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某一天，在午息時段，Ivy悶悶不樂地來到學校的庭園。507Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡv7Ul9SyLB9
找了一個寧靜的角落，獨自一人坐下，不禁嘆息起來。507Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡi5TMzbfFZX
507Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxVLUy1KDMx
原來在剛才午飯時間，Ivy又一次鼓起勇氣邀約Alvin一同吃午飯。507Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7glNNE8CwB
可是早就習慣了與其他男生一同外出用膳的Alvin。507Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDtUwLYXuwL
並且升上中學後，根本就沒有被女生邀約吃飯。507Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrUony79Ibx
因此Ivy突如其來邀約，再加上當時朋友們的催促，Alvin也只好當下拒絕了她的邀請。507Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡH9Q535h3a2
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被喜歡的人拒絕邀約，除了感到可惜及失望之外，就根本甚麼都做不到。507Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQEajf1IapN
Ivy曾經嘗試融入對方的生活圈子之中，卻永遠都只是停留在表面上的融入。507Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmZZGVmxkcw
至今，她與Alvin仍然是維持在每天上學見面時談上兩三句話的局面。507Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHrdcvVyxBj
即使放學後，她與Alvin透過WhatsApp聊天的次數，也少之又少。507Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrupqz9uNrT
507Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ31bknireS4
「Alvin都好似唔多理我咁……莫非真喺要好似Laura咁講，直接同佢講我鍾意佢……」507Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXbzGAJOEk2
這時，在Ivy的腦海中也閃現出前陣子Laura的一句說話。507Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡutKDU4mZJH
那句叫她向喜歡的人坦承的說話。507Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaCBSOiZ0Ok
可是對於性格偏向內向的Ivy來說，要與喜歡的人坦白，可是一件難若登天的事情。507Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6K3Ib2WlJq
單是起初鼓起勇氣向Alvin進一步搭訕，她其實也在心裡掙扎了好幾天。507Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvFaC93CzD4
507Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHDGXrMD3eM
「你鍾意Alvin啊？」507Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxk2iBCtBud
突然有一把男聲從Ivy的後方傳來。507Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLAv1q4dWjV
使得她馬上驚慌失色起來，並隨即轉過身來，查看聲音的主人。507Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQsbf9K9Ms0
「Dan……？點解你會嚟庭園嘅？」507Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAcFEDnRnYp
在確認是同班的同學後，Ivy也接著好奇地問道。507Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrbdquX7ON8
畢竟，學校的庭園平常根本不會有人到訪。507Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡINNUbHxkNI
507Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJbfCHsYeQx
「食飽飯無嘢做，咪嚟行過圈囉……但竟然比我八卦到啲嘢啊，呵呵。」507Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6ryZmox6UB
Dan在說著的同時，奸笑起來，然後就盯著Ivy，等待對方辯解。507Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyoAaORLOYl
「你唔好講出啊！我求你！」Ivy當然是立即雙手合十，不斷向Dan請求著。507Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgdiMtw89SD
507Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5M5nq2FQGz
接著，Dan也抓一抓自己的頭髮，一臉沾沾自喜地說：507Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3o378oQLQz
「乜我似啲會將人哋秘密亂咁爆出去嘅人咩？」507Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTzikSQi2wk
Ivy思考了一會Dan的這句話，然後就搖頭說：「咁又唔似……」507Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3eAmVb5ozD
507Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTe45Q4CdxB
「鍾意咗人幾耐啊？」Dan隨即問道，看來是打算再八卦一下Ivy的事情。507Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4csGgZTv6W
Ivy頓時也面紅耳赤起來，並不斷捏住自己的校裙。507Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡu5ssPnIkkt
而在一番內心掙扎後，她也小小聲地說：「大概三個月啦……」507Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJ2Vo8muAuJ
507Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6vw3fx2s0d
Dan馬上「哇」了一聲，但很快又一臉認真地摸著下巴說：507Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ63RDmdEexX
「唔怪得近排見你同Alvin多咗嘢講啦……不過睇嚟你都好似有嘢煩惱緊？」507Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAQ1qSTP0h2
在對方的引導下，Ivy也開始向Dan說起了一切的由來。507Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlpLUSBbl1W
由一開始對Alvin產生興趣，然後就是好感，最後就是喜歡了對方。507Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIO8Q140u3p
不過卻一直未能向對方表達心意。507Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXl7yDlmhw6
507Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzxAYG1abFw
Dan聆聽完Ivy一番經歷後，隨即也露出一個恍然大悟的樣子。507Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlfZAtGuOMw
「哦，所以啱啱先見你唉聲嘆氣咁坐喺到。」507Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡijyje9phGJ
Ivy沒有說話，只是默默地點著頭。507Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTOvdFnPDgY
於是Dan見況也繼續說：「都明你點解咁沮喪嘅，明明鍾意人，但又無勇氣同對方講，想接近人，但喺又無從入手，令到自己卡咗喺個尷尬位。」507Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQE23VZ9jcq
聽到Dan「一針見血」的總結後，Ivy也馬上再次嘆息起來。507Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5XzH7Xlooy
然後一臉沒精打采地看著Dan，並用低沉的聲音說：「聽嚟我都喺無機架啦……」507Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9gNZRt8xmm
507Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnN80e2gQ7X
「唔好灰啦！不如我幫你探下Alvin口風啦！知佢點諗你都一件好事啊！」507Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPpztuxoDKd
Dan見到Ivy一臉死氣沉沉地樣子，馬上轉用一個輕快的口吻說著，希望從而令Ivy振作一點。507Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGwDRalNEQa
而Ivy聽到了Dan的建議後，馬上想起了先前Laura的一句：「唔試過又點知得唔得呢？」507Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡesFXu3e0dE
隨即也重燃心中的希望之火，一邊點頭一邊把一切都託付到Dan手上……507Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaCRg0SpEp6
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數天後，Dan看準了放學時Alvin獨自離開課室的時機。507Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1YRvjiBiAO
馬上裝作想與Alvin一同放學而上前與他搭訕。507Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcLKxToXqPb
「Alvin，不如今日一齊走啊！」507Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ73T9E5FrE3
「少有喎，你今日唔喺同Francis一齊走。」507Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡL1KSrT9fZJ
「因為……Francis比人罰留堂啊！」507Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwrl8C61hGZ
但此刻Francis其實是在班房裡與其他男生共同挑戰著手機遊戲中的關卡……507Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHuqdiIcBRe
507Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxlpYN2GGeY
接著，Dan與Alvin二人一邊聊著一邊下樓梯。507Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBQWU4KEaJY
聊起兩三句後，Dan也開門見山問道：「Alvin，你喺2E有無鍾意嘅人啊？」507Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvVNAIzOWK0
隨即二人也站在了原地。507Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAhhdNoICU8
而此時，Ivy也剛好走到了樓梯的轉角處，聆聽到了Alvin接下的回答。507Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1aQzL6CFGG
「無喎。」Alvin的這一個回答，簡單而直接。507Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡR0X6E1ujCV
不過卻同時使Dan愣住了，而偷聽著的Ivy更感到失望起來。507Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHEDS3XDKGf
看來她的幻想，都確實只是幻想。507Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMdu2eztKWF
並如同泡沫一樣，在一瞬間破掉化為無物。507Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKQJFi3YV7Y
507Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVtiVwL8v2c
「真喺無鍾意嘅人？」Dan再問道，並語氣變得質疑起來。507Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡv07CM1onJS
不過Alvin仍然迅速而堅定地回答同樣的答案：「真喺無。」507Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQzGZNShGid
507Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsTzgimFy9z
這使得Dan不禁倒抽了一口氣。507Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJOW9WXwljj
不過機智的他，也很快就想到第二條問題：「咁班入面有無邊個女仔吸引到你啊？」507Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡovU8w2U1te
Alvin思考了一會，然後答：「嗯……無喎……」507Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnUu31za0S3
雖然答案一樣，但是這一次Alvin的回答，卻從中感覺到一絲猶如。507Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAoeOcUiTQ0
於是Dan也捉住了這份遲疑，再問：「真喺無？你諗真啲……例如Ivy呢？」507Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOtseGr8Jp9
507Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlb89yD5XEU
在轉角處的Ivy聽到了自己的名字後，也意會到Dan終於把與Alvin的對話引導到自己身上。507Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAe2QJpsvGs
她隨即地把雙手放到胸口上，希望能藉此壓抑住活蹦亂跳的心。507Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbNr4dQGubJ
因為對於接下來Alvin的回答，她確實感到額外的緊張起來。507Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡo6nO6GVKFA
可是，她接著聽到答案是……507Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡe9olec8LQn
「Ivy啊……無咩特別感覺喎，咪普通同學咁。」507Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡowIXzv5EVl
507Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXkX4zmoBmf
聽到Alvin的回答，Ivy頓時如同石化了一樣，目瞪口呆地站在原地。507Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzq0dJwPZEH
連此刻站在Alvin對面的Dan也瞬間感到愕然起來。507Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3767DwlqrZ
或許他自己也猜想不到，這就是Alvin的答案。507Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfhb6Yd0tgE
不過，感到有點不知所揩的Dan，也靈機一動，立即再問：507Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzzlpqbJqB9
「如果Ivy喺鍾意你呢？」507Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZEmk2Unefq
他選擇不再轉彎抹角，而是斬釘截鐵地道出了Ivy的心意。507Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEFoHlhwxpq
但其實他都猜想不到，原來Ivy一直偷聽著。507Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9byY6Q34Tx
507Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRjM7uja43P
然而，Alvin隨即也皺起眉頭說：「就算佢鍾意我，都唔代表我要鍾意佢。感情呢啲嘢講feel架嘛，如果要迎合佢嘅心意，而勉強自己，我做唔到。」507Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9aYjGAtojs
507Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuKiV6rP4Kj
正當Alvin說完這句話後，他們的上方也突然傳來了一聲急促的腳步聲。507Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxKg7MxLJUk
於是Alvin好奇地探頭瞄了一眼上方，並發現沒有人。507Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAAHDzoJcRQ
接著也扭過頭來繼續與Dan談論剛剛的話題。507Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwEQJi1GSbH
然而，他並不知道，剛才腳步聲的主人，正是Ivy。507Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡU2wzpEc3JL
507Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwhOMJNvfTf
而與此同時，Ivy也已經淚流滿面，走到了學校的某處。507Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTjocs5whb4
孤單一人坐在角落，蜷縮著身體，雙臂抱住雙膝，痛哭起來。507Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHMRSxuhY2D
她的哭聲，無比悲哀及淒慘，如同心被刀割一樣。507Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9dmhhWQzbu
看來這份傷痛，將永遠刻印在她的心中，成為一條永遠無法修補的疤痕。507Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjrCuYdgB3e
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「就算佢鍾意我，都唔代表我要鍾意佢」507Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrKy9O5j8W9
直至深夜時，Ivy再次因為回想起Alvin的這一句話，而驚醒過來。507Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡj7M3RWjAyg
她隨即慢慢地離開了床，並坐在一旁的梳妝桌。507Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9NbwNUAie1
然後，打開了桌燈，看著鏡中雙眼通紅、神情疲倦的自己。507Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbOMBpI2VPF
507Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ91SWUdZXqL
接著再回想起Alvin的說話，以及這三個月來自己的所做一切。507Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0BQhLgldUq
她不禁冷笑起來，隨後打開桌上文具盒，拿出了一把美術刀。507Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJl1qgb8CVy
伸出冰冷的刀鋒，對著自己的手臀……507Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡx57mih8mfH
「嚓—」507Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhaCjFYmlwY
507Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYW9w9Ql5se
507Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDFGYfr0gNv
「懷著多大的期望，就會迎來同等的失望，甚至最終帶來更深的絕望」507Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwifqEdL46k
507Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIydKwXMXtQ
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作者在此鄭重聲明：507Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSx6u7HVgB8
𠝹手只是劇情的一部份，並且是虛構情節。507Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqIKDlpEpjL
讀者們請潔身自愛，切勿嘗試！！！507Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjEvKEbNSnE
無論遇上多麼不如意的事情，都切勿做出任何試圖傷害身體的行為。507Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcNrDKDBGfu
若發現事情未如理想，無法獨力承受，請向身邊的人如父母及師長尋求協助。507Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnttCxzTSG7
切勿將傷害身體來發洩情緒一事合理化，請各位潔身自愛。507Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSo3jpLFsWN
愛人前先要懂得愛錫自己。507Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXgdjPFonKg
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作者閒聊：507Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNM0X96UnEH
過去阿侑的一句：「就算佢鍾意我，都唔代表我要鍾意佢。感情呢啲嘢講feel架嘛，如果要迎合佢嘅心意，而勉強自己，我做唔到。」507Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOq9QNQzUUO
完全是在打著現在自己的臉……507Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnjq7MSkHGo
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