.PENANADuiKMIjFEg
本來這一句說話,是打算一開始在他回答我「已經放下了」後,就接著說的。680Please respect copyright.PENANAgm7OGQB4xR
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雖然我都希望我們能從「朋友」再重新開始過。680Please respect copyright.PENANAtoxIf4hsOl
但至少都讓我有一個藉口去先放下對你的感情吧……680Please respect copyright.PENANASUZPI5K55u
現在這樣反而讓我更不想去放下對你的感情了……680Please respect copyright.PENANA1sCjEo79w6
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「你嘅意思即喺我哋做翻朋友,好似啲典型嘅分手對白咁。」他又開口說道了。680Please respect copyright.PENANAxif7GOqaMk
「咁唔好咩?你又可以放低我,而我哋又可以繼續正正常常咁交流……」680Please respect copyright.PENANATG9pVUZEPu
這對現在的我們來說,應該是最好的解決方法了。680Please respect copyright.PENANAsUwW4zKhQ2
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接著Alvin都沉默了一會,看來他都應該是在思考著這個唯一的解決方法。680Please respect copyright.PENANAhPZQQcQLy6
而很快,他都彷彿想通了一樣開口說:「好啦,我哋做翻朋友啦咁!由今日起,我哋就只喺朋友。」680Please respect copyright.PENANAIx3UmYUKL9
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當我聽到他說我們只是朋友時,我就知道「何鵬侑與蔡霜玥」這段關係,在這一瞬間……完結了。680Please respect copyright.PENANAP5B1eOCHB7
雖然這本來就是我的目的,但為何當我聽到他所說後,我反而更難過……680Please respect copyright.PENANAAlMJkrisT0
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我的眼淚又開始從雙眼流下。680Please respect copyright.PENANAzwAcDET2NZ
但現在與他這麼近的距離,他一定會看得見我臉上的淚水。680Please respect copyright.PENANAcQmEDACsAq
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因此,我只好立即轉身,並強忍著淚水說:「好啦……時間唔早啦,你……快啲翻去買飯比家姐啦,我都要上翻去煮自己份晚餐啦!」680Please respect copyright.PENANAxSicattjMi
接著,我就背向著他揮手,並往前面的方向跑去。680Please respect copyright.PENANAWEX0nUR2Lk
我必須離開他,因為我實在不能再忍耐下去了。680Please respect copyright.PENANAu8tGwdSm5U
再這樣下去,我一定會在他面前痛哭出來的……680Please respect copyright.PENANAkTeibsY5fh
我不想他後悔。680Please respect copyright.PENANA7bo84uTo17
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我跑著的時候,並沒有理會身後的Alvin是站著還是轉身離開了。680Please respect copyright.PENANAmfAoLCoiUv
淚水已經不斷從雙眼滲出,而我都只能加快腳步走回家中。680Please respect copyright.PENANAPcBhWaEOtI
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接著,當我成功回到家,打開了門進到屋內,並閉上門的一剎那……680Please respect copyright.PENANAFrn7J4MF03
我直接跪在地上,大聲地哭起來……680Please respect copyright.PENANAPwCCLfpJcq
對上一次,我會這樣大聲哭出來,應該是與Alvin提出分手後……680Please respect copyright.PENANAfiUhYFJRcx
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「好痛,好痛,好痛……」我哭著的同時一直說著。680Please respect copyright.PENANA8FWqbsITy8
這一刻,並沒有任何人能在我身邊能夠安慰及陪伴著我。680Please respect copyright.PENANAOXw3LjNeA5
而我都只能一直痛哭著,直到淚水流乾涸為止……680Please respect copyright.PENANApxsqi38bxc
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對不起,何鵬侑,是我親手摧毀了我們這一段感情的。680Please respect copyright.PENANAQuQ5OS2lxi
過去你所認識的蔡霜玥,將不再存在。680Please respect copyright.PENANAoKDLomRiBF
而接下來的蔡霜玥,都只會與你以「朋友」的身份繼續相處。680Please respect copyright.PENANAhlZGOoLCOi