第一二八章:畢業營(七)539Please respect copyright.PENANAz062dTbNzn
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一聲喊道下,我便把Mandy拉到懷中緊抱著。539Please respect copyright.PENANAD29fZbzvyd
已經不知道,這個舉動到底是理性控制,還是感性驅動了……539Please respect copyright.PENANAD3Cx8TEG2r
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不過在我懷中的Mandy,也在一陣錯愕過後。539Please respect copyright.PENANASg7NFqapSi
便輕聲地說:「做咩咁突然攬住人……」539Please respect copyright.PENANA9AfCtX2gEz
「唔知……我都唔知點解自己會突然咁做。」我仍然摟抱著她說道。539Please respect copyright.PENANAItruIJNzkV
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而我們唯持了這個姿勢大約半分鐘後,她也再說:「一陣比其他人睇到啊……」539Please respect copyright.PENANA6rRcNzYTnI
聽到她這這番說話,我才下意識過來,現在還是在營區內,隨時都會有同級的同學或老師出現。539Please respect copyright.PENANA9RxEQHxopS
因此,我便很快把她推離懷中,並說:「對……對唔住。」539Please respect copyright.PENANA73tMGFxiLf
但她沒有責怪我突然的舉動,反而是臉頰泛起一點紅地盯著地板看。539Please respect copyright.PENANALiF2QAT6EU
我想,突然被人抱入懷中,有這個反應也不奇怪。539Please respect copyright.PENANAe7Jsc5bZj3
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「不如我哋去個邊企?」539Please respect copyright.PENANAIi6Ypau89b
發現氣氛變得有點尷尬起來的我,便指向了近河畔邊的平台。539Please respect copyright.PENANAEmHStAT26K
她抬頭看一看我指向的方向,沉默了一會。539Please respect copyright.PENANAofPAAdfH8j
接著也少少聲地在嘴邊說:「好。」539Please respect copyright.PENANALwagaICulA
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隨即我們便一同往平台的方向前去,不過路途上卻沒有任何傾談。539Please respect copyright.PENANAwiOEODNzYM
畢竟,現在我腦中想著的,都只是她那一句「道別」。539Please respect copyright.PENANAJri7qkIgXM
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直到我們來到平台,並雙雙靠在欄杆上。539Please respect copyright.PENANAafQtJonJsL
她也開口說:「聖誕之後,我就會翻番澳洲讀書。」539Please respect copyright.PENANAFbrNrjdnyQ
「喺啊……」我竟然比想像中表現得平淡。539Please respect copyright.PENANAYrIKbC8F6W
而她對於的我反應,似乎都感到有點意外。539Please respect copyright.PENANAoaUemPIXyz
於是好奇地望向我,隨即我都一同與她對視起來。539Please respect copyright.PENANAsHoG0THJ47
「阿侑你嘅反應比我想像中冷靜喎……啊,唔喺。你啱先都無啦啦攬住我。」539Please respect copyright.PENANASncoJL5plw
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其實我的反應會如此鎮定,可能是因為我早就猜想到會有這一天的來臨。539Please respect copyright.PENANALKBvUC7UBZ
始終,她已經不是第一次離開我了。539Please respect copyright.PENANA1e7Urgy7tG
三年前,她因為移民而前往了澳洲。539Please respect copyright.PENANAjuA0YJ1rRp
可是在一年後又回來了與我再次相遇。539Please respect copyright.PENANABajeh1qbz0
但是她的家人仍然在澳洲,這樣代表,終有一天,她還是要離開……539Please respect copyright.PENANAy0MZGa5fOe
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「點解又突然翻去讀書?」539Please respect copyright.PENANANkx86U3so8
她沒有即時回答,而是扭過頭去看著前方一片漆黑的河畔。539Please respect copyright.PENANAwAlxiljX5r
「本來都諗住考埋DSE先,但屋企人都希望我唔好考,而喺返去讀多兩年high school,然後直接駁入U。」539Please respect copyright.PENANAe9zk8np0Qi
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聽到她這樣說道,我都瞬間理解到為何她的家人會作出如此的抉擇。539Please respect copyright.PENANAk16WYj599f
畢竟論教育,香港的教育實在太過落後,只專注在菁英培育上。539Please respect copyright.PENANAdGtekWyNQX
然後又推行現在的「一試定生死」方式,來區分能力高與低的學生。539Please respect copyright.PENANA6PhUEG3fee
分分鐘考入大學還比在麻將桌上以海底撈月食糊更難呢。539Please respect copyright.PENANAtiF4xzKEzk
換做是我的話,都會選擇在海外升學。539Please respect copyright.PENANA7YE4996AMu
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在她的話後,我也一同望向眼前漆黑的河畔。539Please respect copyright.PENANAKpE0xFUePJ
頓時覺得眼前的景色,就如同不久的未來一樣。539Please respect copyright.PENANAHHDvSAtlIN
現在晚上看著,只會覺得一團漆黑,根本捉摸不清眼前的事物。539Please respect copyright.PENANALh5PaPPa6n
換做早上看著的話,卻會清楚地看到河畔上所有的景物。539Please respect copyright.PENANA6Q53hi9G99
人,會因為一時的迷茫,而失去向前的動力。539Please respect copyright.PENANAWFQaMIZSjj
但又會因為熟悉而感到舒適,並最後失去了探索的動力。539Please respect copyright.PENANA0trRlkvlDM
到底是選擇留在舒適圈,還是離開,都將會引致不同的未來。539Please respect copyright.PENANAwsgUaq9wud
而我們往往擔憂的,就只是那個未來到底適不適合自己。539Please respect copyright.PENANACXjpJT3lw3
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Mandy發現我沒有回應,於是又再說起來:「所以今次真喺要再見啦。」539Please respect copyright.PENANAOBmTciRLyD
她又再一次提起了「再見」這一回事。539Please respect copyright.PENANAtNB2nZ9ZfW
但這次我並沒有像剛一樣立即把她拉到懷中,而是說出心中話:539Please respect copyright.PENANAtqxVE2yz48
「老實講啊,其實我唔想你走。」539Please respect copyright.PENANAhcw9wJ31Hh
「我知啊,啱先你攬住我個陣,我聽到啊。」她在話後便微笑起來。539Please respect copyright.PENANAFuMQEfkPbg
感覺就像在回味剛才的一刻一樣。539Please respect copyright.PENANAhYfy6WNi8V
但接著又再問:「點解咁唔想我走?」539Please respect copyright.PENANAWQWqZeq12A
「因為我自私囉。」我直接說道。539Please respect copyright.PENANAzPUuDs7nIu
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然而,她又沒有立即回答,而是轉過身來背靠在欄杆上。539Please respect copyright.PENANA7E8VyHdJH5
「唔可以自私喺我到架。」539Please respect copyright.PENANACT67QpTmSW
「點解啊?」我一臉好奇地反問道。539Please respect copyright.PENANATXAjMfqW8e
「因為……我唔值得你自私囉!」539Please respect copyright.PENANAXvqJMd8LE6
她這樣一說,使我愣住了。539Please respect copyright.PENANAaELmaF3pE7
但是正當我開口時,她又說:「仲有其他人值得你自私。」539Please respect copyright.PENANA0n7fVm8lFl
「你嘅其他人喺指?」539Please respect copyright.PENANAc61IhEuXv7
「Venus啊,Elaine啊,甚至可能喺你畢業之後識嘅人。」539Please respect copyright.PENANAtJQ3dYsikr
在她提起Venus的名字時,我的腦海卻聯想起一段畫面。539Please respect copyright.PENANAmEBtBkAtqu
就是開學的那一天,她與Venus在6C班門前談天的時候。539Please respect copyright.PENANAFyxYifI5DE
因此我也不禁問:「愛瑩喺咪一早知架啦?」539Please respect copyright.PENANAUArHJWvZNL
她點頭,然後望向夜空:「班入面有幾個女仔都知。其實我都諗住差唔多時間同大家講架啦。」539Please respect copyright.PENANAqyI2FYQfuw
即使與全班說,大家都知道後,都是改變不了她要離開的事實。539Please respect copyright.PENANALPi5b6CfMC
而我此刻想對她就只是:「比我……」539Please respect copyright.PENANA8auv5JaKli
「時間都唔早啦,不如我哋翻去啦。」539Please respect copyright.PENANAFGmJBa9h0v
她突然的一句打斷了我的說話。539Please respect copyright.PENANAOw1cwh6U68
是巧合?還是刻意呢?539Please respect copyright.PENANAwOhfOTlS6Q
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並且她在提議後,只是雙眼默默地凝視著我。539Please respect copyright.PENANAm77XfWrjS2
我隨即只能吞下還在口中的說話,點頭回應:539Please respect copyright.PENANAHIgIypRPR9
「都好。」539Please respect copyright.PENANAyzTa0CwxxY
答應了的這一刻也代表著,我們的話題,將會在此結束……539Please respect copyright.PENANAjkYBMfW0Hd
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片刻後,我帶著複雜的心情返回了宿舍內。539Please respect copyright.PENANAcR82ZFe4Sj
並在打開門的一刻,就見Harriet拿著毛巾及衣服在大廳的沙發上看著電視。539Please respect copyright.PENANAx6oqEmKQE2
「散完步翻嚟啦?」Harriet看見我的出現,便立即問道。539Please respect copyright.PENANARYAOs3p4PI
而我只是坐到他的旁邊,並靠在沙發上嘆氣起來。539Please respect copyright.PENANA6hXNiu6w3C
「唉,感情真喺好複雜呢。」539Please respect copyright.PENANAFSMZYZ8vn5
他先是愣住了,但是也一同靠向後,並輕笑了一聲說:539Please respect copyright.PENANA8dcKYJVq5n
「喺啊,感情真喺好複雜架。」539Please respect copyright.PENANAET7Y24O0S3
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「想放手,但又想捉緊,真複雜」539Please respect copyright.PENANAP5yiDaEhGS