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某一天，在午息時段，Ivy悶悶不樂地來到學校的庭園。450Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJmkLZMfFrJ
找了一個寧靜的角落，獨自一人坐下，不禁嘆息起來。450Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNuHK2fy6Er
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原來在剛才午飯時間，Ivy又一次鼓起勇氣邀約Alvin一同吃午飯。450Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9saDuU3uA5
可是早就習慣了與其他男生一同外出用膳的Alvin。450Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSmTvUcaimx
並且升上中學後，根本就沒有被女生邀約吃飯。450Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCXcIx7520k
因此Ivy突如其來邀約，再加上當時朋友們的催促，Alvin也只好當下拒絕了她的邀請。450Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0amqjmP1hM
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被喜歡的人拒絕邀約，除了感到可惜及失望之外，就根本甚麼都做不到。450Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcCiqa5XJZD
Ivy曾經嘗試融入對方的生活圈子之中，卻永遠都只是停留在表面上的融入。450Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZk4EdajOxt
至今，她與Alvin仍然是維持在每天上學見面時談上兩三句話的局面。450Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡj034Qu6Fed
即使放學後，她與Alvin透過WhatsApp聊天的次數，也少之又少。450Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡugSZhFHm62
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「Alvin都好似唔多理我咁……莫非真喺要好似Laura咁講，直接同佢講我鍾意佢……」450Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbVPBPCP7an
這時，在Ivy的腦海中也閃現出前陣子Laura的一句說話。450Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZdZWyNu7t0
那句叫她向喜歡的人坦承的說話。450Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzK4mIDqDg9
可是對於性格偏向內向的Ivy來說，要與喜歡的人坦白，可是一件難若登天的事情。450Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡi0yU1BdFsl
單是起初鼓起勇氣向Alvin進一步搭訕，她其實也在心裡掙扎了好幾天。450Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYyAOFdRlPU
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「你鍾意Alvin啊？」450Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ621E2vNYcC
突然有一把男聲從Ivy的後方傳來。450Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcf1tzdiL0A
使得她馬上驚慌失色起來，並隨即轉過身來，查看聲音的主人。450Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZKU6s6FwqK
「Dan……？點解你會嚟庭園嘅？」450Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOJI9jLewic
在確認是同班的同學後，Ivy也接著好奇地問道。450Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9opYuIZrYp
畢竟，學校的庭園平常根本不會有人到訪。450Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4CFSiEuRM9
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「食飽飯無嘢做，咪嚟行過圈囉……但竟然比我八卦到啲嘢啊，呵呵。」450Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUlzV2zRUGy
Dan在說著的同時，奸笑起來，然後就盯著Ivy，等待對方辯解。450Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡv8ghxcMbeK
「你唔好講出啊！我求你！」Ivy當然是立即雙手合十，不斷向Dan請求著。450Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7BoRmlFWoh
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接著，Dan也抓一抓自己的頭髮，一臉沾沾自喜地說：450Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiU9lQGCBGQ
「乜我似啲會將人哋秘密亂咁爆出去嘅人咩？」450Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2M7TKZvV1U
Ivy思考了一會Dan的這句話，然後就搖頭說：「咁又唔似……」450Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4Zovuhadv1
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「鍾意咗人幾耐啊？」Dan隨即問道，看來是打算再八卦一下Ivy的事情。450Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6nT3sMZyH1
Ivy頓時也面紅耳赤起來，並不斷捏住自己的校裙。450Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡancpVZYCG9
而在一番內心掙扎後，她也小小聲地說：「大概三個月啦……」450Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZH86HZOA2n
450Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFxTC4GQ0DA
Dan馬上「哇」了一聲，但很快又一臉認真地摸著下巴說：450Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdusiffJHt2
「唔怪得近排見你同Alvin多咗嘢講啦……不過睇嚟你都好似有嘢煩惱緊？」450Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeFmQOOreEV
在對方的引導下，Ivy也開始向Dan說起了一切的由來。450Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3PzbRRno69
由一開始對Alvin產生興趣，然後就是好感，最後就是喜歡了對方。450Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHtsemh4eRJ
不過卻一直未能向對方表達心意。450Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlBvVoviukd
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Dan聆聽完Ivy一番經歷後，隨即也露出一個恍然大悟的樣子。450Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9adzNge5ur
「哦，所以啱啱先見你唉聲嘆氣咁坐喺到。」450Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ39GR8AMHhP
Ivy沒有說話，只是默默地點著頭。450Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡya7ljEzSqB
於是Dan見況也繼續說：「都明你點解咁沮喪嘅，明明鍾意人，但又無勇氣同對方講，想接近人，但喺又無從入手，令到自己卡咗喺個尷尬位。」450Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1Gge9Vc6lY
聽到Dan「一針見血」的總結後，Ivy也馬上再次嘆息起來。450Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEQ60z0JrLo
然後一臉沒精打采地看著Dan，並用低沉的聲音說：「聽嚟我都喺無機架啦……」450Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIbtaQOOWjG
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「唔好灰啦！不如我幫你探下Alvin口風啦！知佢點諗你都一件好事啊！」450Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡesXvydAtV8
Dan見到Ivy一臉死氣沉沉地樣子，馬上轉用一個輕快的口吻說著，希望從而令Ivy振作一點。450Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ233alWa8Z7
而Ivy聽到了Dan的建議後，馬上想起了先前Laura的一句：「唔試過又點知得唔得呢？」450Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsfELe3oPsn
隨即也重燃心中的希望之火，一邊點頭一邊把一切都託付到Dan手上……450Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡK3zbmU8RYq
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數天後，Dan看準了放學時Alvin獨自離開課室的時機。450Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJpka98qqz8
馬上裝作想與Alvin一同放學而上前與他搭訕。450Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡE2yZZC3L6V
「Alvin，不如今日一齊走啊！」450Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVwzsCxNN2r
「少有喎，你今日唔喺同Francis一齊走。」450Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2W6n4JgW8w
「因為……Francis比人罰留堂啊！」450Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwPuV3SNc3U
但此刻Francis其實是在班房裡與其他男生共同挑戰著手機遊戲中的關卡……450Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHZuJGflqeW
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接著，Dan與Alvin二人一邊聊著一邊下樓梯。450Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4KWmIBRW2L
聊起兩三句後，Dan也開門見山問道：「Alvin，你喺2E有無鍾意嘅人啊？」450Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCRAWwqOHgo
隨即二人也站在了原地。450Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBqxQDNkPHH
而此時，Ivy也剛好走到了樓梯的轉角處，聆聽到了Alvin接下的回答。450Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2MFYEbQIHi
「無喎。」Alvin的這一個回答，簡單而直接。450Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFYyATQPEkO
不過卻同時使Dan愣住了，而偷聽著的Ivy更感到失望起來。450Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYNm5wMpZM1
看來她的幻想，都確實只是幻想。450Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuBK20L2uUz
並如同泡沫一樣，在一瞬間破掉化為無物。450Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3sHjVP6Slq
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「真喺無鍾意嘅人？」Dan再問道，並語氣變得質疑起來。450Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZRQbJRnRVo
不過Alvin仍然迅速而堅定地回答同樣的答案：「真喺無。」450Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1n9e5JMvxV
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這使得Dan不禁倒抽了一口氣。450Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEUbKegpcJU
不過機智的他，也很快就想到第二條問題：「咁班入面有無邊個女仔吸引到你啊？」450Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCSbH14GR8n
Alvin思考了一會，然後答：「嗯……無喎……」450Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXUrGpkoqAy
雖然答案一樣，但是這一次Alvin的回答，卻從中感覺到一絲猶如。450Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLmVNQgUuwg
於是Dan也捉住了這份遲疑，再問：「真喺無？你諗真啲……例如Ivy呢？」450Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRzHrmPSibX
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在轉角處的Ivy聽到了自己的名字後，也意會到Dan終於把與Alvin的對話引導到自己身上。450Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhRmK3v781E
她隨即地把雙手放到胸口上，希望能藉此壓抑住活蹦亂跳的心。450Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡecwmjoSER8
因為對於接下來Alvin的回答，她確實感到額外的緊張起來。450Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjIqZgONjNm
可是，她接著聽到答案是……450Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8rwdIT6obw
「Ivy啊……無咩特別感覺喎，咪普通同學咁。」450Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUcYPAiePCT
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聽到Alvin的回答，Ivy頓時如同石化了一樣，目瞪口呆地站在原地。450Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZMwhsFcfvq
連此刻站在Alvin對面的Dan也瞬間感到愕然起來。450Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLRupsTal8o
或許他自己也猜想不到，這就是Alvin的答案。450Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1J0KWGYMdk
不過，感到有點不知所揩的Dan，也靈機一動，立即再問：450Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKFRhKWSUN3
「如果Ivy喺鍾意你呢？」450Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWgj1zHVQ4A
他選擇不再轉彎抹角，而是斬釘截鐵地道出了Ivy的心意。450Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFHsh7n1Pw1
但其實他都猜想不到，原來Ivy一直偷聽著。450Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3TRyYJnLhM
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然而，Alvin隨即也皺起眉頭說：「就算佢鍾意我，都唔代表我要鍾意佢。感情呢啲嘢講feel架嘛，如果要迎合佢嘅心意，而勉強自己，我做唔到。」450Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVAhQbuUep1
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正當Alvin說完這句話後，他們的上方也突然傳來了一聲急促的腳步聲。450Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ88jcsDlohd
於是Alvin好奇地探頭瞄了一眼上方，並發現沒有人。450Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡl5MWZYnVZb
接著也扭過頭來繼續與Dan談論剛剛的話題。450Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSOpWwpUL0y
然而，他並不知道，剛才腳步聲的主人，正是Ivy。450Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUa80V2t5BP
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而與此同時，Ivy也已經淚流滿面，走到了學校的某處。450Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdElsw0jpTI
孤單一人坐在角落，蜷縮著身體，雙臂抱住雙膝，痛哭起來。450Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqdSP8beX8S
她的哭聲，無比悲哀及淒慘，如同心被刀割一樣。450Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBhYgi9UcFM
看來這份傷痛，將永遠刻印在她的心中，成為一條永遠無法修補的疤痕。450Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoG2CGVmMuD
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「就算佢鍾意我，都唔代表我要鍾意佢」450Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVn3n54dOlZ
直至深夜時，Ivy再次因為回想起Alvin的這一句話，而驚醒過來。450Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlThT1JnptV
她隨即慢慢地離開了床，並坐在一旁的梳妝桌。450Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXZRpVs9NPV
然後，打開了桌燈，看著鏡中雙眼通紅、神情疲倦的自己。450Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVQrfYd1Gvx
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接著再回想起Alvin的說話，以及這三個月來自己的所做一切。450Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQFm7aYukCL
她不禁冷笑起來，隨後打開桌上文具盒，拿出了一把美術刀。450Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHTrT7li3Ib
伸出冰冷的刀鋒，對著自己的手臀……450Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZ2Qbif07sk
「嚓—」450Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMWQHn7lVn4
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「懷著多大的期望，就會迎來同等的失望，甚至最終帶來更深的絕望」450Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAbUz629yPi
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作者在此鄭重聲明：450Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUdX0nrdbjg
𠝹手只是劇情的一部份，並且是虛構情節。450Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCPff3xV4zk
讀者們請潔身自愛，切勿嘗試！！！450Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOdRwemOPb1
無論遇上多麼不如意的事情，都切勿做出任何試圖傷害身體的行為。450Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWs7B5TlCL1
若發現事情未如理想，無法獨力承受，請向身邊的人如父母及師長尋求協助。450Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡafJCDUcTts
切勿將傷害身體來發洩情緒一事合理化，請各位潔身自愛。450Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYoeFncfQ7L
愛人前先要懂得愛錫自己。450Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDfh9xoZlkq
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作者閒聊：450Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbRViIeG1LZ
過去阿侑的一句：「就算佢鍾意我，都唔代表我要鍾意佢。感情呢啲嘢講feel架嘛，如果要迎合佢嘅心意，而勉強自己，我做唔到。」450Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1d1cF8ifhQ
完全是在打著現在自己的臉……450Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZzFFCU5Ld5
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