第一二八章:畢業營(七)568Please respect copyright.PENANAqeQVsHTE3U
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一聲喊道下,我便把Mandy拉到懷中緊抱著。568Please respect copyright.PENANAzDHnUBlYgy
已經不知道,這個舉動到底是理性控制,還是感性驅動了……568Please respect copyright.PENANA2gtXByNTXF
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不過在我懷中的Mandy,也在一陣錯愕過後。568Please respect copyright.PENANA7p4oKJJw5P
便輕聲地說:「做咩咁突然攬住人……」568Please respect copyright.PENANArubRXxX3k3
「唔知……我都唔知點解自己會突然咁做。」我仍然摟抱著她說道。568Please respect copyright.PENANAwe33o8XsJt
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而我們唯持了這個姿勢大約半分鐘後,她也再說:「一陣比其他人睇到啊……」568Please respect copyright.PENANAgdWQDrRfyJ
聽到她這這番說話,我才下意識過來,現在還是在營區內,隨時都會有同級的同學或老師出現。568Please respect copyright.PENANASGBFHzLQyI
因此,我便很快把她推離懷中,並說:「對……對唔住。」568Please respect copyright.PENANAQnlWzzLmAn
但她沒有責怪我突然的舉動,反而是臉頰泛起一點紅地盯著地板看。568Please respect copyright.PENANAr95a374H6u
我想,突然被人抱入懷中,有這個反應也不奇怪。568Please respect copyright.PENANA31ErtPn6iJ
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「不如我哋去個邊企?」568Please respect copyright.PENANAH4xI6g3VTZ
發現氣氛變得有點尷尬起來的我,便指向了近河畔邊的平台。568Please respect copyright.PENANA9ErWrnyfdR
她抬頭看一看我指向的方向,沉默了一會。568Please respect copyright.PENANAAwKrCx2Avl
接著也少少聲地在嘴邊說:「好。」568Please respect copyright.PENANA97WnHjihLC
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隨即我們便一同往平台的方向前去,不過路途上卻沒有任何傾談。568Please respect copyright.PENANAMOfhfpPjLv
畢竟,現在我腦中想著的,都只是她那一句「道別」。568Please respect copyright.PENANAPQwuszY0Vu
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直到我們來到平台,並雙雙靠在欄杆上。568Please respect copyright.PENANAUbrh3IURWv
她也開口說:「聖誕之後,我就會翻番澳洲讀書。」568Please respect copyright.PENANAai0TgN7Ay2
「喺啊……」我竟然比想像中表現得平淡。568Please respect copyright.PENANA7Bt4Q62Mjn
而她對於的我反應,似乎都感到有點意外。568Please respect copyright.PENANAR6x8oLFJht
於是好奇地望向我,隨即我都一同與她對視起來。568Please respect copyright.PENANACsPZI5H3p6
「阿侑你嘅反應比我想像中冷靜喎……啊,唔喺。你啱先都無啦啦攬住我。」568Please respect copyright.PENANAHNM0pU6Z1V
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其實我的反應會如此鎮定,可能是因為我早就猜想到會有這一天的來臨。568Please respect copyright.PENANAwqrskTiB4H
始終,她已經不是第一次離開我了。568Please respect copyright.PENANANPWdhJMdGj
三年前,她因為移民而前往了澳洲。568Please respect copyright.PENANAbCm7gUSuXN
可是在一年後又回來了與我再次相遇。568Please respect copyright.PENANAz8EDQoXoTi
但是她的家人仍然在澳洲,這樣代表,終有一天,她還是要離開……568Please respect copyright.PENANAcxEf3UVFW1
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「點解又突然翻去讀書?」568Please respect copyright.PENANAlJAlj6k1qY
她沒有即時回答,而是扭過頭去看著前方一片漆黑的河畔。568Please respect copyright.PENANA2Q49cF4qII
「本來都諗住考埋DSE先,但屋企人都希望我唔好考,而喺返去讀多兩年high school,然後直接駁入U。」568Please respect copyright.PENANASlzqDWe5L5
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聽到她這樣說道,我都瞬間理解到為何她的家人會作出如此的抉擇。568Please respect copyright.PENANAjW3aE0EiOf
畢竟論教育,香港的教育實在太過落後,只專注在菁英培育上。568Please respect copyright.PENANA8VZkh41VTk
然後又推行現在的「一試定生死」方式,來區分能力高與低的學生。568Please respect copyright.PENANA0HjNbGsQY3
分分鐘考入大學還比在麻將桌上以海底撈月食糊更難呢。568Please respect copyright.PENANATbHLAxQGKj
換做是我的話,都會選擇在海外升學。568Please respect copyright.PENANAQnRMB89g4i
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在她的話後,我也一同望向眼前漆黑的河畔。568Please respect copyright.PENANA47zm3zX0eD
頓時覺得眼前的景色,就如同不久的未來一樣。568Please respect copyright.PENANAVxfrjgLKTa
現在晚上看著,只會覺得一團漆黑,根本捉摸不清眼前的事物。568Please respect copyright.PENANAbslER2GhEG
換做早上看著的話,卻會清楚地看到河畔上所有的景物。568Please respect copyright.PENANAeI4j1S8czt
人,會因為一時的迷茫,而失去向前的動力。568Please respect copyright.PENANANHDCX51kkC
但又會因為熟悉而感到舒適,並最後失去了探索的動力。568Please respect copyright.PENANAkqTFrY5SZM
到底是選擇留在舒適圈,還是離開,都將會引致不同的未來。568Please respect copyright.PENANAoqAMEPr5Yh
而我們往往擔憂的,就只是那個未來到底適不適合自己。568Please respect copyright.PENANAGKtJSnIIyk
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Mandy發現我沒有回應,於是又再說起來:「所以今次真喺要再見啦。」568Please respect copyright.PENANAjNNjeO7x6U
她又再一次提起了「再見」這一回事。568Please respect copyright.PENANAX0MOJ7qzwH
但這次我並沒有像剛一樣立即把她拉到懷中,而是說出心中話:568Please respect copyright.PENANAlF19j2lvbk
「老實講啊,其實我唔想你走。」568Please respect copyright.PENANAz684R5UJv0
「我知啊,啱先你攬住我個陣,我聽到啊。」她在話後便微笑起來。568Please respect copyright.PENANA00Xq3Nk7NV
感覺就像在回味剛才的一刻一樣。568Please respect copyright.PENANAMlFOhNbmip
但接著又再問:「點解咁唔想我走?」568Please respect copyright.PENANA9uz20rG4Bd
「因為我自私囉。」我直接說道。568Please respect copyright.PENANAsVgtQLamHc
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然而,她又沒有立即回答,而是轉過身來背靠在欄杆上。568Please respect copyright.PENANAerRMJpYQGf
「唔可以自私喺我到架。」568Please respect copyright.PENANAV71iKS2nRd
「點解啊?」我一臉好奇地反問道。568Please respect copyright.PENANAjhAIzuII2p
「因為……我唔值得你自私囉!」568Please respect copyright.PENANA2txMJAyo3G
她這樣一說,使我愣住了。568Please respect copyright.PENANAjEz667kVcT
但是正當我開口時,她又說:「仲有其他人值得你自私。」568Please respect copyright.PENANAQgx8E8IRr5
「你嘅其他人喺指?」568Please respect copyright.PENANAdp432Dxkt9
「Venus啊,Elaine啊,甚至可能喺你畢業之後識嘅人。」568Please respect copyright.PENANA8y5CjegDVL
在她提起Venus的名字時,我的腦海卻聯想起一段畫面。568Please respect copyright.PENANAzAchyQCkma
就是開學的那一天,她與Venus在6C班門前談天的時候。568Please respect copyright.PENANAoOQ2f8e4b3
因此我也不禁問:「愛瑩喺咪一早知架啦?」568Please respect copyright.PENANAeUef3T9Tbt
她點頭,然後望向夜空:「班入面有幾個女仔都知。其實我都諗住差唔多時間同大家講架啦。」568Please respect copyright.PENANAtPyl8G8zor
即使與全班說,大家都知道後,都是改變不了她要離開的事實。568Please respect copyright.PENANA9xNTmSYBRu
而我此刻想對她就只是:「比我……」568Please respect copyright.PENANAnTO2WoVFdb
「時間都唔早啦,不如我哋翻去啦。」568Please respect copyright.PENANA3wh3skfiKB
她突然的一句打斷了我的說話。568Please respect copyright.PENANA0UnpaSXt2q
是巧合?還是刻意呢?568Please respect copyright.PENANANkdSA5echP
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並且她在提議後,只是雙眼默默地凝視著我。568Please respect copyright.PENANAqJ7OoSXhWL
我隨即只能吞下還在口中的說話,點頭回應:568Please respect copyright.PENANAhB5IucOg7a
「都好。」568Please respect copyright.PENANAJGWeDXig18
答應了的這一刻也代表著,我們的話題,將會在此結束……568Please respect copyright.PENANAsI2teGBaN0
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片刻後,我帶著複雜的心情返回了宿舍內。568Please respect copyright.PENANAkEUWXs5OVQ
並在打開門的一刻,就見Harriet拿著毛巾及衣服在大廳的沙發上看著電視。568Please respect copyright.PENANAmyWe3aGdND
「散完步翻嚟啦?」Harriet看見我的出現,便立即問道。568Please respect copyright.PENANA7uRrZXFTx3
而我只是坐到他的旁邊,並靠在沙發上嘆氣起來。568Please respect copyright.PENANAOC7o6tmofH
「唉,感情真喺好複雜呢。」568Please respect copyright.PENANAo52P40Rg4a
他先是愣住了,但是也一同靠向後,並輕笑了一聲說:568Please respect copyright.PENANA1fuhUk9VhP
「喺啊,感情真喺好複雜架。」568Please respect copyright.PENANA08Gc9NjKXc
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「想放手,但又想捉緊,真複雜」568Please respect copyright.PENANAVlqWtR88Un