第五十九．五章724Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPH4fHgsJlF
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「何鵬侑，其實你對我仲有無感覺？」724Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCg40sYgJtJ
我終於都決定要問一次，這一個一直埋藏在我心底裡的問題。724Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOPw3dZGppN
724Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnRtTFwelCf
我已經拖延了Alvin不少時間了，他可是還要回去為姐姐買晚飯的。724Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ88quJiArXv
雖然心裡是這樣想著，但我還是把他從醫院帶來了車站，再由車站從帶到來了現在暫住的家樓下。724Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡe3dMJBMTTA
原因就只是希望能夠問道他這一條問題……724Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ60iizneioH
724Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFKUgm1gxee
但當我問完後，只見Alvin思考了一會。724Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6GRC498qll
拜託，你一定要回答「已經放下了我」。724Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJV1ZzQN0d0
這樣我才能夠有藉口都讓自己放下你的……724Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjDJM5P6Tau
724Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnheP0yHfwt
「你要我老實答嘅話，喺仲有感覺。」他思考完後，就看著我說。724Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUH7cSwDZlZ
聽到他這一個答案，我的大腦頓時如同電腦當了機一樣。724Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDqkC2whTMT
他這個答案，完全打亂了我原先預定好要與他說的話……724Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1JxifMNwUu
724Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7YzvZBK2eM
我初初是希望他會回答我「已經放下了」。724Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6CUQBDo0ou
然後我就可以順勢假裝自己都放下，並與他再一次由「朋友」的關係，重新再來一次。724Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3n6NckEpuO
但現在他竟然直接回答我「還有感覺」……724Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVwaxiHDoBQ
724Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZHYQw5qjxQ
單單就是這一句，就足夠令我已經很想立即走進他懷中，然後跟他說，其實我都一樣還沒有放下……724Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVXPL4Vcxws
雖然感性上，我真的想與他再一起。724Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡl2gRtgQELW
但理性上告訴了我，一開始令他失望及傷心的人……是我。724Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡw1LzCQs5aF
即使我知道一切都已經過去了……724Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3sMyAsFJ7a
但是曾經的傷痕裂縫，是沒法輕易就能填補得到的。724Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPySU0jNX5S
我或許已經沒有資格，在他的心裡再佔上一格。724Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLrrsfJSTJR
我更不能再在他的心裡刻上第二條傷痕……724Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZlLVNWSrGD
724Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6oLhBdh0ov
但是這刻情緒已經有一點開始湧現出來。724Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlQWzoQLgpa
然而，我都一定要假裝冷靜，不能讓他看穿我此刻的情緒。724Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrkup4TjGJs
於是我便深呼吸了一下，然後說：「都過咗成年啦……點會仲有感覺架……」724Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHRABLaUnJW
我說著的時候，心裡其實都一陣隱隱作痛。724Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUKJ5AEdfAW
724Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwWwZn4yglm
「原先都無乜架啦，但同你相遇翻之後，個感覺即刻出翻哂嚟。」724Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIZCAZBoaA6
他回答著我。724Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡu8Iki0ESaG
為何你一定要說這些說話呢……724Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvSDduNQ2rk
724Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPAbv5OoJV9
雖然心裡很難受，但我自己弄出來的問題，就必須由我自己來解決。724Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJzfZuflMyk
「問題就喺呢到啦！」我立即回應他。724Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNw1VVV01IZ
而他都很快就看著我問：「問題？」724Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLd4TqXw9vZ
724Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdAaYwF3EdQ
「我哋依家嘅身份仲喺前男女朋友，所以一見翻臉就自然會咩感覺都出翻哂嚟……明明大家都已經分咗手成年，但你仲喺好似move on唔到咁。」724Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡawDcQzdlGF
我都不知道自己正在亂說著甚麼……但我說完後，就立即轉身背向著他。724Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrzz8wAKfDb
因為我真的開始壓抑不住心中一直不斷湧現著的情緒了……724Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ34yijmCTQQ
每當我說一句與心相反的說話，我就變得更難受了。724Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYmF6YtlOKy
724Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXtFgr1BMVn
「你咁樣講，好似講到自己已經放低咗咁。」他又回應了我。724Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBuyuYJPTcu
原來你認為我已經將你放下了嗎……724Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3YOqsVVQ66
雖然，心真的很痛，但既然已經決定了，我就必須繼續演下去。724Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhYQjFKGCCK
724Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlBXVJkUkPA
「我……放低咗架啦！」我說道。724Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9lPXPjFO3b
但這時候，淚水都終於壓抑不住，從雙眼開始流下來。724Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgvhY3ah6tY
對不起……我撒謊了，但這都是為了你好。724Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfhhuRlQSCL
724Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiAt7wigLCd
「喺啊……你放低到咪好囉……唔似我咁。」他回答我。724Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡr80JL8aY93
拜託不要再說這些說話了……724Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ46U3kv4zGz
724Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpHjn9j6zes
此刻，聽完他的說話後，我的心真很痛，很痛，很痛。724Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqFInwAvJHk
但是我還得繼續演下去……724Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2bWLUVHrQR
於是我強忍著眼淚，並轉身看著他。724Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyPkTPMZJ9b
724Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbZ4hYexTPb
幸好，這時旁邊的的路燈剛好因時限而熄滅了。724Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlpJZymzLJz
這麼暗的環境，他應該是看不到我的表情的……724Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡM3a2GYDilH
於是我便立即向他說道：「所以我覺得點解有時我哋喺班房到會有啲尷尬就喺因為我哋身份嘅問題。」724Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡthGxzCg06d
句子之間完全沒有停頓，因為一停頓下來，我就會又想哭了。724Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjwZRuaTc57
724Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkjVqqFUZCz
「身份嘅問題？」他問道我。724Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLqlYhpn1TE
「你仲覺得我喺你前女朋友，所以有時喺交流上先會有啲尷尬……你應該好似我咁放低哂，然後就以一個新嘅身份去面對你！」724Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMTC0Rr1tJh
我看似很有道理地說著。724Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpZqT9FvAFT
但其實我根本就沒有放下過對他的感情。724Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0Tl377unmr
724Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfhqJuILMLU
接著，Alvin竟然沒有回應我。724Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8JoO87UnZ1
於是我都只好繼續說：「不如我哋重新嚟過，唔喺曾經嘅戀人，唔喺前男女朋友，而喺重新由朋友呢個關係再開始過。」724Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYNXCMgzRtE
本來這一句說話，是打算一開始在他回答我「已經放下了」後，就接著說的。724Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCk68lqlJlr
724Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnAdZeRJuPO
724Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0mVVHmXw1C
雖然我都希望我們能從「朋友」再重新開始過。724Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡznDfHSUf1l
但至少都讓我有一個藉口去先放下對你的感情吧……724Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡj9GeFP0Tqb
現在這樣反而讓我更不想去放下對你的感情了……724Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrjPS2kfUtU
724Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6CBmCT06RL
「你嘅意思即喺我哋做翻朋友，好似啲典型嘅分手對白咁。」他又開口說道了。724Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLRnyx9wqlZ
「咁唔好咩？你又可以放低我，而我哋又可以繼續正正常常咁交流……」724Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtihkkHcQbZ
這對現在的我們來說，應該是最好的解決方法了。724Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡekXPIbCOZp
724Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoDNiAkUWbH
接著Alvin都沉默了一會，看來他都應該是在思考著這個唯一的解決方法。724Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6FJCCLQ3WE
而很快，他都彷彿想通了一樣開口說：「好啦，我哋做翻朋友啦咁！由今日起，我哋就只喺朋友。」724Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtgoHSV1clX
724Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3A1k6hcDCu
當我聽到他說我們只是朋友時，我就知道「何鵬侑與蔡霜玥」這段關係，在這一瞬間……完結了。724Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxRQCYbKAbF
雖然這本來就是我的目的，但為何當我聽到他所說後，我反而更難過……724Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWQXVLyn9Of
724Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCRAJk93cDJ
我的眼淚又開始從雙眼流下。724Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCeJfsByzu5
但現在與他這麼近的距離，他一定會看得見我臉上的淚水。724Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuKxUyxKWIK
724Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUMkArKisuF
因此，我只好立即轉身，並強忍著淚水說：「好啦……時間唔早啦，你……快啲翻去買飯比家姐啦，我都要上翻去煮自己份晚餐啦！」724Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcbdMksT5co
接著，我就背向著他揮手，並往前面的方向跑去。724Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFS6QHn9u4N
我必須離開他，因為我實在不能再忍耐下去了。724Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡE8P0OgJr2W
再這樣下去，我一定會在他面前痛哭出來的……724Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwfRHGD4x2R
我不想他後悔。724Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFljghZw4tp
724Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5T0Pea3yGd
我跑著的時候，並沒有理會身後的Alvin是站著還是轉身離開了。724Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxTObcknShy
淚水已經不斷從雙眼滲出，而我都只能加快腳步走回家中。724Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvtj9lLIGaD
724Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmlJ5ICpvdk
接著，當我成功回到家，打開了門進到屋內，並閉上門的一剎那……724Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWAmJuY20Su
我直接跪在地上，大聲地哭起來……724Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡK6RyiWDIsP
對上一次，我會這樣大聲哭出來，應該是與Alvin提出分手後……724Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjPNZ7hP2KL
724Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOCs2nl6pzK
「好痛，好痛，好痛……」我哭著的同時一直說著。724Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5wvtT0gbjM
這一刻，並沒有任何人能在我身邊能夠安慰及陪伴著我。724Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJ2uu2cM4nA
而我都只能一直痛哭著，直到淚水流乾涸為止……724Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRCfcuIoqF3
724Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSA1mLiM1Ig
對不起，何鵬侑，是我親手摧毀了我們這一段感情的。724Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQeI2kzoheK
過去你所認識的蔡霜玥，將不再存在。724Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZL3hOCTd29
而接下來的蔡霜玥，都只會與你以「朋友」的身份繼續相處。724Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8zwORtn5bP
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