第一五五章:她的過去492Please respect copyright.PENANAWnG4Gm8dGF
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還記得中三那年,當我第一次參加話劇學會的聚會。492Please respect copyright.PENANAV8MOb9Lq03
那時候的話劇學會,社員並不多,但是給我的感覺就是大家都相處得挺融洽。492Please respect copyright.PENANAwExCSHtKXQ
在一眾舊社員之中,最為注目的就是一名叫Raymond的高年級男生。492Please respect copyright.PENANAPVHPqzBlFn
他總是自信滿滿、把笑容經常掛在臉、給人一種平易近人的感覺。492Please respect copyright.PENANAkZAQZWmp65
從第一天的聚會就可見,Raymond就是這個學會的中心人物。492Please respect copyright.PENANATzbsguHgyH
在聚會開始前、中段休息以及聚會完結後,大家都總是圍繞著他。492Please respect copyright.PENANATLR50wOlkx
或許在將來我都會成為他們其中一份子也說不定……492Please respect copyright.PENANAAuuKNBNKOi
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果不其然,在我正式被挑選為台前演員後,與Raymond的關係也拉近了。492Please respect copyright.PENANArgra7WSZOw
從而進一步認識了這個人,得知他在說話方面都挺有才的。492Please respect copyright.PENANA7FcsIrM3sf
從他口中短短的兩言三語,就已經使你想再與他談上更多話。492Please respect copyright.PENANAHcPA4H5xB3
他更會主動與其他人聊天,不過只是限定女生。492Please respect copyright.PENANAnfPpWnMZFT
因此部份在學會裡的男生都不太喜歡Raymond這人。492Please respect copyright.PENANAnKOcEPlO0q
而當我從其他女生口中得知此事時,那些女生的反應都只是「其他男仔妒忌」。492Please respect copyright.PENANATO8xlVQoG0
因為她們早已被Raymond深深所吸引住,變得只會為Raymond說好說話。492Please respect copyright.PENANAoCH4IuwHi9
當然,我後來都慢慢地成為了她們的一員……492Please respect copyright.PENANAJQuKi13Fmf
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在大約十一月多的時候,某一次星期六綵排結束過後,Raymond突然提議到附近唱卡啦OK。492Please respect copyright.PENANAhRjjtghNrY
大家當時正值是反叛期,誰會想在參加完學會綵排,便早早回學當個乖小孩。492Please respect copyright.PENANAWHxGUrY9GG
因此我二話不說便答應Raymond的邀約,與他以及十多名女生一起前往了附近的卡啦OK場。492Please respect copyright.PENANAUXxzhYBxH5
然而,我們人數眾多,被強制安排分成兩間房。492Please respect copyright.PENANA7tj94MMX1I
但我都非常幸運地與Raymond共處在同一間房間內。492Please respect copyright.PENANAvgboY0jwKD
那時候,我記得裡面還有數個與我同年級的女生。492Please respect copyright.PENANAaZEjmiXJay
不過大家當時的焦點都在於Raymond身上,每個女生都打算與他合唱一曲……492Please respect copyright.PENANA3ZfjYw6Oyi
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直到後來,我因為有點口渴,去到了外面的自助飲品機添加飲料。492Please respect copyright.PENANAv9zLiVCqOj
而這時候,Raymond也突然出現在我身後。492Please respect copyright.PENANAlsQ1VeprNp
「Venus,你唱歌幾好聽喎!」492Please respect copyright.PENANAyrLXMniYzz
「喺……喺咩?」492Please respect copyright.PENANAX7iHZZcFys
那一刻,我裝作冷靜,拼命忍住不露出任何靦腆的一面。492Please respect copyright.PENANAoSkaTtIiWb
「不如……」就在Raymond說著的同時,他更一下子把我壁咚起來:「我哋喺今年sing con組翻個雙人組合啊!」492Please respect copyright.PENANAJlVNa5hQHC
對於他突如其來的壁咚及邀請,我心中立刻產生了一種微妙的感覺。492Please respect copyright.PENANAzRozU3gmGC
難道是心動了嗎?我對Raymond心動了?492Please respect copyright.PENANAMXY8rdoaD6
我始終還是忍不住抵抗,臉頰通紅起來。492Please respect copyright.PENANAS4bqiuTACk
「好……好啊……」492Please respect copyright.PENANABBGU6th1we
Raymond隨即沒有任何回應,只是繼續默默把我按在牆上直視著我。492Please respect copyright.PENANAchXf2beRwh
當時我可以感覺到自己的體溫正在隨著心跳加快而提升。492Please respect copyright.PENANAUpkEwZ7rEc
我猜那時候我的臉蛋已經發紅得與一個蘋果沒有分別。492Please respect copyright.PENANAjyPeTwPklJ
雖然這樣與他對望著會感到越來越害羞,但我還是想與他再維持這樣多一會……492Please respect copyright.PENANAEVfLtmSSaw
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「喂!Shark你點埋哂啲Kai歌唔掂喎!」492Please respect copyright.PENANAuNnOf3QZwK
「你咪夠喺到點啲兒童歌!」492Please respect copyright.PENANATgk3urrz9T
就在空氣即刻靜止的一刻,突然有兩名穿著我們校服的男生從與自助飲品機相隔不遠的房間走出來。492Please respect copyright.PENANA5PrhzU0mIf
Raymond見況立即把手移離我,並向我單眼一下後,便裝作若無其事地返回了房間。492Please respect copyright.PENANACGIq8EmP6X
但是此刻的我,仍然是臉紅耳赤地在原地站著,回味著剛才的經過。492Please respect copyright.PENANAHZfhgGSfba
直到那兩名男生走到了我身旁的自助飲品機竊竊私語:492Please respect copyright.PENANAUEEuAPLsAU
「同校喎。」492Please respect copyright.PENANA7WwDu2XE5q
「好似仲要喺我哋嗰級。」492Please respect copyright.PENANAqiDSWgfxSj
但當時我還沒有回過神來,只是呆呆地站在原地,任由他們二人繼續討論著。492Please respect copyright.PENANAYz4Cuf32v7
直到他們快添加完飲料的一刻,他們剛才走出來的房間,也再次打了門。492Please respect copyright.PENANAqI0EQ1NACL
有另一名同是穿著我們校服的男生探頭望向他們並喊道:492Please respect copyright.PENANAe7dJ9b11gb
「喂!Shark!Fazer!幫我斟多杯果汁啊!」492Please respect copyright.PENANANmfwHr8TEx
於是其中一名戴著頭鏡的男生便拿起了杯子回應:492Please respect copyright.PENANAMvutK7VUSZ
「好啊!你要橙汁定蘋果汁……Alvin?」492Please respect copyright.PENANARsTftZMI7K
「我要……」492Please respect copyright.PENANAi31KPW6a4R
同一時間我都終於回過神來,沒有聽到那個探頭的男生最後的回答,就小鹿亂撞似的回到房間,繼續陪伴著Raymond。492Please respect copyright.PENANAdzuxJvGu3b
而當時Raymond的那一個邀請,我還歷歷在目,更一直期待那一天的來臨……492Please respect copyright.PENANA4pOHudY0Du
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可是直到聖誕假期的某一天,我們話劇學會眾女生又被Raymond邀約聚會。492Please respect copyright.PENANASNPDN7UA1Z
當我們在晚上吃著晚飯時,Raymond卻突然站起身來,逐步走到了其中一位女生的身後。492Please respect copyright.PENANAg6Ug8F5d2k
「今日我有件事想同大家宣佈!」492Please respect copyright.PENANAqYo9TMK4Qn
就在Raymond說完這番說話的一刻,雙手更搭到他前方的女生肩膊上。492Please respect copyright.PENANA0ATidi7iAc
「我同Elaine拍緊拖。」492Please respect copyright.PENANAKChtMGzIUv
還記得大家當時的反應都是目瞪口呆起來,完全猜想不到事情的發展。492Please respect copyright.PENANAFhVPyKjPv3
有幾個師姐很快就回過神來,並開始為他們二人拍手歡呼。492Please respect copyright.PENANAFs2XZWLwa1
而其餘驚魂未定的女生,相信與我一樣,只是在心中喊道:「唔喺啊嘛?!」492Please respect copyright.PENANAKFLFD9EBK1
當時除了驚訝之外,從心中湧出的另一種感覺就是……被背叛。492Please respect copyright.PENANAZJ12fldOtG
沒有人知道Raymond到底是何時選中了Elaine作為交往對象。492Please respect copyright.PENANAEdPqXOliqu
因為大家暗地裡都一直與Raymond保持住一個算是曖昧的關係。492Please respect copyright.PENANAi0eo9XDJ2M
他會每晚在你睡覺前與你聊天,更會錄音與你說聲「晚安」。492Please respect copyright.PENANAq4nLuVekBJ
大家都以為自己在Raymond心中的地位相比其他人更特別。492Please respect copyright.PENANAju4ayML2mx
可是直到這一晚,大家都終於清楚自己……是多麼卑微。492Please respect copyright.PENANA7Ia2svKWLh
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自從Raymond與Elaine在一起後,他不再像以往一樣會對你特別呵護。492Please respect copyright.PENANARIPftnV5qK
而他們二人更瘋狂的在校內公開戀情,完全不作任何掩飾。492Please respect copyright.PENANA99yw0j8c4d
對於外人來說,他們是在曬恩愛,是青春的象徵。492Please respect copyright.PENANAqgCBImDaab
但在我們眼中,他們更是在炫耀,炫耀著自己就是勝利者。492Please respect copyright.PENANAd5099GrXG5
然而,我們這些「失敗者」根本做到任何的東西。492Please respect copyright.PENANABtdPvl1Kqg
我們沒有理由去介入他人的關係、去搶奪他人的愛情。492Please respect copyright.PENANAmnwplWXpCO
但是,由始至終是我們錯了嗎?為什麼我們非要承受這樣的挫敗?492Please respect copyright.PENANAQKx8Lf990d
難道是因為我先動情而錯了嗎?492Please respect copyright.PENANAANKo1d5CnS
那心中那個為他而挖掘的空洞,又由誰來填補呢?492Please respect copyright.PENANAjLWXgjMP7x
我真的想不通、想不通、想不通……492Please respect copyright.PENANACl14TdZUNH
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接下來的日子,我都繼續看著Raymond他們二人曬恩愛。492Please respect copyright.PENANAbPOorjSJRk
直到那一天,我在棋藝學會所舉辦的比賽遇上了一名男生。492Please respect copyright.PENANAeGIKjgViTM
雖然他可能已經忘記了當天的經過,但總感覺他對我額外關心。492Please respect copyright.PENANAXM0XSgGH2y
可能是因為心中的那份挫敗,使我無限放大了那男生的所作一切。492Please respect copyright.PENANAql7ajUn9q3
而直到後來,他竟然再次出現在我們話劇學會的綵排之中,以一個外來協助者的身份幫助我們設計戲服及道具。492Please respect copyright.PENANAMrTOe2C952
然而,身為前台演員的我,根本找不到機會去認識他。492Please respect copyright.PENANAcC326Iu2v1
只能透過後台組的友人,去打聽那名男生的故事。492Please respect copyright.PENANA7TT2WC7i9r
但可悲的是,我在某一日得知了他原來已經與同班的女生交往了。492Please respect copyright.PENANAO7AWi38h0I
失落的感覺再次向我襲來,但這次不同的是,這份失落感沒有使我再次陷入低潮,反而使我振作起來。492Please respect copyright.PENANAHbD3j6N48x
是那名男生的魔力嗎?還是我成長了?492Please respect copyright.PENANASezlmOOkYK
我起初相信是後者,一定是自己的心境成長了。492Please respect copyright.PENANAsN90quaHZS
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但是後來當我得知了你已經恢復單身,我們也機緣巧合地再次相遇。492Please respect copyright.PENANAuOOrevhyuE
那天我坐在學會的報名處前,你就有點緊張地走到我的面前。492Please respect copyright.PENANAJzfZMu9xiN
「你想報名就喺到寫低你個名啦。」492Please respect copyright.PENANAhQfiKotJgg
這是我正式向你說的第一句話。492Please respect copyright.PENANA6NP5jOlRnu
我很開心,你會再次出現在我眼前。492Please respect copyright.PENANAI2B4xqzenb
但現實卻令我與Elaine再次牽上關係。492Please respect copyright.PENANAKLHpj2cioF
明明她才剛與Raymond分手,轉眼間卻搭上了你。492Please respect copyright.PENANA0PmuYp4ITQ
並由她帶你來與我再次相遇,真是有夠諷刺的。492Please respect copyright.PENANAVs0oIEvRQ2
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不過幸好,你還是與我聊天互動、一同上學放學以及最後讓我喜歡上你。492Please respect copyright.PENANAIHaJ17flzb
多謝你認領了我,把我從無盡的黑暗中認領出來。492Please respect copyright.PENANASzcUkHmZIF
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「愛神的箭矢,一旦射出,將難以收回」492Please respect copyright.PENANAnquRjlwwy5
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當聆聽完Venus的故事後,她便向我送上巧克力。492Please respect copyright.PENANAOlo2reNJ0l
隨後也很快與我道別並返回了自己課室。492Please respect copyright.PENANAcxNGMrOYhp
於是我把她包裝得挺精美的巧克力收藏好後,就動身前往了洗手間。492Please respect copyright.PENANAR2NJ1RXjdw
先是清洗了一下臉,然後趁著雙手沾濕,順勢把前陰的頭髮抓起。492Please respect copyright.PENANAcG3fR7BGU6
望向前方的鏡子,看著鏡中的自己,並握緊拳頭。492Please respect copyright.PENANA1FiZNHzCyr
「Raymond,又喺你……」492Please respect copyright.PENANAY6V4uuNIA0