暑假篇：釋懷558Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWmsb3Aipy5
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「你真喺Alvin啊？」558Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVlpeqNuXOS
那名女生仍然一臉難以置信地問著我。558Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMgOCFzP40W
其實此刻，在我心一樣徘徊著同樣的問題「你真喺Ivy啊」。558Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPiCAp6UpLY
但是對於記性好的我來說，當然知道她就是Ivy了。558Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡE6qiE0M8QQ
雖然她把過往的長髮修剪為及肩短髮，並開始佩帶起眼鏡。558Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAts7YrTDak
然而她那張熟悉的臉孔，仍然存在於腦海之中。558Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPyRdNHJ6y9
最糟糕的就是……我在一瞬間也回憶起，她哭泣著的容貌。558Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡe9ICu7T0VF
亦都是多年前，我最後一次看見她的時候……558Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡO3mawwvIse
558Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDI5z6eb07T
「我哋好耐無見啦！有無……有無三年啦？」558Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQELsDZTt5g
Ivy在一陣驚訝過後，便隨即臉帶笑容說道。558Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwkuSreujTc
再見時是哭著，現在重遇卻是笑著，是多麼矛盾的事情……558Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRRMxBtXvom
558Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡv9DJ5QBLZl
「正確嚟講應該喺四年啦。」我回應她。558Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡu4FTrNrOEj
而她在聽到我的更正後，也立即數著手指：「一、二、三、四……喺喎！原來已經四年囉，嘻嘻！」558Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡY9H097zH4q
看著她傻笑起來的樣子，我的心中卻逐漸產生起一種感覺。558Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtNKWNZkzj3
一種難以形容的內疚感。558Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjbCEKbzf3v
558Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdTzXsIU3pC
而在她的一陣傻笑過後，她似乎也察覺到了我並沒有多說話。558Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwx2aOcAJeO
於是她便接著再說：「Alvin，你成個人成熟咗。」558Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡROAmWIiQVZ
「喺……喺咩。」我稍為避開了她的目光說道。558Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnitSzkOZvZ
隨即視線也落在她的長袖衣上。558Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFlylpXWTKX
明明現在是夏天，外面三十多度，但她還是穿著長袖。558Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLzY2O1IDbJ
是用來遮掩著手臂嗎？558Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4C3Yg73g3e
是用來遮掩著手臂上的傷痕嗎？558Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBIij9yUczb
是用來遮掩著手臂上因為我而弄出來的傷痕嗎？558Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3X8t0owNAr
單是回想起昨晚Mandy所說的畫面，我便不禁倒抽了一口氣。558Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsFQ00IErKc
558Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ95AzLH31Yh
「Alvin，你介意緊以前嘅事啊？」558Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡF9c4rVn8Iu
Ivy很快也發現了我的目光落在她的衣袖上，於是隨即便把衣袖卷起。558Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUGAomRD30R
展露了手臂上的數條疤痕。558Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKNbCMqHyjG
這一瞬間，我的心涼了。558Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTJ7ybvWWat
原來這就是我當時的決定，而導致的後果了嗎……558Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡS8HFQhoPK8
我沉默了數秒，接著也開口說：「對唔住。」558Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡO8paHaQtjC
道歉，因為當時我傷害了她的心。558Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8JSFeCimt0
558Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡA2GmzPmHyO
「哎呀！做咩道歉啦你？」Ivy立即愕然地說道。558Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKiKzW430pK
我沒有回應她，只是繼續沉默著。558Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQC8ynOjR3j
使得她隨即也皺眉頭起來，並思考了數秒後說：「睇嚟Alvin你真喺好介意以前嘅事……真喺好對唔住！」558Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxRjno0Br77
然而在她話後，她卻立即向我九十度鞠躬道歉起來。558Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdWTVcPilaq
這次輪到我感到錯愕起來並立即說：「做……做咩突然道歉啦？！」558Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYWZjakEZ8b
558Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuef3Y1W3rt
「因為當年我一時嘅衝動，搞到Alvin你原來一直都介懷於心！真喺好對唔住！」Ivy繼續面朝地板說著。558Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3fV8PCECGr
使得我都開始有點不知所措起來，只能不斷揮動手臂，示意她快抬起頭來。558Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBY5EXEClnN
558Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCsLtR7Alws
於是Ivy也快速地把頭抬來，然後雙眼注視著我說：「如果喺一年前嘅我，我諗依家一定喊哂口。不過依家嘅我已經對一切都釋懷，所以希望Alvin都唔好因為當年嘅事而怪責自己！」558Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5EP7OifwL2
「我自責緊……？」我疑惑地重複她最後一句話。558Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBcxtpY1fws
而她只是隨即指向我並說：「我識少少心理學架！所以咪睇得出你自責緊！」558Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7e10tfJsOY
是嗎，原來我一直都在自責著……558Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxXrh7ulMWx
558Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFOTzWlRGNY
「其實講真啊，我都估唔到我哋會咁樣相遇翻，突然之間覺得所有嘢都好似喺琴日發生咁。」558Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8iugLgcHtu
「如果當時我唔拒……」當我打算開口說道的時候，Ivy卻再說：「唔可以。」558Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡe6L25Slsba
「吓？咩唔可以？」我瞬間愣住。558Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡj4tYhSmzdF
而她只是搖一搖頭，並說：「唔可以因為要迎合其他人，而強迫自己失去咗自我。」558Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡR9ncbN2htS
558Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnLiGLq8vkM
她的這句話如同子彈一樣，一下子打穿了我的大腦。558Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFUpERDCUbi
她說得沒有錯，我一直以來都是在扮演著一個只會迎合其他人的角色。558Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKGRTmAo0O3
558Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBrDYXTWKeO
「以前我一直都會諗，如果Alvin你無拒絕我，究竟之後會點。」她說道。558Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeDQEYXV29w
而我思考了一會後，便說：「我哋會一齊咗，跟住就唔會發生之後嘅事？」558Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6JPZ9CnZSl
「喺，我哋喺會一齊，但喺一切都只喺因為你唔想hurt我，而強迫自己同我一齊，咁樣嘅話，我哋根本就唔會過得開心！」558Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZwuN4GhBsS
她說著的時候，語氣明顯變得有點激動起來。558Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkVSvdAPVex
但她仍然繼續說道：「咁所以，唔好再因為我嘅事而怪責自己啦！我依家過得好好，識咗一班好室友，佢哋仲教識咗我好多唔會嘅正向觀念。」558Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡly0sORhwNq
558Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOW5aGKaDhW
而在她的一番言論後，我便合上嘴巴，並閉上雙眼，大腦開始思考起來。558Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdO5v42cWeA
因為當初Ivy的事件，我變得開始只會迎合他人。558Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiytT4HBD4f
後來與Mandy交往後，我開始執著於承諾。558Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡByqce4L77e
結識依玲及Venus後，我仍然只是一直在配合著她們對我的心意而行。558Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡB1eUfDsBR3
一時是好朋友、一時是前度、一時是曖昧對象。558Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGXdqLXt2J5
到底我的真正想法是甚麼？558Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeVXWMKx6iq
而為什麼，我又會落得如此的地步呢……558Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡb9JW73HQOE
558Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUgHxKm0A3Q
想著想著，我便不自覺地冷笑了一下。558Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvgw5r6wliy
而Ivy也隨即說：「所以希望你唔好再自責啦。」558Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvUeYcRVs6q
我慢慢地張開眼睛，然後看著她說：「多謝你，我諗我諗通咗啲嘢啦。」558Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXbXNfNljTj
其實一直迷失著的人，原來就是我自己。558Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKBvw9ahjah
558Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxvNaeIzMZh
「見翻你，可能喺種緣份，喺上天安排我哋再相遇翻，然後解開心結。」558Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDe84frNTJ0
「心結？你唔喺話你釋懷咗啦咩？」我好奇問道。558Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7y3neYrMhA
但Ivy接著卻突然面紅耳赤起來，並說話變得有點口吃起來：「對你喺釋懷……但對另一個人唔喺……」558Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡU8Z28G5wcu
558Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBFohpQsQR8
「喂！學生妹原來你喺到啊！」558Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKjDmjFR2rT
此時，從我的後方傳來了一把男聲。558Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeoVdSIU1uU
於是我便立刻扭頭過去查看，發現原來是剛剛那位受我邀請完成任務的Youtuber以及他的另外兩位朋友。558Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1wShQYxRMW
而從他剛才的對話推斷，他們應該是認識Ivy的……558Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ48Aof3134i
莫非Ivy所說的室友就是他們嗎？！558Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyjNNHCw8Fv
558Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9wJTUSenDP
接下來，其中一名男生更走到我們的身旁時，並稍為打量了一下我。558Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpkP41tgFzV
然後就一臉恍然地向Ivy說：「哦！原來就喺佢！」558Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuAFUV3BV4O
「嗯？」我立刻擺出了一個疑惑樣子。558Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡssazGE7ur2
甚麼原來就是我？558Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8UPjXN9p5j
558Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡI958PVImI5
然而，那名男生並沒有理會我的反應，只是繼續與Ivy說：558Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRmbWiQRIT9
「你要講嘅嘢喺咪講哂啦？」558Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUpco7EfxWu
「講哂啦！」Ivy立即回應對方，並表情瞬間變得更害羞起來。558Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxpd92Q3gzU
而我對於他們的對話，仍然感到萬分不解。558Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2QmDiSKYNn
但是那名Youtuber也隨即向我說：「我哋幫你哋做完任務啦！記得subscribe同like多啲我啊！」558Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjsaNAh98fu
接著，那三名男生便與Ivy一同向我作了一個簡易的道別。558Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwUJuuBZfmH
然後就轉身從圖書館的另一個出口離開了。558Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwjNVUYhP05
558Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5QZrMGafya
與此同時，也只留下了完全摸不清頭緒的我並自言自起來：558Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4kWUOPsRD5
「到底講緊咩啦……」558Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdu7pffCPyh
不過既然今天能重遇Ivy，並得知她至今還過得挺好的。558Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiyZgzkuWwl
我想……應該是時候要放過一下自己了。558Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡC8ZEQHINTb
當年的內疚，應該都會逐漸消散了。558Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYaM4lkY8nA
這算是解決了我人生其中一個遺憾了吧？558Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9GNQ9Xn41a
558Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKcxHeF2hrO
但是，在解開了過往的困惑同時。558Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0fsKtXYrjL
也提醒了我，在未來，我將再次需要作出選擇。558Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeiZeuPoyLO
而且還是三個那麼多……558Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwb93UECh9s
558Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡom4Y5QabBR
558Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9QXzH4CjBp
「只有釋懷，才能夠走更遠的路」558Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡB1CFJswfkF
558Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDZYU9cp9de
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作者閒聊：連動篇總算告一段落了。在不久將來，Ivy還是會再次出現喔，不過那已經是第二個故事了~558Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXHKzqmWtqB
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