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486Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡODbcP4beSX
某一天，在午息時段，Ivy悶悶不樂地來到學校的庭園。486Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvjAYwx4G2c
找了一個寧靜的角落，獨自一人坐下，不禁嘆息起來。486Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡef0iJQGSCY
486Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJbsCRO1uBw
原來在剛才午飯時間，Ivy又一次鼓起勇氣邀約Alvin一同吃午飯。486Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfmwi3AEo81
可是早就習慣了與其他男生一同外出用膳的Alvin。486Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmqBAdlKhlO
並且升上中學後，根本就沒有被女生邀約吃飯。486Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡM4a0yOHtXU
因此Ivy突如其來邀約，再加上當時朋友們的催促，Alvin也只好當下拒絕了她的邀請。486Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmwNDRYtcpM
486Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡS8vX4nSiP5
被喜歡的人拒絕邀約，除了感到可惜及失望之外，就根本甚麼都做不到。486Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfbFNo3VVsw
Ivy曾經嘗試融入對方的生活圈子之中，卻永遠都只是停留在表面上的融入。486Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXIhWOw7L5B
至今，她與Alvin仍然是維持在每天上學見面時談上兩三句話的局面。486Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaDxXCzuNle
即使放學後，她與Alvin透過WhatsApp聊天的次數，也少之又少。486Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3c6SaNZG0u
486Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaOy7bAUmWe
「Alvin都好似唔多理我咁……莫非真喺要好似Laura咁講，直接同佢講我鍾意佢……」486Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡig6rNHeRnV
這時，在Ivy的腦海中也閃現出前陣子Laura的一句說話。486Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGY4cHSv2VO
那句叫她向喜歡的人坦承的說話。486Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVVJMyXwbyd
可是對於性格偏向內向的Ivy來說，要與喜歡的人坦白，可是一件難若登天的事情。486Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbIneERojzY
單是起初鼓起勇氣向Alvin進一步搭訕，她其實也在心裡掙扎了好幾天。486Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeSAqSDfT0I
486Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmrk90Q2WGN
「你鍾意Alvin啊？」486Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0PrSoHz76Q
突然有一把男聲從Ivy的後方傳來。486Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3KRjMy32eD
使得她馬上驚慌失色起來，並隨即轉過身來，查看聲音的主人。486Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKSCZ3kUpUn
「Dan……？點解你會嚟庭園嘅？」486Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgyIQFpLFEq
在確認是同班的同學後，Ivy也接著好奇地問道。486Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2KVINJPiLZ
畢竟，學校的庭園平常根本不會有人到訪。486Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtHkdtxvZ0r
486Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHO8NKhTrJ6
「食飽飯無嘢做，咪嚟行過圈囉……但竟然比我八卦到啲嘢啊，呵呵。」486Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzLPpsSn96z
Dan在說著的同時，奸笑起來，然後就盯著Ivy，等待對方辯解。486Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWzdPZwcdoh
「你唔好講出啊！我求你！」Ivy當然是立即雙手合十，不斷向Dan請求著。486Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSUbAZObG42
486Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0fgpLIU6gB
接著，Dan也抓一抓自己的頭髮，一臉沾沾自喜地說：486Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTqBd4ZtFFI
「乜我似啲會將人哋秘密亂咁爆出去嘅人咩？」486Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnGjNNu1h9m
Ivy思考了一會Dan的這句話，然後就搖頭說：「咁又唔似……」486Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡV43x1Seu4k
486Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgOX479xtVG
「鍾意咗人幾耐啊？」Dan隨即問道，看來是打算再八卦一下Ivy的事情。486Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuKUpWldAIk
Ivy頓時也面紅耳赤起來，並不斷捏住自己的校裙。486Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxWUUuAyx5U
而在一番內心掙扎後，她也小小聲地說：「大概三個月啦……」486Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAaXYJBUkAD
486Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWyzV1OJNK8
Dan馬上「哇」了一聲，但很快又一臉認真地摸著下巴說：486Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaem1nzXhNa
「唔怪得近排見你同Alvin多咗嘢講啦……不過睇嚟你都好似有嘢煩惱緊？」486Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOuGCpdhtph
在對方的引導下，Ivy也開始向Dan說起了一切的由來。486Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyQsvBIgojM
由一開始對Alvin產生興趣，然後就是好感，最後就是喜歡了對方。486Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhsEYoRRTY6
不過卻一直未能向對方表達心意。486Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcsTghXmaSp
486Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡu5YtybPSCJ
Dan聆聽完Ivy一番經歷後，隨即也露出一個恍然大悟的樣子。486Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDDhGb8VPBz
「哦，所以啱啱先見你唉聲嘆氣咁坐喺到。」486Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ32ZIzcu3Um
Ivy沒有說話，只是默默地點著頭。486Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4pZwai3bs4
於是Dan見況也繼續說：「都明你點解咁沮喪嘅，明明鍾意人，但又無勇氣同對方講，想接近人，但喺又無從入手，令到自己卡咗喺個尷尬位。」486Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1f6022mRBa
聽到Dan「一針見血」的總結後，Ivy也馬上再次嘆息起來。486Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCmKBblpPrH
然後一臉沒精打采地看著Dan，並用低沉的聲音說：「聽嚟我都喺無機架啦……」486Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWV7xdvshLV
486Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6Swj2rhN7j
「唔好灰啦！不如我幫你探下Alvin口風啦！知佢點諗你都一件好事啊！」486Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2sQbgDAOCW
Dan見到Ivy一臉死氣沉沉地樣子，馬上轉用一個輕快的口吻說著，希望從而令Ivy振作一點。486Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOGD8lUNZWS
而Ivy聽到了Dan的建議後，馬上想起了先前Laura的一句：「唔試過又點知得唔得呢？」486Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVF6NRAxsnM
隨即也重燃心中的希望之火，一邊點頭一邊把一切都託付到Dan手上……486Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMBQuQhzu1V
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486Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPfmTp3ElJu
數天後，Dan看準了放學時Alvin獨自離開課室的時機。486Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVGPemMrHy9
馬上裝作想與Alvin一同放學而上前與他搭訕。486Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3OY1I6NKLg
「Alvin，不如今日一齊走啊！」486Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZ4UBWeO693
「少有喎，你今日唔喺同Francis一齊走。」486Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJIsG9fqG37
「因為……Francis比人罰留堂啊！」486Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBtdSedo5af
但此刻Francis其實是在班房裡與其他男生共同挑戰著手機遊戲中的關卡……486Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7fEbJwIfi1
486Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡk8QH3PQVld
接著，Dan與Alvin二人一邊聊著一邊下樓梯。486Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMyxBkZm4Ik
聊起兩三句後，Dan也開門見山問道：「Alvin，你喺2E有無鍾意嘅人啊？」486Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoFKLVQmEZj
隨即二人也站在了原地。486Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0ljjtTRpsd
而此時，Ivy也剛好走到了樓梯的轉角處，聆聽到了Alvin接下的回答。486Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ46Lg3oVmLa
「無喎。」Alvin的這一個回答，簡單而直接。486Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiGyVPRHUWt
不過卻同時使Dan愣住了，而偷聽著的Ivy更感到失望起來。486Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6ExWbgDe25
看來她的幻想，都確實只是幻想。486Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbsGtzlNjO3
並如同泡沫一樣，在一瞬間破掉化為無物。486Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHCvzHo4cCm
486Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwiGOVMYyjv
「真喺無鍾意嘅人？」Dan再問道，並語氣變得質疑起來。486Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2by3tFJTGC
不過Alvin仍然迅速而堅定地回答同樣的答案：「真喺無。」486Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3DPHEMddqp
486Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDh5j8RrxPS
這使得Dan不禁倒抽了一口氣。486Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOrYPS9onqj
不過機智的他，也很快就想到第二條問題：「咁班入面有無邊個女仔吸引到你啊？」486Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpKmJquEbOh
Alvin思考了一會，然後答：「嗯……無喎……」486Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFwdM3jBiFR
雖然答案一樣，但是這一次Alvin的回答，卻從中感覺到一絲猶如。486Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOga6kuHos7
於是Dan也捉住了這份遲疑，再問：「真喺無？你諗真啲……例如Ivy呢？」486Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLvgDDnnEC4
486Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡE5Mzc8Dzr0
在轉角處的Ivy聽到了自己的名字後，也意會到Dan終於把與Alvin的對話引導到自己身上。486Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAAEg5xLryK
她隨即地把雙手放到胸口上，希望能藉此壓抑住活蹦亂跳的心。486Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhfmsnjxrF3
因為對於接下來Alvin的回答，她確實感到額外的緊張起來。486Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡV5zo5oyzh0
可是，她接著聽到答案是……486Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJCNR3u7HrG
「Ivy啊……無咩特別感覺喎，咪普通同學咁。」486Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgA4mvGRAQz
486Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6QnkkvPGTP
聽到Alvin的回答，Ivy頓時如同石化了一樣，目瞪口呆地站在原地。486Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4W9EbsYzhW
連此刻站在Alvin對面的Dan也瞬間感到愕然起來。486Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpzNmP5GfKK
或許他自己也猜想不到，這就是Alvin的答案。486Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGyTEygOZEr
不過，感到有點不知所揩的Dan，也靈機一動，立即再問：486Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡf2LEo12TlK
「如果Ivy喺鍾意你呢？」486Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpFr8kAojg6
他選擇不再轉彎抹角，而是斬釘截鐵地道出了Ivy的心意。486Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡP7QEi0T8Nu
但其實他都猜想不到，原來Ivy一直偷聽著。486Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡn8gdkniVyX
486Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQ4JnPPSLYy
然而，Alvin隨即也皺起眉頭說：「就算佢鍾意我，都唔代表我要鍾意佢。感情呢啲嘢講feel架嘛，如果要迎合佢嘅心意，而勉強自己，我做唔到。」486Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKK92VUh6LT
486Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfeUUWcu4FH
正當Alvin說完這句話後，他們的上方也突然傳來了一聲急促的腳步聲。486Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnafZMpqkgI
於是Alvin好奇地探頭瞄了一眼上方，並發現沒有人。486Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡs3zxwmOER0
接著也扭過頭來繼續與Dan談論剛剛的話題。486Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡP1dJAIwydC
然而，他並不知道，剛才腳步聲的主人，正是Ivy。486Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJtJc06wzci
486Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvXk5ggyNdR
而與此同時，Ivy也已經淚流滿面，走到了學校的某處。486Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlMuCMug5VK
孤單一人坐在角落，蜷縮著身體，雙臂抱住雙膝，痛哭起來。486Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDzxxDUzZ88
她的哭聲，無比悲哀及淒慘，如同心被刀割一樣。486Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKI10gjzS9w
看來這份傷痛，將永遠刻印在她的心中，成為一條永遠無法修補的疤痕。486Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdkAuF3oI7X
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486Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡY5g4fLjEVX
「就算佢鍾意我，都唔代表我要鍾意佢」486Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDJifj1mU1A
直至深夜時，Ivy再次因為回想起Alvin的這一句話，而驚醒過來。486Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXt0l5UmEAx
她隨即慢慢地離開了床，並坐在一旁的梳妝桌。486Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡluDFQrRWpt
然後，打開了桌燈，看著鏡中雙眼通紅、神情疲倦的自己。486Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhUQY6ms7KA
486Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjI2rerqU2q
接著再回想起Alvin的說話，以及這三個月來自己的所做一切。486Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQn7qgYga7j
她不禁冷笑起來，隨後打開桌上文具盒，拿出了一把美術刀。486Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡA6xbFdSB5H
伸出冰冷的刀鋒，對著自己的手臀……486Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1xIkHtlI1d
「嚓—」486Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuIdsLxpP2x
486Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ84AtLoNr8i
486Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmqGtJwbZNv
「懷著多大的期望，就會迎來同等的失望，甚至最終帶來更深的絕望」486Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpsolditZVo
486Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHU25o1cBgq
486Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMgYF7GnYAw
作者在此鄭重聲明：486Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1wkBeDqCe0
𠝹手只是劇情的一部份，並且是虛構情節。486Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCySK9ODVRJ
讀者們請潔身自愛，切勿嘗試！！！486Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ00LfZyDGKW
無論遇上多麼不如意的事情，都切勿做出任何試圖傷害身體的行為。486Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfLi8aSQbeO
若發現事情未如理想，無法獨力承受，請向身邊的人如父母及師長尋求協助。486Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjh0FaIPYkK
切勿將傷害身體來發洩情緒一事合理化，請各位潔身自愛。486Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1Jd5atQLia
愛人前先要懂得愛錫自己。486Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgKwLYfoQdY
486Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlki6ygKs30
作者閒聊：486Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTPR6dZmvZ1
過去阿侑的一句：「就算佢鍾意我，都唔代表我要鍾意佢。感情呢啲嘢講feel架嘛，如果要迎合佢嘅心意，而勉強自己，我做唔到。」486Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2Z3A4iR15c
完全是在打著現在自己的臉……486Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5XLpR6kBh8
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