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「你真喺Alvin啊？」571Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSRtQlQF3Hx
那名女生仍然一臉難以置信地問著我。571Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6oRqPDHOq7
其實此刻，在我心一樣徘徊著同樣的問題「你真喺Ivy啊」。571Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ292CT0No5w
但是對於記性好的我來說，當然知道她就是Ivy了。571Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEThRt4cxdN
雖然她把過往的長髮修剪為及肩短髮，並開始佩帶起眼鏡。571Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡy0xdbTxp7t
然而她那張熟悉的臉孔，仍然存在於腦海之中。571Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfK4IXsFlnf
最糟糕的就是……我在一瞬間也回憶起，她哭泣著的容貌。571Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7KWuvH96fu
亦都是多年前，我最後一次看見她的時候……571Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXPquzuj7VY
571Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6GrGs7LqaU
「我哋好耐無見啦！有無……有無三年啦？」571Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3QD0wlI8Lv
Ivy在一陣驚訝過後，便隨即臉帶笑容說道。571Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEPBfI4xiHm
再見時是哭著，現在重遇卻是笑著，是多麼矛盾的事情……571Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡp6ePZa9Avg
571Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKqOPa93aGE
「正確嚟講應該喺四年啦。」我回應她。571Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0zF4RMZHfv
而她在聽到我的更正後，也立即數著手指：「一、二、三、四……喺喎！原來已經四年囉，嘻嘻！」571Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfHkMwVg5DE
看著她傻笑起來的樣子，我的心中卻逐漸產生起一種感覺。571Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡq1eZ25Eq5c
一種難以形容的內疚感。571Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡy8OGFmKZgO
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而在她的一陣傻笑過後，她似乎也察覺到了我並沒有多說話。571Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhmVOjx1uK6
於是她便接著再說：「Alvin，你成個人成熟咗。」571Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjNpqE7Bwhh
「喺……喺咩。」我稍為避開了她的目光說道。571Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡilzs7vx60m
隨即視線也落在她的長袖衣上。571Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpImdS7Z8n1
明明現在是夏天，外面三十多度，但她還是穿著長袖。571Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5suwQLexSr
是用來遮掩著手臂嗎？571Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoQOhXSFAGV
是用來遮掩著手臂上的傷痕嗎？571Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXd4eNM8mxu
是用來遮掩著手臂上因為我而弄出來的傷痕嗎？571Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSvC9zBkVKl
單是回想起昨晚Mandy所說的畫面，我便不禁倒抽了一口氣。571Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡX8LJzYeRoW
571Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwJyKm65yxL
「Alvin，你介意緊以前嘅事啊？」571Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiS27SwpL1K
Ivy很快也發現了我的目光落在她的衣袖上，於是隨即便把衣袖卷起。571Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEQVQA6OKWu
展露了手臂上的數條疤痕。571Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡru3EEFCPej
這一瞬間，我的心涼了。571Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVW01HHgkDU
原來這就是我當時的決定，而導致的後果了嗎……571Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmkfM5Mumcx
我沉默了數秒，接著也開口說：「對唔住。」571Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfj4xqNlfZz
道歉，因為當時我傷害了她的心。571Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡd4XNG5iiV5
571Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡr3tLDloSQb
「哎呀！做咩道歉啦你？」Ivy立即愕然地說道。571Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkObVmyZFH5
我沒有回應她，只是繼續沉默著。571Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOOJtYVxvG4
使得她隨即也皺眉頭起來，並思考了數秒後說：「睇嚟Alvin你真喺好介意以前嘅事……真喺好對唔住！」571Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡK3uAYYWmRO
然而在她話後，她卻立即向我九十度鞠躬道歉起來。571Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcHVHrAsrcZ
這次輪到我感到錯愕起來並立即說：「做……做咩突然道歉啦？！」571Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJ1Oio80cgf
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「因為當年我一時嘅衝動，搞到Alvin你原來一直都介懷於心！真喺好對唔住！」Ivy繼續面朝地板說著。571Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2B3bUhlp8w
使得我都開始有點不知所措起來，只能不斷揮動手臂，示意她快抬起頭來。571Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPUv7fiDyEV
571Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtKVdXo9Gjd
於是Ivy也快速地把頭抬來，然後雙眼注視著我說：「如果喺一年前嘅我，我諗依家一定喊哂口。不過依家嘅我已經對一切都釋懷，所以希望Alvin都唔好因為當年嘅事而怪責自己！」571Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNH3JQn2e2U
「我自責緊……？」我疑惑地重複她最後一句話。571Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXFTKBFTktQ
而她只是隨即指向我並說：「我識少少心理學架！所以咪睇得出你自責緊！」571Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrD6NYjqe41
是嗎，原來我一直都在自責著……571Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2b4Njkh7Rd
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「其實講真啊，我都估唔到我哋會咁樣相遇翻，突然之間覺得所有嘢都好似喺琴日發生咁。」571Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4atARQDlGT
「如果當時我唔拒……」當我打算開口說道的時候，Ivy卻再說：「唔可以。」571Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRRyG2u3PLP
「吓？咩唔可以？」我瞬間愣住。571Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡd6L5VXI4bc
而她只是搖一搖頭，並說：「唔可以因為要迎合其他人，而強迫自己失去咗自我。」571Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQm9NDMRtk7
571Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQkumCTxLOe
她的這句話如同子彈一樣，一下子打穿了我的大腦。571Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡF7AYhaERvc
她說得沒有錯，我一直以來都是在扮演著一個只會迎合其他人的角色。571Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJAkyAuElbn
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「以前我一直都會諗，如果Alvin你無拒絕我，究竟之後會點。」她說道。571Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7jiPDz10uU
而我思考了一會後，便說：「我哋會一齊咗，跟住就唔會發生之後嘅事？」571Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡar0GnTG4Oi
「喺，我哋喺會一齊，但喺一切都只喺因為你唔想hurt我，而強迫自己同我一齊，咁樣嘅話，我哋根本就唔會過得開心！」571Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1ZQ6PLpm5G
她說著的時候，語氣明顯變得有點激動起來。571Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡw1lPDukxhL
但她仍然繼續說道：「咁所以，唔好再因為我嘅事而怪責自己啦！我依家過得好好，識咗一班好室友，佢哋仲教識咗我好多唔會嘅正向觀念。」571Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnVV6kghjs7
571Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4WDARkG1CQ
而在她的一番言論後，我便合上嘴巴，並閉上雙眼，大腦開始思考起來。571Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrWDD9rS0YS
因為當初Ivy的事件，我變得開始只會迎合他人。571Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBWCA8vpqm0
後來與Mandy交往後，我開始執著於承諾。571Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡad2Fil6sWJ
結識依玲及Venus後，我仍然只是一直在配合著她們對我的心意而行。571Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfyb8UzrCJ6
一時是好朋友、一時是前度、一時是曖昧對象。571Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfgogZZjGvH
到底我的真正想法是甚麼？571Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtv52fJ88gQ
而為什麼，我又會落得如此的地步呢……571Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWSfZuyVCdu
571Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHaAa8oNjQ1
想著想著，我便不自覺地冷笑了一下。571Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdFRVasclk2
而Ivy也隨即說：「所以希望你唔好再自責啦。」571Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIQC2ATepjp
我慢慢地張開眼睛，然後看著她說：「多謝你，我諗我諗通咗啲嘢啦。」571Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡP2MH2B74f5
其實一直迷失著的人，原來就是我自己。571Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcDYRBcDfan
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「見翻你，可能喺種緣份，喺上天安排我哋再相遇翻，然後解開心結。」571Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3ktAvI00wF
「心結？你唔喺話你釋懷咗啦咩？」我好奇問道。571Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡanVa27VXb4
但Ivy接著卻突然面紅耳赤起來，並說話變得有點口吃起來：「對你喺釋懷……但對另一個人唔喺……」571Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrLLjq8bpSW
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「喂！學生妹原來你喺到啊！」571Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0yh9hN8Z7X
此時，從我的後方傳來了一把男聲。571Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFUfl7bDxyR
於是我便立刻扭頭過去查看，發現原來是剛剛那位受我邀請完成任務的Youtuber以及他的另外兩位朋友。571Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaX6P4T2bhN
而從他剛才的對話推斷，他們應該是認識Ivy的……571Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡK5mnWW7sS6
莫非Ivy所說的室友就是他們嗎？！571Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVchhXd3cFo
571Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyPTTaaDUQc
接下來，其中一名男生更走到我們的身旁時，並稍為打量了一下我。571Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzda1NxbPIR
然後就一臉恍然地向Ivy說：「哦！原來就喺佢！」571Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡW0g9GreyFq
「嗯？」我立刻擺出了一個疑惑樣子。571Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTz4WyggwvV
甚麼原來就是我？571Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnQNJCaF7U6
571Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFcfAY83IEQ
然而，那名男生並沒有理會我的反應，只是繼續與Ivy說：571Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUN008zMGrd
「你要講嘅嘢喺咪講哂啦？」571Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiySdZV453d
「講哂啦！」Ivy立即回應對方，並表情瞬間變得更害羞起來。571Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzayajQ73eM
而我對於他們的對話，仍然感到萬分不解。571Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9zroAScGYe
但是那名Youtuber也隨即向我說：「我哋幫你哋做完任務啦！記得subscribe同like多啲我啊！」571Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZScHE9UaPL
接著，那三名男生便與Ivy一同向我作了一個簡易的道別。571Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQ85T8bQYso
然後就轉身從圖書館的另一個出口離開了。571Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhxsO7q1sOE
571Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYUIFFxyXps
與此同時，也只留下了完全摸不清頭緒的我並自言自起來：571Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnUOUr4RNWz
「到底講緊咩啦……」571Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8qTcVVW6Sv
不過既然今天能重遇Ivy，並得知她至今還過得挺好的。571Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaX0TXG8gCp
我想……應該是時候要放過一下自己了。571Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCNFLsBmRq7
當年的內疚，應該都會逐漸消散了。571Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKv07EmDbte
這算是解決了我人生其中一個遺憾了吧？571Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGMqW8k3RZQ
571Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7XPkNBsXKp
但是，在解開了過往的困惑同時。571Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTU0HzPZ8X8
也提醒了我，在未來，我將再次需要作出選擇。571Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuRMg1q2dDR
而且還是三個那麼多……571Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡioSzaI6mfd
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「只有釋懷，才能夠走更遠的路」571Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIcfl9qFqEi
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作者閒聊：連動篇總算告一段落了。在不久將來，Ivy還是會再次出現喔，不過那已經是第二個故事了~571Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡG8xF8aVaIu
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