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「你真喺Alvin啊？」571Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDC8oo6S4C8
那名女生仍然一臉難以置信地問著我。571Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBGtFuRo4JS
其實此刻，在我心一樣徘徊著同樣的問題「你真喺Ivy啊」。571Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgMMdon540W
但是對於記性好的我來說，當然知道她就是Ivy了。571Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ36iLbBO30p
雖然她把過往的長髮修剪為及肩短髮，並開始佩帶起眼鏡。571Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡu3Y0xjtCtd
然而她那張熟悉的臉孔，仍然存在於腦海之中。571Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpWadVrbYPQ
最糟糕的就是……我在一瞬間也回憶起，她哭泣著的容貌。571Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡK6qMbPhZZx
亦都是多年前，我最後一次看見她的時候……571Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2gNvj0cEiX
571Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2SLOxfkd6H
「我哋好耐無見啦！有無……有無三年啦？」571Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPr1ZmKoU1N
Ivy在一陣驚訝過後，便隨即臉帶笑容說道。571Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡf7At8rjbNz
再見時是哭著，現在重遇卻是笑著，是多麼矛盾的事情……571Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHeXSdpFrsJ
571Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjlZilZNJOk
「正確嚟講應該喺四年啦。」我回應她。571Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjYy3EYvyUX
而她在聽到我的更正後，也立即數著手指：「一、二、三、四……喺喎！原來已經四年囉，嘻嘻！」571Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpucWLUOfLX
看著她傻笑起來的樣子，我的心中卻逐漸產生起一種感覺。571Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOLZq3xV34E
一種難以形容的內疚感。571Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbb0nPg7xfM
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而在她的一陣傻笑過後，她似乎也察覺到了我並沒有多說話。571Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5JpBw6zIOj
於是她便接著再說：「Alvin，你成個人成熟咗。」571Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeSnoQOh94W
「喺……喺咩。」我稍為避開了她的目光說道。571Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4LV0fu2ERN
隨即視線也落在她的長袖衣上。571Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqkbiFxwWjY
明明現在是夏天，外面三十多度，但她還是穿著長袖。571Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡV2CBC1sxDe
是用來遮掩著手臂嗎？571Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhotlAHUHez
是用來遮掩著手臂上的傷痕嗎？571Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGxYl94u4R5
是用來遮掩著手臂上因為我而弄出來的傷痕嗎？571Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8ChpC9b70k
單是回想起昨晚Mandy所說的畫面，我便不禁倒抽了一口氣。571Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4trm7arfBD
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「Alvin，你介意緊以前嘅事啊？」571Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuy5yb4SdBe
Ivy很快也發現了我的目光落在她的衣袖上，於是隨即便把衣袖卷起。571Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRiXphOfykx
展露了手臂上的數條疤痕。571Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIpuHyPepKW
這一瞬間，我的心涼了。571Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYSfG5L1EaI
原來這就是我當時的決定，而導致的後果了嗎……571Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmiQ9blxq5I
我沉默了數秒，接著也開口說：「對唔住。」571Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡB3kPxUDKQu
道歉，因為當時我傷害了她的心。571Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGC9FlgYnLi
571Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSrfgwQzM5X
「哎呀！做咩道歉啦你？」Ivy立即愕然地說道。571Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5e2AeoRyRT
我沒有回應她，只是繼續沉默著。571Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEdFa5W8YPV
使得她隨即也皺眉頭起來，並思考了數秒後說：「睇嚟Alvin你真喺好介意以前嘅事……真喺好對唔住！」571Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9m7qRVhpUg
然而在她話後，她卻立即向我九十度鞠躬道歉起來。571Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMvF3FpQaZx
這次輪到我感到錯愕起來並立即說：「做……做咩突然道歉啦？！」571Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡls4KWIQjEf
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「因為當年我一時嘅衝動，搞到Alvin你原來一直都介懷於心！真喺好對唔住！」Ivy繼續面朝地板說著。571Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuStqa7qrtU
使得我都開始有點不知所措起來，只能不斷揮動手臂，示意她快抬起頭來。571Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaQtmaDmciA
571Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdq4vBhIj2b
於是Ivy也快速地把頭抬來，然後雙眼注視著我說：「如果喺一年前嘅我，我諗依家一定喊哂口。不過依家嘅我已經對一切都釋懷，所以希望Alvin都唔好因為當年嘅事而怪責自己！」571Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbJWFD0bt8Z
「我自責緊……？」我疑惑地重複她最後一句話。571Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡj2pQQbyzoX
而她只是隨即指向我並說：「我識少少心理學架！所以咪睇得出你自責緊！」571Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWdXHCIZqMk
是嗎，原來我一直都在自責著……571Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡD0tjJ0ToBU
571Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhFzUvAXEuZ
「其實講真啊，我都估唔到我哋會咁樣相遇翻，突然之間覺得所有嘢都好似喺琴日發生咁。」571Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuceP14uwaV
「如果當時我唔拒……」當我打算開口說道的時候，Ivy卻再說：「唔可以。」571Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlOHxMyFJax
「吓？咩唔可以？」我瞬間愣住。571Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡavIqukfv6K
而她只是搖一搖頭，並說：「唔可以因為要迎合其他人，而強迫自己失去咗自我。」571Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡm267dHEuQz
571Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYopjVqDnoZ
她的這句話如同子彈一樣，一下子打穿了我的大腦。571Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGjar8zODb5
她說得沒有錯，我一直以來都是在扮演著一個只會迎合其他人的角色。571Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxnxuQSMgxu
571Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡO29lorJhDl
「以前我一直都會諗，如果Alvin你無拒絕我，究竟之後會點。」她說道。571Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡA9KHHlC5PF
而我思考了一會後，便說：「我哋會一齊咗，跟住就唔會發生之後嘅事？」571Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡT7gew3bb4O
「喺，我哋喺會一齊，但喺一切都只喺因為你唔想hurt我，而強迫自己同我一齊，咁樣嘅話，我哋根本就唔會過得開心！」571Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtga4fI5zZ5
她說著的時候，語氣明顯變得有點激動起來。571Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnb3xheLouM
但她仍然繼續說道：「咁所以，唔好再因為我嘅事而怪責自己啦！我依家過得好好，識咗一班好室友，佢哋仲教識咗我好多唔會嘅正向觀念。」571Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡk6dHMEOaTl
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而在她的一番言論後，我便合上嘴巴，並閉上雙眼，大腦開始思考起來。571Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡApN5gi83TS
因為當初Ivy的事件，我變得開始只會迎合他人。571Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0Kqp2gD9bB
後來與Mandy交往後，我開始執著於承諾。571Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeifiSoRFga
結識依玲及Venus後，我仍然只是一直在配合著她們對我的心意而行。571Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2VhqEXHqOh
一時是好朋友、一時是前度、一時是曖昧對象。571Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJDQwjMBLE7
到底我的真正想法是甚麼？571Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡH5Lsqk3LhC
而為什麼，我又會落得如此的地步呢……571Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDnOP6hvFlM
571Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsUB4XFx5rl
想著想著，我便不自覺地冷笑了一下。571Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZjdMn7hNFA
而Ivy也隨即說：「所以希望你唔好再自責啦。」571Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDqE4115zba
我慢慢地張開眼睛，然後看著她說：「多謝你，我諗我諗通咗啲嘢啦。」571Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtFIlrP29a5
其實一直迷失著的人，原來就是我自己。571Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFKD2VVPcSi
571Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡS7GYkGC4UP
「見翻你，可能喺種緣份，喺上天安排我哋再相遇翻，然後解開心結。」571Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzkC4tjaaQA
「心結？你唔喺話你釋懷咗啦咩？」我好奇問道。571Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNnlOyXnNkE
但Ivy接著卻突然面紅耳赤起來，並說話變得有點口吃起來：「對你喺釋懷……但對另一個人唔喺……」571Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxxY3ZLnEuh
571Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9zTzqtxwQG
「喂！學生妹原來你喺到啊！」571Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlDo0Dqkie1
此時，從我的後方傳來了一把男聲。571Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNjGzi71Gae
於是我便立刻扭頭過去查看，發現原來是剛剛那位受我邀請完成任務的Youtuber以及他的另外兩位朋友。571Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJAerK8BVvb
而從他剛才的對話推斷，他們應該是認識Ivy的……571Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQVnoyYP3oh
莫非Ivy所說的室友就是他們嗎？！571Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkIKaMNm2i8
571Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7ytC33fIDP
接下來，其中一名男生更走到我們的身旁時，並稍為打量了一下我。571Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwRnpU2LAgE
然後就一臉恍然地向Ivy說：「哦！原來就喺佢！」571Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcfNHXc813Q
「嗯？」我立刻擺出了一個疑惑樣子。571Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1yWZU1UMER
甚麼原來就是我？571Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSPvzVjbcSI
571Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡByM3oU04Fl
然而，那名男生並沒有理會我的反應，只是繼續與Ivy說：571Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEnubEJOsvk
「你要講嘅嘢喺咪講哂啦？」571Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKoSJDS94IP
「講哂啦！」Ivy立即回應對方，並表情瞬間變得更害羞起來。571Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzv3N6BXhE3
而我對於他們的對話，仍然感到萬分不解。571Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOyhny0mfQL
但是那名Youtuber也隨即向我說：「我哋幫你哋做完任務啦！記得subscribe同like多啲我啊！」571Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeERoGpC9dV
接著，那三名男生便與Ivy一同向我作了一個簡易的道別。571Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPqMX3Ynfv7
然後就轉身從圖書館的另一個出口離開了。571Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡesoEQAsIYa
571Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNMGBj7PxNe
與此同時，也只留下了完全摸不清頭緒的我並自言自起來：571Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1hYuKRbPZ0
「到底講緊咩啦……」571Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQyjiMpRceI
不過既然今天能重遇Ivy，並得知她至今還過得挺好的。571Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoB2Ry7qQyQ
我想……應該是時候要放過一下自己了。571Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFLhXY6QxCw
當年的內疚，應該都會逐漸消散了。571Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMVBUhNbm3j
這算是解決了我人生其中一個遺憾了吧？571Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCpy8vXz4Pm
571Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3XmxhCkh0x
但是，在解開了過往的困惑同時。571Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡi32rPNeVew
也提醒了我，在未來，我將再次需要作出選擇。571Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcohJdz1lFT
而且還是三個那麼多……571Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ82TVLS5sSf
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「只有釋懷，才能夠走更遠的路」571Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMvuJBJe0GA
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作者閒聊：連動篇總算告一段落了。在不久將來，Ivy還是會再次出現喔，不過那已經是第二個故事了~571Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXsK4E6o7vW
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