暑假篇：釋懷619Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFjo1Q51CX6
619Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAoRvp1jKwR
「你真喺Alvin啊？」619Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXUPIs4dGdP
那名女生仍然一臉難以置信地問著我。619Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkeT6GAJwZD
其實此刻，在我心一樣徘徊著同樣的問題「你真喺Ivy啊」。619Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmpfvyb4saV
但是對於記性好的我來說，當然知道她就是Ivy了。619Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡknYZpNQW5e
雖然她把過往的長髮修剪為及肩短髮，並開始佩帶起眼鏡。619Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzbKLMbSWib
然而她那張熟悉的臉孔，仍然存在於腦海之中。619Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjAAobgvVax
最糟糕的就是……我在一瞬間也回憶起，她哭泣著的容貌。619Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNsaFU2rnR2
亦都是多年前，我最後一次看見她的時候……619Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfXsekUwmhO
619Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3PgJllWAXT
「我哋好耐無見啦！有無……有無三年啦？」619Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡod42Cv1k7u
Ivy在一陣驚訝過後，便隨即臉帶笑容說道。619Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡv9BtJZYG25
再見時是哭著，現在重遇卻是笑著，是多麼矛盾的事情……619Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjzGarRsopN
619Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2Rti34gnKl
「正確嚟講應該喺四年啦。」我回應她。619Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJP8daAKCWe
而她在聽到我的更正後，也立即數著手指：「一、二、三、四……喺喎！原來已經四年囉，嘻嘻！」619Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRNG2aR9WSR
看著她傻笑起來的樣子，我的心中卻逐漸產生起一種感覺。619Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0mMnPrC36h
一種難以形容的內疚感。619Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJBkEhDuYOG
619Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3Zv22SOxwD
而在她的一陣傻笑過後，她似乎也察覺到了我並沒有多說話。619Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡA8k8TnzqAN
於是她便接著再說：「Alvin，你成個人成熟咗。」619Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSw0BPcoOAx
「喺……喺咩。」我稍為避開了她的目光說道。619Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOpeDEno15u
隨即視線也落在她的長袖衣上。619Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDVevzbcbZb
明明現在是夏天，外面三十多度，但她還是穿著長袖。619Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUCQfw4NLC1
是用來遮掩著手臂嗎？619Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzC6WvrNNtr
是用來遮掩著手臂上的傷痕嗎？619Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡI5HWE1k22u
是用來遮掩著手臂上因為我而弄出來的傷痕嗎？619Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡliZI64FQED
單是回想起昨晚Mandy所說的畫面，我便不禁倒抽了一口氣。619Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcsGYZZMtnb
619Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUyLAXhoeCy
「Alvin，你介意緊以前嘅事啊？」619Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡV9yFkfz8CM
Ivy很快也發現了我的目光落在她的衣袖上，於是隨即便把衣袖卷起。619Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4fexJxrNIi
展露了手臂上的數條疤痕。619Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsK1W5lKaLy
這一瞬間，我的心涼了。619Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDKkUeY20fo
原來這就是我當時的決定，而導致的後果了嗎……619Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡakcq24CRBV
我沉默了數秒，接著也開口說：「對唔住。」619Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpRlqHIEyfJ
道歉，因為當時我傷害了她的心。619Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0Kfv8v6TeE
619Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8auiKSc2lG
「哎呀！做咩道歉啦你？」Ivy立即愕然地說道。619Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzl8ZGGFcy9
我沒有回應她，只是繼續沉默著。619Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡP6xlv4SMrx
使得她隨即也皺眉頭起來，並思考了數秒後說：「睇嚟Alvin你真喺好介意以前嘅事……真喺好對唔住！」619Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡi2s8CRP2xk
然而在她話後，她卻立即向我九十度鞠躬道歉起來。619Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡv7Jx1vp5nC
這次輪到我感到錯愕起來並立即說：「做……做咩突然道歉啦？！」619Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdC7kRF8wBP
619Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8HcCYg14hN
「因為當年我一時嘅衝動，搞到Alvin你原來一直都介懷於心！真喺好對唔住！」Ivy繼續面朝地板說著。619Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6jTkbhipjk
使得我都開始有點不知所措起來，只能不斷揮動手臂，示意她快抬起頭來。619Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcYalrupaCC
619Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAv6U2Vxd80
於是Ivy也快速地把頭抬來，然後雙眼注視著我說：「如果喺一年前嘅我，我諗依家一定喊哂口。不過依家嘅我已經對一切都釋懷，所以希望Alvin都唔好因為當年嘅事而怪責自己！」619Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1eoCP50x1b
「我自責緊……？」我疑惑地重複她最後一句話。619Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTMpSomp9Mn
而她只是隨即指向我並說：「我識少少心理學架！所以咪睇得出你自責緊！」619Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9AxcXv7iCr
是嗎，原來我一直都在自責著……619Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡojfZVHefbt
619Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡs40ksCnTWT
「其實講真啊，我都估唔到我哋會咁樣相遇翻，突然之間覺得所有嘢都好似喺琴日發生咁。」619Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡy3Y7VKd6qv
「如果當時我唔拒……」當我打算開口說道的時候，Ivy卻再說：「唔可以。」619Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡydE2iAoTQs
「吓？咩唔可以？」我瞬間愣住。619Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ23eD7ZXD8T
而她只是搖一搖頭，並說：「唔可以因為要迎合其他人，而強迫自己失去咗自我。」619Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4O5cwtKSTN
619Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQeP7xDp23a
她的這句話如同子彈一樣，一下子打穿了我的大腦。619Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUJuNY7yaJk
她說得沒有錯，我一直以來都是在扮演著一個只會迎合其他人的角色。619Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZCDUd4MO0G
619Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRFct8pV1Mj
「以前我一直都會諗，如果Alvin你無拒絕我，究竟之後會點。」她說道。619Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡq9lJqKe9zD
而我思考了一會後，便說：「我哋會一齊咗，跟住就唔會發生之後嘅事？」619Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0j2MkBHZL8
「喺，我哋喺會一齊，但喺一切都只喺因為你唔想hurt我，而強迫自己同我一齊，咁樣嘅話，我哋根本就唔會過得開心！」619Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDmgDaoh4qc
她說著的時候，語氣明顯變得有點激動起來。619Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXQlup3sHeK
但她仍然繼續說道：「咁所以，唔好再因為我嘅事而怪責自己啦！我依家過得好好，識咗一班好室友，佢哋仲教識咗我好多唔會嘅正向觀念。」619Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhUkePDo8CS
619Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEOReoF2OWO
而在她的一番言論後，我便合上嘴巴，並閉上雙眼，大腦開始思考起來。619Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwVkFeXSyit
因為當初Ivy的事件，我變得開始只會迎合他人。619Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiUDyZxYQiT
後來與Mandy交往後，我開始執著於承諾。619Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJaMv6iN7rk
結識依玲及Venus後，我仍然只是一直在配合著她們對我的心意而行。619Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyk4Nl37gJn
一時是好朋友、一時是前度、一時是曖昧對象。619Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡW5MnsqAmGy
到底我的真正想法是甚麼？619Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡukItJO6B49
而為什麼，我又會落得如此的地步呢……619Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcd5xSqk4lw
619Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKz53BavUyF
想著想著，我便不自覺地冷笑了一下。619Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRuimyK60v4
而Ivy也隨即說：「所以希望你唔好再自責啦。」619Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTRhm9jNQRU
我慢慢地張開眼睛，然後看著她說：「多謝你，我諗我諗通咗啲嘢啦。」619Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiB26TiaSsg
其實一直迷失著的人，原來就是我自己。619Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTJgxJKpMic
619Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvecWfxaeT5
「見翻你，可能喺種緣份，喺上天安排我哋再相遇翻，然後解開心結。」619Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuMWWRj1Nbv
「心結？你唔喺話你釋懷咗啦咩？」我好奇問道。619Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9Gt87dkGDN
但Ivy接著卻突然面紅耳赤起來，並說話變得有點口吃起來：「對你喺釋懷……但對另一個人唔喺……」619Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNr2PtMkyI4
619Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡomUcb8PJeo
「喂！學生妹原來你喺到啊！」619Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3a2iOMp65g
此時，從我的後方傳來了一把男聲。619Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4tPEoDVxOo
於是我便立刻扭頭過去查看，發現原來是剛剛那位受我邀請完成任務的Youtuber以及他的另外兩位朋友。619Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKcy3XGFxBj
而從他剛才的對話推斷，他們應該是認識Ivy的……619Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡA0A3pSAPvC
莫非Ivy所說的室友就是他們嗎？！619Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQBnNt8VC0k
619Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡK6J532v8tW
接下來，其中一名男生更走到我們的身旁時，並稍為打量了一下我。619Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡe9aGxh7nTt
然後就一臉恍然地向Ivy說：「哦！原來就喺佢！」619Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡF4ty6dZwsx
「嗯？」我立刻擺出了一個疑惑樣子。619Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTfY7Ht0bd4
甚麼原來就是我？619Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFnZSm0VsIj
619Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡL5XNNbbwqA
然而，那名男生並沒有理會我的反應，只是繼續與Ivy說：619Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgeIqCp2yY0
「你要講嘅嘢喺咪講哂啦？」619Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIIRsvoPxkU
「講哂啦！」Ivy立即回應對方，並表情瞬間變得更害羞起來。619Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1C5zlDV9ag
而我對於他們的對話，仍然感到萬分不解。619Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjobIUtam3d
但是那名Youtuber也隨即向我說：「我哋幫你哋做完任務啦！記得subscribe同like多啲我啊！」619Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVMmVDDsbPH
接著，那三名男生便與Ivy一同向我作了一個簡易的道別。619Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBndNz9OBQ6
然後就轉身從圖書館的另一個出口離開了。619Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfWqzetMzgD
619Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpvyPG8JolF
與此同時，也只留下了完全摸不清頭緒的我並自言自起來：619Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZMP3utEMJe
「到底講緊咩啦……」619Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXBcVhWk5fs
不過既然今天能重遇Ivy，並得知她至今還過得挺好的。619Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWATezrtInc
我想……應該是時候要放過一下自己了。619Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4rixzql2pI
當年的內疚，應該都會逐漸消散了。619Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYHvxcoL18x
這算是解決了我人生其中一個遺憾了吧？619Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLjlTAbgD0E
619Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1WawkcB6pI
但是，在解開了過往的困惑同時。619Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6bBEY67J2u
也提醒了我，在未來，我將再次需要作出選擇。619Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpr1lCzlPZM
而且還是三個那麼多……619Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPNHOQoAQyV
619Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqazV4cHjhB
619Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvbEfkKLdYU
「只有釋懷，才能夠走更遠的路」619Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7AQLYNnffa
619Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqxq3rKJS1S
619Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡp3BmpKLUgf
作者閒聊：連動篇總算告一段落了。在不久將來，Ivy還是會再次出現喔，不過那已經是第二個故事了~619Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaoyE6HhS2T
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