第一二八章:畢業營(七)444Please respect copyright.PENANAo00rqmAcna
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一聲喊道下,我便把Mandy拉到懷中緊抱著。444Please respect copyright.PENANAeD3paAhYHt
已經不知道,這個舉動到底是理性控制,還是感性驅動了……444Please respect copyright.PENANAuIvSQMcNRw
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不過在我懷中的Mandy,也在一陣錯愕過後。444Please respect copyright.PENANAdlEXLAZzux
便輕聲地說:「做咩咁突然攬住人……」444Please respect copyright.PENANAGxhakVNZ68
「唔知……我都唔知點解自己會突然咁做。」我仍然摟抱著她說道。444Please respect copyright.PENANAlhr3Mk90f9
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而我們唯持了這個姿勢大約半分鐘後,她也再說:「一陣比其他人睇到啊……」444Please respect copyright.PENANADrJYrtLxEL
聽到她這這番說話,我才下意識過來,現在還是在營區內,隨時都會有同級的同學或老師出現。444Please respect copyright.PENANAnA45ZgCIIm
因此,我便很快把她推離懷中,並說:「對……對唔住。」444Please respect copyright.PENANA3tXMjfBrBV
但她沒有責怪我突然的舉動,反而是臉頰泛起一點紅地盯著地板看。444Please respect copyright.PENANA185txHRN4u
我想,突然被人抱入懷中,有這個反應也不奇怪。444Please respect copyright.PENANADKDl3rllgp
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「不如我哋去個邊企?」444Please respect copyright.PENANAbOdvOnQy5G
發現氣氛變得有點尷尬起來的我,便指向了近河畔邊的平台。444Please respect copyright.PENANAUe5A8uPqdj
她抬頭看一看我指向的方向,沉默了一會。444Please respect copyright.PENANAjVwjmoNsJy
接著也少少聲地在嘴邊說:「好。」444Please respect copyright.PENANA9m4X8i1sMD
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隨即我們便一同往平台的方向前去,不過路途上卻沒有任何傾談。444Please respect copyright.PENANA95y8y01Pta
畢竟,現在我腦中想著的,都只是她那一句「道別」。444Please respect copyright.PENANAZYNxSP1TDC
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直到我們來到平台,並雙雙靠在欄杆上。444Please respect copyright.PENANA5IxmqmuEzs
她也開口說:「聖誕之後,我就會翻番澳洲讀書。」444Please respect copyright.PENANAlWJZrL1wyg
「喺啊……」我竟然比想像中表現得平淡。444Please respect copyright.PENANAHNP2vhM6Zi
而她對於的我反應,似乎都感到有點意外。444Please respect copyright.PENANAg6myU0oPdP
於是好奇地望向我,隨即我都一同與她對視起來。444Please respect copyright.PENANAczpAGpsT77
「阿侑你嘅反應比我想像中冷靜喎……啊,唔喺。你啱先都無啦啦攬住我。」444Please respect copyright.PENANAPE0HK9fHrq
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其實我的反應會如此鎮定,可能是因為我早就猜想到會有這一天的來臨。444Please respect copyright.PENANAHltJxV3PYa
始終,她已經不是第一次離開我了。444Please respect copyright.PENANAlsDjP6SThJ
三年前,她因為移民而前往了澳洲。444Please respect copyright.PENANAK3pUsnXrfk
可是在一年後又回來了與我再次相遇。444Please respect copyright.PENANAogIScTuTgm
但是她的家人仍然在澳洲,這樣代表,終有一天,她還是要離開……444Please respect copyright.PENANA7iLf3m5p4G
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「點解又突然翻去讀書?」444Please respect copyright.PENANA3c9kCiLCt9
她沒有即時回答,而是扭過頭去看著前方一片漆黑的河畔。444Please respect copyright.PENANApC9IDPkkO2
「本來都諗住考埋DSE先,但屋企人都希望我唔好考,而喺返去讀多兩年high school,然後直接駁入U。」444Please respect copyright.PENANASQOn12ElKb
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聽到她這樣說道,我都瞬間理解到為何她的家人會作出如此的抉擇。444Please respect copyright.PENANAdmlAbEE80b
畢竟論教育,香港的教育實在太過落後,只專注在菁英培育上。444Please respect copyright.PENANAZpE1jMY4pi
然後又推行現在的「一試定生死」方式,來區分能力高與低的學生。444Please respect copyright.PENANAJpYjyYa4In
分分鐘考入大學還比在麻將桌上以海底撈月食糊更難呢。444Please respect copyright.PENANAAzwhX9a4Bn
換做是我的話,都會選擇在海外升學。444Please respect copyright.PENANA3EvqCpAJU4
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在她的話後,我也一同望向眼前漆黑的河畔。444Please respect copyright.PENANA65iU0pSuss
頓時覺得眼前的景色,就如同不久的未來一樣。444Please respect copyright.PENANAzmCM9z1sKb
現在晚上看著,只會覺得一團漆黑,根本捉摸不清眼前的事物。444Please respect copyright.PENANAPmji5OjzBf
換做早上看著的話,卻會清楚地看到河畔上所有的景物。444Please respect copyright.PENANA2oSgUYb11k
人,會因為一時的迷茫,而失去向前的動力。444Please respect copyright.PENANAqYgh1QEv7R
但又會因為熟悉而感到舒適,並最後失去了探索的動力。444Please respect copyright.PENANAF6e0OT295C
到底是選擇留在舒適圈,還是離開,都將會引致不同的未來。444Please respect copyright.PENANAJql2YPxOtU
而我們往往擔憂的,就只是那個未來到底適不適合自己。444Please respect copyright.PENANAjfPUAP0NW6
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Mandy發現我沒有回應,於是又再說起來:「所以今次真喺要再見啦。」444Please respect copyright.PENANAh5yMbJ5ApK
她又再一次提起了「再見」這一回事。444Please respect copyright.PENANAW5Rdbbhthv
但這次我並沒有像剛一樣立即把她拉到懷中,而是說出心中話:444Please respect copyright.PENANAAAqhzwAcxS
「老實講啊,其實我唔想你走。」444Please respect copyright.PENANAHg5n1vb2GV
「我知啊,啱先你攬住我個陣,我聽到啊。」她在話後便微笑起來。444Please respect copyright.PENANAkVfo15cLss
感覺就像在回味剛才的一刻一樣。444Please respect copyright.PENANAfn7iuHVJ9P
但接著又再問:「點解咁唔想我走?」444Please respect copyright.PENANA8KIgyogyxL
「因為我自私囉。」我直接說道。444Please respect copyright.PENANAOICHQLb4ta
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然而,她又沒有立即回答,而是轉過身來背靠在欄杆上。444Please respect copyright.PENANAcs0RWTMQtK
「唔可以自私喺我到架。」444Please respect copyright.PENANAamVuIwKNIy
「點解啊?」我一臉好奇地反問道。444Please respect copyright.PENANAPlEdCeKcoC
「因為……我唔值得你自私囉!」444Please respect copyright.PENANAy9B5SQK9Xk
她這樣一說,使我愣住了。444Please respect copyright.PENANACjF5baKZF7
但是正當我開口時,她又說:「仲有其他人值得你自私。」444Please respect copyright.PENANALGbCOi2nuI
「你嘅其他人喺指?」444Please respect copyright.PENANAwAFK4fpKeH
「Venus啊,Elaine啊,甚至可能喺你畢業之後識嘅人。」444Please respect copyright.PENANApbKjEWhBYc
在她提起Venus的名字時,我的腦海卻聯想起一段畫面。444Please respect copyright.PENANApshhQ1VROS
就是開學的那一天,她與Venus在6C班門前談天的時候。444Please respect copyright.PENANAQfbWFprzXX
因此我也不禁問:「愛瑩喺咪一早知架啦?」444Please respect copyright.PENANAzWhDH0b9b6
她點頭,然後望向夜空:「班入面有幾個女仔都知。其實我都諗住差唔多時間同大家講架啦。」444Please respect copyright.PENANADU8V74mA2M
即使與全班說,大家都知道後,都是改變不了她要離開的事實。444Please respect copyright.PENANAuHy61Dzj7R
而我此刻想對她就只是:「比我……」444Please respect copyright.PENANAAbRL1gfd1N
「時間都唔早啦,不如我哋翻去啦。」444Please respect copyright.PENANArjnKkQHb23
她突然的一句打斷了我的說話。444Please respect copyright.PENANAerWdYmarOQ
是巧合?還是刻意呢?444Please respect copyright.PENANAILwE9YEDbC
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並且她在提議後,只是雙眼默默地凝視著我。444Please respect copyright.PENANAAskqWUVGul
我隨即只能吞下還在口中的說話,點頭回應:444Please respect copyright.PENANAgs2KI8xPER
「都好。」444Please respect copyright.PENANA0Y5Sxut3fn
答應了的這一刻也代表著,我們的話題,將會在此結束……444Please respect copyright.PENANAKdw5SskkiI
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片刻後,我帶著複雜的心情返回了宿舍內。444Please respect copyright.PENANA9gDxbDYP7K
並在打開門的一刻,就見Harriet拿著毛巾及衣服在大廳的沙發上看著電視。444Please respect copyright.PENANABo6RfMzbDv
「散完步翻嚟啦?」Harriet看見我的出現,便立即問道。444Please respect copyright.PENANAAjT5WcJhww
而我只是坐到他的旁邊,並靠在沙發上嘆氣起來。444Please respect copyright.PENANAG3n4kYSeYq
「唉,感情真喺好複雜呢。」444Please respect copyright.PENANA4uMZ3ibA0p
他先是愣住了,但是也一同靠向後,並輕笑了一聲說:444Please respect copyright.PENANAqApPGMxKEa
「喺啊,感情真喺好複雜架。」444Please respect copyright.PENANAbv8qhSK1tn
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「想放手,但又想捉緊,真複雜」444Please respect copyright.PENANA5k2C3a34gO