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某一天，在午息時段，Ivy悶悶不樂地來到學校的庭園。526Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnCV3ZRcxNq
找了一個寧靜的角落，獨自一人坐下，不禁嘆息起來。526Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJ8zmePrdVr
526Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwE8ZHMErQJ
原來在剛才午飯時間，Ivy又一次鼓起勇氣邀約Alvin一同吃午飯。526Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnEQXT9zoST
可是早就習慣了與其他男生一同外出用膳的Alvin。526Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuCSXr75uh3
並且升上中學後，根本就沒有被女生邀約吃飯。526Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKJrgv6FyOi
因此Ivy突如其來邀約，再加上當時朋友們的催促，Alvin也只好當下拒絕了她的邀請。526Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxtvUOBnBPv
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被喜歡的人拒絕邀約，除了感到可惜及失望之外，就根本甚麼都做不到。526Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXyUCeOkVEu
Ivy曾經嘗試融入對方的生活圈子之中，卻永遠都只是停留在表面上的融入。526Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjjRNpo83vL
至今，她與Alvin仍然是維持在每天上學見面時談上兩三句話的局面。526Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkl9RFICpl0
即使放學後，她與Alvin透過WhatsApp聊天的次數，也少之又少。526Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjwB57gasdF
526Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxboqUCtQBf
「Alvin都好似唔多理我咁……莫非真喺要好似Laura咁講，直接同佢講我鍾意佢……」526Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgUERj9YKtY
這時，在Ivy的腦海中也閃現出前陣子Laura的一句說話。526Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBAhFCfbILo
那句叫她向喜歡的人坦承的說話。526Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfNYECQTc9D
可是對於性格偏向內向的Ivy來說，要與喜歡的人坦白，可是一件難若登天的事情。526Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxROBnwE0NY
單是起初鼓起勇氣向Alvin進一步搭訕，她其實也在心裡掙扎了好幾天。526Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrZhyxp5lkT
526Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡePLEpfi4U0
「你鍾意Alvin啊？」526Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡh1QxTTjPf2
突然有一把男聲從Ivy的後方傳來。526Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuesf0rehOc
使得她馬上驚慌失色起來，並隨即轉過身來，查看聲音的主人。526Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHsTBptAaiW
「Dan……？點解你會嚟庭園嘅？」526Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡorGj30FnWp
在確認是同班的同學後，Ivy也接著好奇地問道。526Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsbWG4oGszt
畢竟，學校的庭園平常根本不會有人到訪。526Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuLHQS7IrXj
526Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ53J8s7PHpG
「食飽飯無嘢做，咪嚟行過圈囉……但竟然比我八卦到啲嘢啊，呵呵。」526Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaRUkVYkwE3
Dan在說著的同時，奸笑起來，然後就盯著Ivy，等待對方辯解。526Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2MW33OLFV2
「你唔好講出啊！我求你！」Ivy當然是立即雙手合十，不斷向Dan請求著。526Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmhwpfNrSMi
526Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQ13KdFIqk6
接著，Dan也抓一抓自己的頭髮，一臉沾沾自喜地說：526Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrNZJYZvAjy
「乜我似啲會將人哋秘密亂咁爆出去嘅人咩？」526Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7KxGqN1vBd
Ivy思考了一會Dan的這句話，然後就搖頭說：「咁又唔似……」526Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUoGcePteW4
526Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8PDLcKnxfr
「鍾意咗人幾耐啊？」Dan隨即問道，看來是打算再八卦一下Ivy的事情。526Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJXlLqlHQPK
Ivy頓時也面紅耳赤起來，並不斷捏住自己的校裙。526Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡB1nrIdjfbX
而在一番內心掙扎後，她也小小聲地說：「大概三個月啦……」526Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡn9890Cp0Ur
526Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbvauhVXJMg
Dan馬上「哇」了一聲，但很快又一臉認真地摸著下巴說：526Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBsGjiOrqUR
「唔怪得近排見你同Alvin多咗嘢講啦……不過睇嚟你都好似有嘢煩惱緊？」526Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡM4d4zNt0rG
在對方的引導下，Ivy也開始向Dan說起了一切的由來。526Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8FWtoUPS7S
由一開始對Alvin產生興趣，然後就是好感，最後就是喜歡了對方。526Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnWyNR5PmzA
不過卻一直未能向對方表達心意。526Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0LFiEIJQaH
526Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5JjFmVtRfJ
Dan聆聽完Ivy一番經歷後，隨即也露出一個恍然大悟的樣子。526Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwySdkqpBrs
「哦，所以啱啱先見你唉聲嘆氣咁坐喺到。」526Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJGvRTVyR9m
Ivy沒有說話，只是默默地點著頭。526Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFYJEzVcMi6
於是Dan見況也繼續說：「都明你點解咁沮喪嘅，明明鍾意人，但又無勇氣同對方講，想接近人，但喺又無從入手，令到自己卡咗喺個尷尬位。」526Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJnJbRPtkPp
聽到Dan「一針見血」的總結後，Ivy也馬上再次嘆息起來。526Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxIMux8FpSk
然後一臉沒精打采地看著Dan，並用低沉的聲音說：「聽嚟我都喺無機架啦……」526Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡp4gCwIg3Bz
526Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOdzD3GazFL
「唔好灰啦！不如我幫你探下Alvin口風啦！知佢點諗你都一件好事啊！」526Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3JDgbVRx4u
Dan見到Ivy一臉死氣沉沉地樣子，馬上轉用一個輕快的口吻說著，希望從而令Ivy振作一點。526Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLH1ixf1WYL
而Ivy聽到了Dan的建議後，馬上想起了先前Laura的一句：「唔試過又點知得唔得呢？」526Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtlzACyCByO
隨即也重燃心中的希望之火，一邊點頭一邊把一切都託付到Dan手上……526Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡy2CF11bNCa
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數天後，Dan看準了放學時Alvin獨自離開課室的時機。526Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLC7CVec217
馬上裝作想與Alvin一同放學而上前與他搭訕。526Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEGGu0xjgSD
「Alvin，不如今日一齊走啊！」526Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡodh9ouJp2K
「少有喎，你今日唔喺同Francis一齊走。」526Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnCPH8CGu9I
「因為……Francis比人罰留堂啊！」526Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0A6qHla6Py
但此刻Francis其實是在班房裡與其他男生共同挑戰著手機遊戲中的關卡……526Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsHjbfbHlq0
526Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJENAXqrBI1
接著，Dan與Alvin二人一邊聊著一邊下樓梯。526Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡR3LDZ47xWD
聊起兩三句後，Dan也開門見山問道：「Alvin，你喺2E有無鍾意嘅人啊？」526Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡV0JE8GSBka
隨即二人也站在了原地。526Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwVIGGSw9YG
而此時，Ivy也剛好走到了樓梯的轉角處，聆聽到了Alvin接下的回答。526Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbSkr0M4FKh
「無喎。」Alvin的這一個回答，簡單而直接。526Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡM2V9Dkwebs
不過卻同時使Dan愣住了，而偷聽著的Ivy更感到失望起來。526Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgOy9HCWC0P
看來她的幻想，都確實只是幻想。526Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjcqem6mT4x
並如同泡沫一樣，在一瞬間破掉化為無物。526Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡT6t8eutDhW
526Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzp8U2FiSrv
「真喺無鍾意嘅人？」Dan再問道，並語氣變得質疑起來。526Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCLeNyGwgb4
不過Alvin仍然迅速而堅定地回答同樣的答案：「真喺無。」526Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlyoqfjQUKI
526Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWT4bKuam4H
這使得Dan不禁倒抽了一口氣。526Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsgqLU8gOS6
不過機智的他，也很快就想到第二條問題：「咁班入面有無邊個女仔吸引到你啊？」526Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXSdBvAPcdy
Alvin思考了一會，然後答：「嗯……無喎……」526Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ50xJsC8BhR
雖然答案一樣，但是這一次Alvin的回答，卻從中感覺到一絲猶如。526Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJx5kjXJNmW
於是Dan也捉住了這份遲疑，再問：「真喺無？你諗真啲……例如Ivy呢？」526Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrMiN2N2Ckd
526Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkOcr0Wtf94
在轉角處的Ivy聽到了自己的名字後，也意會到Dan終於把與Alvin的對話引導到自己身上。526Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgqNjJPG0mG
她隨即地把雙手放到胸口上，希望能藉此壓抑住活蹦亂跳的心。526Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6qzqkXbBhp
因為對於接下來Alvin的回答，她確實感到額外的緊張起來。526Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfpMm8wK4Wp
可是，她接著聽到答案是……526Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8plcbJeSbD
「Ivy啊……無咩特別感覺喎，咪普通同學咁。」526Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuX1RvfZ0tO
526Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDNNSQf8AYZ
聽到Alvin的回答，Ivy頓時如同石化了一樣，目瞪口呆地站在原地。526Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYAdZU6bC3y
連此刻站在Alvin對面的Dan也瞬間感到愕然起來。526Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2QidXWGOYg
或許他自己也猜想不到，這就是Alvin的答案。526Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrKe1h4gprm
不過，感到有點不知所揩的Dan，也靈機一動，立即再問：526Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCm7LsSLtvY
「如果Ivy喺鍾意你呢？」526Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkVKY4uqHvf
他選擇不再轉彎抹角，而是斬釘截鐵地道出了Ivy的心意。526Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHAv6gAmx2x
但其實他都猜想不到，原來Ivy一直偷聽著。526Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyKmIQ8EMoE
526Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMExCnuuNYc
然而，Alvin隨即也皺起眉頭說：「就算佢鍾意我，都唔代表我要鍾意佢。感情呢啲嘢講feel架嘛，如果要迎合佢嘅心意，而勉強自己，我做唔到。」526Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyM2K7c6TTf
526Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡl582UzPuoe
正當Alvin說完這句話後，他們的上方也突然傳來了一聲急促的腳步聲。526Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1yj93dYBzO
於是Alvin好奇地探頭瞄了一眼上方，並發現沒有人。526Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrx00tuQEjB
接著也扭過頭來繼續與Dan談論剛剛的話題。526Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ32QU0F8l81
然而，他並不知道，剛才腳步聲的主人，正是Ivy。526Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8LfZjQ6TFQ
526Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6kG2oXhP3H
而與此同時，Ivy也已經淚流滿面，走到了學校的某處。526Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5hahA7cOKH
孤單一人坐在角落，蜷縮著身體，雙臂抱住雙膝，痛哭起來。526Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTxHmPqYpAS
她的哭聲，無比悲哀及淒慘，如同心被刀割一樣。526Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5ixN7mnGjw
看來這份傷痛，將永遠刻印在她的心中，成為一條永遠無法修補的疤痕。526Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGKZow0bFoB
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「就算佢鍾意我，都唔代表我要鍾意佢」526Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhwHRLVdsDt
直至深夜時，Ivy再次因為回想起Alvin的這一句話，而驚醒過來。526Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaKAAzB1QID
她隨即慢慢地離開了床，並坐在一旁的梳妝桌。526Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡppaP0qWp2x
然後，打開了桌燈，看著鏡中雙眼通紅、神情疲倦的自己。526Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmav39D2qfL
526Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdfqOuzuRjH
接著再回想起Alvin的說話，以及這三個月來自己的所做一切。526Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlKyIe4asAX
她不禁冷笑起來，隨後打開桌上文具盒，拿出了一把美術刀。526Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3qDbwU8ScH
伸出冰冷的刀鋒，對著自己的手臀……526Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwHxCaEFyMc
「嚓—」526Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUSyv4w1vAo
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526Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvKp9VTkSlI
「懷著多大的期望，就會迎來同等的失望，甚至最終帶來更深的絕望」526Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnYlJ5t6rRd
526Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdZFQE8rWAW
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作者在此鄭重聲明：526Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEz2r5yp12X
𠝹手只是劇情的一部份，並且是虛構情節。526Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXE1ARG5fX4
讀者們請潔身自愛，切勿嘗試！！！526Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnZQQJfUapN
無論遇上多麼不如意的事情，都切勿做出任何試圖傷害身體的行為。526Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgVx8bZbPGk
若發現事情未如理想，無法獨力承受，請向身邊的人如父母及師長尋求協助。526Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1eWTySw4iy
切勿將傷害身體來發洩情緒一事合理化，請各位潔身自愛。526Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVYmcgPBjnz
愛人前先要懂得愛錫自己。526Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJe7Qz0KwGg
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作者閒聊：526Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ43oSTv2qet
過去阿侑的一句：「就算佢鍾意我，都唔代表我要鍾意佢。感情呢啲嘢講feel架嘛，如果要迎合佢嘅心意，而勉強自己，我做唔到。」526Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0IXlnEsZBo
完全是在打著現在自己的臉……526Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡP7PxKK4lCh
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