過去篇(四)583Please respect copyright.PENANATj5kXPc7tt
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某一天,在午息時段,Ivy悶悶不樂地來到學校的庭園。583Please respect copyright.PENANATzcnMKybpN
找了一個寧靜的角落,獨自一人坐下,不禁嘆息起來。583Please respect copyright.PENANAYYXUb9mgvg
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原來在剛才午飯時間,Ivy又一次鼓起勇氣邀約Alvin一同吃午飯。583Please respect copyright.PENANAbS2AvMxXYs
可是早就習慣了與其他男生一同外出用膳的Alvin。583Please respect copyright.PENANAS17eQ8UvnK
並且升上中學後,根本就沒有被女生邀約吃飯。583Please respect copyright.PENANA7PFyB37nOx
因此Ivy突如其來邀約,再加上當時朋友們的催促,Alvin也只好當下拒絕了她的邀請。583Please respect copyright.PENANApjlHsJzQi7
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被喜歡的人拒絕邀約,除了感到可惜及失望之外,就根本甚麼都做不到。583Please respect copyright.PENANANEN0GoK2cv
Ivy曾經嘗試融入對方的生活圈子之中,卻永遠都只是停留在表面上的融入。583Please respect copyright.PENANAC6jGpGvyQr
至今,她與Alvin仍然是維持在每天上學見面時談上兩三句話的局面。583Please respect copyright.PENANAR2hpK7PWqL
即使放學後,她與Alvin透過WhatsApp聊天的次數,也少之又少。583Please respect copyright.PENANA3ZCeXrPBRL
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「Alvin都好似唔多理我咁……莫非真喺要好似Laura咁講,直接同佢講我鍾意佢……」583Please respect copyright.PENANACiyzlGvcJD
這時,在Ivy的腦海中也閃現出前陣子Laura的一句說話。583Please respect copyright.PENANA03ghVuQnzR
那句叫她向喜歡的人坦承的說話。583Please respect copyright.PENANAUFKIUSnOOi
可是對於性格偏向內向的Ivy來說,要與喜歡的人坦白,可是一件難若登天的事情。583Please respect copyright.PENANABBoMHaMV1b
單是起初鼓起勇氣向Alvin進一步搭訕,她其實也在心裡掙扎了好幾天。583Please respect copyright.PENANAPCpGrAcvCW
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「你鍾意Alvin啊?」583Please respect copyright.PENANAmCERIMokmZ
突然有一把男聲從Ivy的後方傳來。583Please respect copyright.PENANAwMhbMA1i9k
使得她馬上驚慌失色起來,並隨即轉過身來,查看聲音的主人。583Please respect copyright.PENANANfDe64MURr
「Dan……?點解你會嚟庭園嘅?」583Please respect copyright.PENANA5KUTJu22WR
在確認是同班的同學後,Ivy也接著好奇地問道。583Please respect copyright.PENANARZxXxx2Pcj
畢竟,學校的庭園平常根本不會有人到訪。583Please respect copyright.PENANAHTnNNfSpL6
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「食飽飯無嘢做,咪嚟行過圈囉……但竟然比我八卦到啲嘢啊,呵呵。」583Please respect copyright.PENANAwBzImdtTfy
Dan在說著的同時,奸笑起來,然後就盯著Ivy,等待對方辯解。583Please respect copyright.PENANAnljEFpSyCH
「你唔好講出啊!我求你!」Ivy當然是立即雙手合十,不斷向Dan請求著。583Please respect copyright.PENANA7kYAzQzRe0
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接著,Dan也抓一抓自己的頭髮,一臉沾沾自喜地說:583Please respect copyright.PENANAPiktsQswoB
「乜我似啲會將人哋秘密亂咁爆出去嘅人咩?」583Please respect copyright.PENANAAbEPUkKDfd
Ivy思考了一會Dan的這句話,然後就搖頭說:「咁又唔似……」583Please respect copyright.PENANAbEOCQO0MKE
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「鍾意咗人幾耐啊?」Dan隨即問道,看來是打算再八卦一下Ivy的事情。583Please respect copyright.PENANAbkOMYSJ7Uh
Ivy頓時也面紅耳赤起來,並不斷捏住自己的校裙。583Please respect copyright.PENANAKHKwemnoD2
而在一番內心掙扎後,她也小小聲地說:「大概三個月啦……」583Please respect copyright.PENANAaf2g9fT0R5
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Dan馬上「哇」了一聲,但很快又一臉認真地摸著下巴說:583Please respect copyright.PENANAMYS6SvzyHy
「唔怪得近排見你同Alvin多咗嘢講啦……不過睇嚟你都好似有嘢煩惱緊?」583Please respect copyright.PENANATSFRP60iKC
在對方的引導下,Ivy也開始向Dan說起了一切的由來。583Please respect copyright.PENANAnfWiA1zEgf
由一開始對Alvin產生興趣,然後就是好感,最後就是喜歡了對方。583Please respect copyright.PENANAIjeL8FFD62
不過卻一直未能向對方表達心意。583Please respect copyright.PENANAbuvbmNqRN8
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Dan聆聽完Ivy一番經歷後,隨即也露出一個恍然大悟的樣子。583Please respect copyright.PENANA1wFUIrinTq
「哦,所以啱啱先見你唉聲嘆氣咁坐喺到。」583Please respect copyright.PENANAmqjAeO7Lh5
Ivy沒有說話,只是默默地點著頭。583Please respect copyright.PENANAE9LPhLKEvk
於是Dan見況也繼續說:「都明你點解咁沮喪嘅,明明鍾意人,但又無勇氣同對方講,想接近人,但喺又無從入手,令到自己卡咗喺個尷尬位。」583Please respect copyright.PENANA2JEhIJg4Y1
聽到Dan「一針見血」的總結後,Ivy也馬上再次嘆息起來。583Please respect copyright.PENANAjBzmxC8OTE
然後一臉沒精打采地看著Dan,並用低沉的聲音說:「聽嚟我都喺無機架啦……」583Please respect copyright.PENANA8KlCH4lnpu
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「唔好灰啦!不如我幫你探下Alvin口風啦!知佢點諗你都一件好事啊!」583Please respect copyright.PENANAwoE1723PZr
Dan見到Ivy一臉死氣沉沉地樣子,馬上轉用一個輕快的口吻說著,希望從而令Ivy振作一點。583Please respect copyright.PENANA9Cs3Q8RZXZ
而Ivy聽到了Dan的建議後,馬上想起了先前Laura的一句:「唔試過又點知得唔得呢?」583Please respect copyright.PENANASCzNU33iWO
隨即也重燃心中的希望之火,一邊點頭一邊把一切都託付到Dan手上……583Please respect copyright.PENANALYPoJiylzV
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數天後,Dan看準了放學時Alvin獨自離開課室的時機。583Please respect copyright.PENANA9pAErLibPJ
馬上裝作想與Alvin一同放學而上前與他搭訕。583Please respect copyright.PENANA7xOJkPEkv5
「Alvin,不如今日一齊走啊!」583Please respect copyright.PENANAo74An6hbi8
「少有喎,你今日唔喺同Francis一齊走。」583Please respect copyright.PENANACgRK31RuFM
「因為……Francis比人罰留堂啊!」583Please respect copyright.PENANAZhORj0GpeR
但此刻Francis其實是在班房裡與其他男生共同挑戰著手機遊戲中的關卡……583Please respect copyright.PENANAZBlq2UI0ZB
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接著,Dan與Alvin二人一邊聊著一邊下樓梯。583Please respect copyright.PENANAwJNN4r7V2g
聊起兩三句後,Dan也開門見山問道:「Alvin,你喺2E有無鍾意嘅人啊?」583Please respect copyright.PENANA8aIJTtbcHc
隨即二人也站在了原地。583Please respect copyright.PENANAJVdR3IlcCI
而此時,Ivy也剛好走到了樓梯的轉角處,聆聽到了Alvin接下的回答。583Please respect copyright.PENANAASfv8Nn1ar
「無喎。」Alvin的這一個回答,簡單而直接。583Please respect copyright.PENANAWJTwGpnKta
不過卻同時使Dan愣住了,而偷聽著的Ivy更感到失望起來。583Please respect copyright.PENANATQEo5fp8v7
看來她的幻想,都確實只是幻想。583Please respect copyright.PENANAhqmoVnfJmT
並如同泡沫一樣,在一瞬間破掉化為無物。583Please respect copyright.PENANAR0bY1WxhQR
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「真喺無鍾意嘅人?」Dan再問道,並語氣變得質疑起來。583Please respect copyright.PENANAnrIWgfUzbs
不過Alvin仍然迅速而堅定地回答同樣的答案:「真喺無。」583Please respect copyright.PENANAUNLRDwMYUP
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這使得Dan不禁倒抽了一口氣。583Please respect copyright.PENANAFHz1yL1508
不過機智的他,也很快就想到第二條問題:「咁班入面有無邊個女仔吸引到你啊?」583Please respect copyright.PENANAgsKEkf9S5p
Alvin思考了一會,然後答:「嗯……無喎……」583Please respect copyright.PENANANebZJweQ4z
雖然答案一樣,但是這一次Alvin的回答,卻從中感覺到一絲猶如。583Please respect copyright.PENANAbzhwcOFQAY
於是Dan也捉住了這份遲疑,再問:「真喺無?你諗真啲……例如Ivy呢?」583Please respect copyright.PENANAEkfeHiSp7i
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在轉角處的Ivy聽到了自己的名字後,也意會到Dan終於把與Alvin的對話引導到自己身上。583Please respect copyright.PENANAxnG6YbdAxy
她隨即地把雙手放到胸口上,希望能藉此壓抑住活蹦亂跳的心。583Please respect copyright.PENANA0RilJjswgP
因為對於接下來Alvin的回答,她確實感到額外的緊張起來。583Please respect copyright.PENANA33Z8YjVbJ5
可是,她接著聽到答案是……583Please respect copyright.PENANAAItGRNXBs8
「Ivy啊……無咩特別感覺喎,咪普通同學咁。」583Please respect copyright.PENANAhodQYijFE4
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聽到Alvin的回答,Ivy頓時如同石化了一樣,目瞪口呆地站在原地。583Please respect copyright.PENANAEPwUucR2W1
連此刻站在Alvin對面的Dan也瞬間感到愕然起來。583Please respect copyright.PENANAwQDhTV7Lbu
或許他自己也猜想不到,這就是Alvin的答案。583Please respect copyright.PENANAxEL5IaoA5I
不過,感到有點不知所揩的Dan,也靈機一動,立即再問:583Please respect copyright.PENANACy6EsRVrmo
「如果Ivy喺鍾意你呢?」583Please respect copyright.PENANAn8Y5QKLagb
他選擇不再轉彎抹角,而是斬釘截鐵地道出了Ivy的心意。583Please respect copyright.PENANArV2tcYOfRa
但其實他都猜想不到,原來Ivy一直偷聽著。583Please respect copyright.PENANAHcFUkj0XSt
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然而,Alvin隨即也皺起眉頭說:「就算佢鍾意我,都唔代表我要鍾意佢。感情呢啲嘢講feel架嘛,如果要迎合佢嘅心意,而勉強自己,我做唔到。」583Please respect copyright.PENANAF4RwkPP2H0
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正當Alvin說完這句話後,他們的上方也突然傳來了一聲急促的腳步聲。583Please respect copyright.PENANAG7DHkZMrAt
於是Alvin好奇地探頭瞄了一眼上方,並發現沒有人。583Please respect copyright.PENANAM0t4LgqkqD
接著也扭過頭來繼續與Dan談論剛剛的話題。583Please respect copyright.PENANAZKWTy0E1yS
然而,他並不知道,剛才腳步聲的主人,正是Ivy。583Please respect copyright.PENANAaNRZcebFFM
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而與此同時,Ivy也已經淚流滿面,走到了學校的某處。583Please respect copyright.PENANAyPmfQOGMuj
孤單一人坐在角落,蜷縮著身體,雙臂抱住雙膝,痛哭起來。583Please respect copyright.PENANAXoQyEBrVTu
她的哭聲,無比悲哀及淒慘,如同心被刀割一樣。583Please respect copyright.PENANAOlAlcf7wG6
看來這份傷痛,將永遠刻印在她的心中,成為一條永遠無法修補的疤痕。583Please respect copyright.PENANAe09itG7TCk
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「就算佢鍾意我,都唔代表我要鍾意佢」583Please respect copyright.PENANAuZ89Yb1Fcq
直至深夜時,Ivy再次因為回想起Alvin的這一句話,而驚醒過來。583Please respect copyright.PENANADMJcmfpC0S
她隨即慢慢地離開了床,並坐在一旁的梳妝桌。583Please respect copyright.PENANAt73NScQjrc
然後,打開了桌燈,看著鏡中雙眼通紅、神情疲倦的自己。583Please respect copyright.PENANAF9eb6ElE4v
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接著再回想起Alvin的說話,以及這三個月來自己的所做一切。583Please respect copyright.PENANAklQjcHbHwL
她不禁冷笑起來,隨後打開桌上文具盒,拿出了一把美術刀。583Please respect copyright.PENANAxlrCGaJ81j
伸出冰冷的刀鋒,對著自己的手臀……583Please respect copyright.PENANA9sUhqCND8a
「嚓—」583Please respect copyright.PENANA7FdPCJ59bM
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「懷著多大的期望,就會迎來同等的失望,甚至最終帶來更深的絕望」583Please respect copyright.PENANAizKLetNynr
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作者在此鄭重聲明:583Please respect copyright.PENANAYdyeW0UT4P
𠝹手只是劇情的一部份,並且是虛構情節。583Please respect copyright.PENANAnX7qF6iHSC
讀者們請潔身自愛,切勿嘗試!!!583Please respect copyright.PENANAVFo0ytSnh6
無論遇上多麼不如意的事情,都切勿做出任何試圖傷害身體的行為。583Please respect copyright.PENANA3awBHp7Mjo
若發現事情未如理想,無法獨力承受,請向身邊的人如父母及師長尋求協助。583Please respect copyright.PENANA7yyXFc2BQL
切勿將傷害身體來發洩情緒一事合理化,請各位潔身自愛。583Please respect copyright.PENANAcpMDcegu4Z
愛人前先要懂得愛錫自己。583Please respect copyright.PENANAmKrMlzoWds
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作者閒聊:583Please respect copyright.PENANAQ240VqqHbY
過去阿侑的一句:「就算佢鍾意我,都唔代表我要鍾意佢。感情呢啲嘢講feel架嘛,如果要迎合佢嘅心意,而勉強自己,我做唔到。」583Please respect copyright.PENANALBKWgwUPts
完全是在打著現在自己的臉……583Please respect copyright.PENANAu8LPNvwyk7