第五十九．五章703Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFMXlhcGbym
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「何鵬侑，其實你對我仲有無感覺？」703Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMEUz6Yl49s
我終於都決定要問一次，這一個一直埋藏在我心底裡的問題。703Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡq1iqReKOjD
703Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuIvQE4VZHi
我已經拖延了Alvin不少時間了，他可是還要回去為姐姐買晚飯的。703Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEVYt5Rdl97
雖然心裡是這樣想著，但我還是把他從醫院帶來了車站，再由車站從帶到來了現在暫住的家樓下。703Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOsheEm5lw2
原因就只是希望能夠問道他這一條問題……703Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡY0aE5LrlGj
703Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡefMZx6osak
但當我問完後，只見Alvin思考了一會。703Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjNx1HvlJgB
拜託，你一定要回答「已經放下了我」。703Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlNZDwny91g
這樣我才能夠有藉口都讓自己放下你的……703Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5unRpLhnri
703Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtrpCuX0Kuw
「你要我老實答嘅話，喺仲有感覺。」他思考完後，就看著我說。703Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTGfdqDunMu
聽到他這一個答案，我的大腦頓時如同電腦當了機一樣。703Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡewVCcl9Nue
他這個答案，完全打亂了我原先預定好要與他說的話……703Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBhR719okKB
703Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCkdV40EYkF
我初初是希望他會回答我「已經放下了」。703Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiWq8oyKPeb
然後我就可以順勢假裝自己都放下，並與他再一次由「朋友」的關係，重新再來一次。703Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSNObkDsc3u
但現在他竟然直接回答我「還有感覺」……703Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡz6NqLSkcCI
703Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdxcPZ27LVt
單單就是這一句，就足夠令我已經很想立即走進他懷中，然後跟他說，其實我都一樣還沒有放下……703Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ93LNMi4rfD
雖然感性上，我真的想與他再一起。703Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgWqXdGiGie
但理性上告訴了我，一開始令他失望及傷心的人……是我。703Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ382hxz8OTT
即使我知道一切都已經過去了……703Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡx88oNXrlka
但是曾經的傷痕裂縫，是沒法輕易就能填補得到的。703Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ62e316f5pE
我或許已經沒有資格，在他的心裡再佔上一格。703Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQsp0yKNUr0
我更不能再在他的心裡刻上第二條傷痕……703Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVn1QxfHwgR
703Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIVw2iBhOBz
但是這刻情緒已經有一點開始湧現出來。703Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6aLg5BsPWD
然而，我都一定要假裝冷靜，不能讓他看穿我此刻的情緒。703Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡY2ASjD4Agg
於是我便深呼吸了一下，然後說：「都過咗成年啦……點會仲有感覺架……」703Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQPuKI46rtc
我說著的時候，心裡其實都一陣隱隱作痛。703Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqfoN44Wpra
703Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5kSsdBWwo8
「原先都無乜架啦，但同你相遇翻之後，個感覺即刻出翻哂嚟。」703Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdIg8cIaYZd
他回答著我。703Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVoN24aW9BI
為何你一定要說這些說話呢……703Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8w1PascL2m
703Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWgi0JwGiSN
雖然心裡很難受，但我自己弄出來的問題，就必須由我自己來解決。703Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡY6bwjFGy9k
「問題就喺呢到啦！」我立即回應他。703Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaGkW6Hy2wo
而他都很快就看著我問：「問題？」703Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3pT0JkfEbb
703Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSO2tMLRGh8
「我哋依家嘅身份仲喺前男女朋友，所以一見翻臉就自然會咩感覺都出翻哂嚟……明明大家都已經分咗手成年，但你仲喺好似move on唔到咁。」703Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ32QjsWk5CU
我都不知道自己正在亂說著甚麼……但我說完後，就立即轉身背向著他。703Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbtJzIuVliv
因為我真的開始壓抑不住心中一直不斷湧現著的情緒了……703Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlxEzLOzf3d
每當我說一句與心相反的說話，我就變得更難受了。703Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡObe0KT4eI4
703Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbnsy38f8Qz
「你咁樣講，好似講到自己已經放低咗咁。」他又回應了我。703Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzRwr9VFfk1
原來你認為我已經將你放下了嗎……703Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiIpi3uQdMI
雖然，心真的很痛，但既然已經決定了，我就必須繼續演下去。703Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmOLrXopLuK
703Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEGgJJJnO0K
「我……放低咗架啦！」我說道。703Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqXFFQJTCGU
但這時候，淚水都終於壓抑不住，從雙眼開始流下來。703Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzu2xMZIfx0
對不起……我撒謊了，但這都是為了你好。703Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpf0ZTekSG1
703Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoQ6nJmy49q
「喺啊……你放低到咪好囉……唔似我咁。」他回答我。703Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgKQiwiMLzT
拜託不要再說這些說話了……703Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeAgHicWN7j
703Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfeR2376v9h
此刻，聽完他的說話後，我的心真很痛，很痛，很痛。703Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2rHL8VXY1s
但是我還得繼續演下去……703Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTzc63gaHC8
於是我強忍著眼淚，並轉身看著他。703Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdmjRuIXo05
703Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnR142YcZio
幸好，這時旁邊的的路燈剛好因時限而熄滅了。703Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYaNCIZksYj
這麼暗的環境，他應該是看不到我的表情的……703Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIPOiYErpEA
於是我便立即向他說道：「所以我覺得點解有時我哋喺班房到會有啲尷尬就喺因為我哋身份嘅問題。」703Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ13HxU4jBhL
句子之間完全沒有停頓，因為一停頓下來，我就會又想哭了。703Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUy1OZwffQg
703Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfPVOMMlDt2
「身份嘅問題？」他問道我。703Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLlxd30VhGV
「你仲覺得我喺你前女朋友，所以有時喺交流上先會有啲尷尬……你應該好似我咁放低哂，然後就以一個新嘅身份去面對你！」703Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEldbyqZzb3
我看似很有道理地說著。703Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdcwFimf7Kn
但其實我根本就沒有放下過對他的感情。703Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8M7kdAI6Nn
703Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCIt0z0jrYH
接著，Alvin竟然沒有回應我。703Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtBz5f1PH9G
於是我都只好繼續說：「不如我哋重新嚟過，唔喺曾經嘅戀人，唔喺前男女朋友，而喺重新由朋友呢個關係再開始過。」703Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtyHJ0GPJol
本來這一句說話，是打算一開始在他回答我「已經放下了」後，就接著說的。703Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6b79qjfj9G
703Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7LNYLM9YPl
703Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡe0S51St9pS
雖然我都希望我們能從「朋友」再重新開始過。703Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgJedUkj3YU
但至少都讓我有一個藉口去先放下對你的感情吧……703Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡh82bW70qK3
現在這樣反而讓我更不想去放下對你的感情了……703Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPSBLKAeHtT
703Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuLT1CYb5zg
「你嘅意思即喺我哋做翻朋友，好似啲典型嘅分手對白咁。」他又開口說道了。703Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡk2GzXfqKj8
「咁唔好咩？你又可以放低我，而我哋又可以繼續正正常常咁交流……」703Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBKOaNU7djg
這對現在的我們來說，應該是最好的解決方法了。703Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3R1iDlERGi
703Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡP3fRPhbPsl
接著Alvin都沉默了一會，看來他都應該是在思考著這個唯一的解決方法。703Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOqooYVskMX
而很快，他都彷彿想通了一樣開口說：「好啦，我哋做翻朋友啦咁！由今日起，我哋就只喺朋友。」703Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9M1GLMIieI
703Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjBc5OcEO1g
當我聽到他說我們只是朋友時，我就知道「何鵬侑與蔡霜玥」這段關係，在這一瞬間……完結了。703Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡc6ZqUUaZ7w
雖然這本來就是我的目的，但為何當我聽到他所說後，我反而更難過……703Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡspzJWpfvxT
703Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIy7OC9QTPl
我的眼淚又開始從雙眼流下。703Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxyrAIRoewO
但現在與他這麼近的距離，他一定會看得見我臉上的淚水。703Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2hUqHMMwEc
703Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡI0F40nz7Zo
因此，我只好立即轉身，並強忍著淚水說：「好啦……時間唔早啦，你……快啲翻去買飯比家姐啦，我都要上翻去煮自己份晚餐啦！」703Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAN6furc99N
接著，我就背向著他揮手，並往前面的方向跑去。703Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcJNwyV4Mqr
我必須離開他，因為我實在不能再忍耐下去了。703Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡn0zxIJHKGq
再這樣下去，我一定會在他面前痛哭出來的……703Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXsuJl5EgnL
我不想他後悔。703Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVW9tDcDPZU
703Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYlkZM3SVFb
我跑著的時候，並沒有理會身後的Alvin是站著還是轉身離開了。703Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJ8NQsMYTh0
淚水已經不斷從雙眼滲出，而我都只能加快腳步走回家中。703Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIHE9Z14rk0
703Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrFPpn6Itll
接著，當我成功回到家，打開了門進到屋內，並閉上門的一剎那……703Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoZ1BwN4x0n
我直接跪在地上，大聲地哭起來……703Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQjpujN2X8U
對上一次，我會這樣大聲哭出來，應該是與Alvin提出分手後……703Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHle7aA5OQ2
703Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7hue48y7Op
「好痛，好痛，好痛……」我哭著的同時一直說著。703Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqvIpCdFhWD
這一刻，並沒有任何人能在我身邊能夠安慰及陪伴著我。703Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2ySvYEfnZz
而我都只能一直痛哭著，直到淚水流乾涸為止……703Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuJbPo3Y3OC
703Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡs1qGjJdwGx
對不起，何鵬侑，是我親手摧毀了我們這一段感情的。703Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRvwfdhYWwz
過去你所認識的蔡霜玥，將不再存在。703Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0zOlRsnKv3
而接下來的蔡霜玥，都只會與你以「朋友」的身份繼續相處。703Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxJ2Db9kQt3
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