第一二八章:畢業營(七)542Please respect copyright.PENANABbvpfv4Uzu
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一聲喊道下,我便把Mandy拉到懷中緊抱著。542Please respect copyright.PENANAUUMZdAuKKs
已經不知道,這個舉動到底是理性控制,還是感性驅動了……542Please respect copyright.PENANAyCwQLBBw3L
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不過在我懷中的Mandy,也在一陣錯愕過後。542Please respect copyright.PENANA6rlId93ec1
便輕聲地說:「做咩咁突然攬住人……」542Please respect copyright.PENANARNwlIU2Hti
「唔知……我都唔知點解自己會突然咁做。」我仍然摟抱著她說道。542Please respect copyright.PENANAVM8xDV8SBU
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而我們唯持了這個姿勢大約半分鐘後,她也再說:「一陣比其他人睇到啊……」542Please respect copyright.PENANAjCT1unjshB
聽到她這這番說話,我才下意識過來,現在還是在營區內,隨時都會有同級的同學或老師出現。542Please respect copyright.PENANAzpw5ZcPfBT
因此,我便很快把她推離懷中,並說:「對……對唔住。」542Please respect copyright.PENANAAuy5GtaZCa
但她沒有責怪我突然的舉動,反而是臉頰泛起一點紅地盯著地板看。542Please respect copyright.PENANAsfb6eu4yoM
我想,突然被人抱入懷中,有這個反應也不奇怪。542Please respect copyright.PENANALxOLYQdG27
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「不如我哋去個邊企?」542Please respect copyright.PENANA3WZTFQXqvW
發現氣氛變得有點尷尬起來的我,便指向了近河畔邊的平台。542Please respect copyright.PENANAmRWP84RuFf
她抬頭看一看我指向的方向,沉默了一會。542Please respect copyright.PENANA6URlZsxZXr
接著也少少聲地在嘴邊說:「好。」542Please respect copyright.PENANAYeiPIJ0DnT
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隨即我們便一同往平台的方向前去,不過路途上卻沒有任何傾談。542Please respect copyright.PENANAoR8YN8Yjd6
畢竟,現在我腦中想著的,都只是她那一句「道別」。542Please respect copyright.PENANAVBY4SWKSEA
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直到我們來到平台,並雙雙靠在欄杆上。542Please respect copyright.PENANALruR52RXMZ
她也開口說:「聖誕之後,我就會翻番澳洲讀書。」542Please respect copyright.PENANAhqXONueinB
「喺啊……」我竟然比想像中表現得平淡。542Please respect copyright.PENANAoSR6BEtcSI
而她對於的我反應,似乎都感到有點意外。542Please respect copyright.PENANAqNkt8X94gM
於是好奇地望向我,隨即我都一同與她對視起來。542Please respect copyright.PENANAUVGh5FVoDj
「阿侑你嘅反應比我想像中冷靜喎……啊,唔喺。你啱先都無啦啦攬住我。」542Please respect copyright.PENANA4ddzWYnQYb
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其實我的反應會如此鎮定,可能是因為我早就猜想到會有這一天的來臨。542Please respect copyright.PENANA7r3s23AL5T
始終,她已經不是第一次離開我了。542Please respect copyright.PENANAGoh3ObgEJo
三年前,她因為移民而前往了澳洲。542Please respect copyright.PENANArcqKZlMFbq
可是在一年後又回來了與我再次相遇。542Please respect copyright.PENANAOEgmszVamE
但是她的家人仍然在澳洲,這樣代表,終有一天,她還是要離開……542Please respect copyright.PENANA1qToFNaGXr
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「點解又突然翻去讀書?」542Please respect copyright.PENANAsGe13JerYc
她沒有即時回答,而是扭過頭去看著前方一片漆黑的河畔。542Please respect copyright.PENANAIf4v2C2lXq
「本來都諗住考埋DSE先,但屋企人都希望我唔好考,而喺返去讀多兩年high school,然後直接駁入U。」542Please respect copyright.PENANAv4urdfRWlz
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聽到她這樣說道,我都瞬間理解到為何她的家人會作出如此的抉擇。542Please respect copyright.PENANAULgpCWkjDB
畢竟論教育,香港的教育實在太過落後,只專注在菁英培育上。542Please respect copyright.PENANAYu1z9O0nyX
然後又推行現在的「一試定生死」方式,來區分能力高與低的學生。542Please respect copyright.PENANABspkW1stZI
分分鐘考入大學還比在麻將桌上以海底撈月食糊更難呢。542Please respect copyright.PENANADovTkX7UN8
換做是我的話,都會選擇在海外升學。542Please respect copyright.PENANAgIZN2fnfQj
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在她的話後,我也一同望向眼前漆黑的河畔。542Please respect copyright.PENANAyUg8bcN1oP
頓時覺得眼前的景色,就如同不久的未來一樣。542Please respect copyright.PENANAxXwQnohLjw
現在晚上看著,只會覺得一團漆黑,根本捉摸不清眼前的事物。542Please respect copyright.PENANAlyxU6AnxSv
換做早上看著的話,卻會清楚地看到河畔上所有的景物。542Please respect copyright.PENANAzTsj2Do7Gz
人,會因為一時的迷茫,而失去向前的動力。542Please respect copyright.PENANAogtuRbKcKC
但又會因為熟悉而感到舒適,並最後失去了探索的動力。542Please respect copyright.PENANAZQyhJ2ACmT
到底是選擇留在舒適圈,還是離開,都將會引致不同的未來。542Please respect copyright.PENANA5U14Ow4ONl
而我們往往擔憂的,就只是那個未來到底適不適合自己。542Please respect copyright.PENANAc8L2iMgr4B
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Mandy發現我沒有回應,於是又再說起來:「所以今次真喺要再見啦。」542Please respect copyright.PENANAa8mUyF2n2r
她又再一次提起了「再見」這一回事。542Please respect copyright.PENANA1XPcfD5G8d
但這次我並沒有像剛一樣立即把她拉到懷中,而是說出心中話:542Please respect copyright.PENANAbkFDoymjCz
「老實講啊,其實我唔想你走。」542Please respect copyright.PENANABfJ6IGZkj0
「我知啊,啱先你攬住我個陣,我聽到啊。」她在話後便微笑起來。542Please respect copyright.PENANAbXItgWLJ1i
感覺就像在回味剛才的一刻一樣。542Please respect copyright.PENANA8J8s2hZnnJ
但接著又再問:「點解咁唔想我走?」542Please respect copyright.PENANATkxjwUUpvS
「因為我自私囉。」我直接說道。542Please respect copyright.PENANAArbbbeUbFG
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然而,她又沒有立即回答,而是轉過身來背靠在欄杆上。542Please respect copyright.PENANACQjRufJYPz
「唔可以自私喺我到架。」542Please respect copyright.PENANAwf3G9RYZzs
「點解啊?」我一臉好奇地反問道。542Please respect copyright.PENANALWrO3qos2W
「因為……我唔值得你自私囉!」542Please respect copyright.PENANAOU1rfH60yo
她這樣一說,使我愣住了。542Please respect copyright.PENANArT6TMovKrw
但是正當我開口時,她又說:「仲有其他人值得你自私。」542Please respect copyright.PENANAIRStfXcxzk
「你嘅其他人喺指?」542Please respect copyright.PENANAgkEpPT7itG
「Venus啊,Elaine啊,甚至可能喺你畢業之後識嘅人。」542Please respect copyright.PENANAy8LfitpzyN
在她提起Venus的名字時,我的腦海卻聯想起一段畫面。542Please respect copyright.PENANAV4B6KICrXY
就是開學的那一天,她與Venus在6C班門前談天的時候。542Please respect copyright.PENANAA97ipVJ3F0
因此我也不禁問:「愛瑩喺咪一早知架啦?」542Please respect copyright.PENANAoZaeO9NQsU
她點頭,然後望向夜空:「班入面有幾個女仔都知。其實我都諗住差唔多時間同大家講架啦。」542Please respect copyright.PENANAG8qXceh7FL
即使與全班說,大家都知道後,都是改變不了她要離開的事實。542Please respect copyright.PENANARCBkvArNTL
而我此刻想對她就只是:「比我……」542Please respect copyright.PENANARN0gx1FUU6
「時間都唔早啦,不如我哋翻去啦。」542Please respect copyright.PENANABIIa6U43ZR
她突然的一句打斷了我的說話。542Please respect copyright.PENANAA4cRn6WCPV
是巧合?還是刻意呢?542Please respect copyright.PENANAfi2BKitgNu
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並且她在提議後,只是雙眼默默地凝視著我。542Please respect copyright.PENANAoLXR6OoGNM
我隨即只能吞下還在口中的說話,點頭回應:542Please respect copyright.PENANAGRNtDcs0dH
「都好。」542Please respect copyright.PENANAk2bSx53VYY
答應了的這一刻也代表著,我們的話題,將會在此結束……542Please respect copyright.PENANAS6vzdqKyqa
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片刻後,我帶著複雜的心情返回了宿舍內。542Please respect copyright.PENANArAIJmEB5AM
並在打開門的一刻,就見Harriet拿著毛巾及衣服在大廳的沙發上看著電視。542Please respect copyright.PENANAK8gDXXXMSR
「散完步翻嚟啦?」Harriet看見我的出現,便立即問道。542Please respect copyright.PENANAvbIyvFbVo4
而我只是坐到他的旁邊,並靠在沙發上嘆氣起來。542Please respect copyright.PENANA4XoGflxuc7
「唉,感情真喺好複雜呢。」542Please respect copyright.PENANAlj0t7zJOCr
他先是愣住了,但是也一同靠向後,並輕笑了一聲說:542Please respect copyright.PENANAhd0ke963Ot
「喺啊,感情真喺好複雜架。」542Please respect copyright.PENANAoxzUWvUWkZ
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「想放手,但又想捉緊,真複雜」542Please respect copyright.PENANAtXuwLs13w2