「好。」817Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJHoC1QTYXK
817Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrNigrJZV1n
他們行街市，他們行超市，買了幾舊姜，買了一盒無核青提。817Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPrh1E3WWuJ
817Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbJJshEEkt1
阿朗捧着它們，思思挽着他的手，一路走回家。817Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnhLOunznJ5
817Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNgWOZZszAv
她和他說東西又加價了，好像貴了一點點；他點頭，和她一起歎物價高企，即使他不清楚原先的價錢。817Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDdoF0Jmzis
817Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbL8WmhwMBF
她煮飯，他們吃飯，他洗碗，全程很和諧。817Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPxRwnck5Kn
817Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡO2fyxtcKwt
和對方生活，說到底是舒適的。他們知道對方的吃什麼不吃什麼，進門出門前的小動作，糞便聞起來是什麼味道，長久的習慣締造出舉止自如的輕快。817Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzKJjiqda5f
817Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡN1pxS93KHY
「落街行吓好冇？」阿朗問。817Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡh1lgYJo7LM
817Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡu6va5ZhmSP
思思明白：「好。」817Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnNFGCvlsXD
817Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDIRgVe9RLG
於是，他們像拍拖一樣，下樓到處逛逛，二人都沒有說話。817Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡO3zsnlL55C
817Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPiiwD4uHDh
是因為享受閒適嗎？恐怕不是。他們在心裏打了一份草稿，正默默練習，演講的時候要配合眼神、表情、動作，不可以有任何差池——即使，他們都感覺到對方的態度軟化，仍怕一旦有細節處理不好，就會前功盡廢。817Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvUYWOeVMAT
817Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYo4r6rzzjd
行一行，又返回樓下公園，坐在那張長椅上，微風正好。817Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcx2OPTIecZ
817Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡs1uZV0jgCc
阿朗首先開口：817Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFFmo3EJyPH
817Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyJAc2a3boP
「係呢……我有啲嘢想講。」817Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡroYwN8CZeI
817Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡD6aSN41osw
「嗯？」817Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡz1l5luXzQH
817Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡg3JvUCR5dW
「你覺唔覺得我哋怪怪哋，好似同以前好唔同咁。」817Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5t4KR2m2pn
817Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzXQGxejtSg
「覺。」她看着他，坦白承認。817Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnRN4ChAASW
817Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4TVOavctS7
「其實，我覺得，我哋好似淡咗……或者唔係淡咗，但好似冇以前咁開心。」817Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqWtnOfpOYA
817Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwcJZsshKqy
「嗯。」817Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtPRSM2MVhC
817Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhC3sO8pTfe
「啫係，我哋都……我哋都少講咗嘢，少傾咗偈，係呢一兩日先多啲。平時，都好似只係傾棉花糖咁……」817Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6WjKGciYLZ
817Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡolHXKGVgrl
他回想，除了功課、興趣班、測考、冬季校服，只得訕訕地問好。817Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡr5eeK3NIJZ
817Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDCTp95XJkt
「好似係，連佢都覺得我哋唔太熟添。」817Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRObInESmbG
817Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJBv5rAZRZb
她自嘲於被女兒發現端倪；阿朗也笑：817Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJdD6LtLoZt
817Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡK7Xkvr0Anl
「但係，我哋當然熟。」817Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjK8HneyAx1
817Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrM4sF4R6pc
「用熟唔熟嚟講我哋，好似有啲怪。」817Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmuojDx4WHO
817Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWI7BoHMWcT
他們已經很親，說不說話也有親厚情義，但確實不安於此，熟悉感正在剝落。817Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGxka7ZzgpY
817Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6zh2KxwkjK
「都係。」817Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQRvjVJgLfq
817Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlKct9V1XHf
她深呼吸：817Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5QIXWPjo6R
817Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIvgrAsmArl
「我明你意思，我都係咁覺得——」817Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQZUllPtv3t
817Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTvoWP1EB55
「嗯？」817Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡy5qpzjtpoZ
817Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡR3rAnqRarC
她直直地看着他，像背誦課文一樣：817Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0k3Zv7JcAH
817Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgGIpbZyk5O
「我好唔開心——真㗎，因為我哋變成咁。但我唔想再咁落去啦，但係，我都唔知個問題出喺邊——你話，如果係喺以前，我會覺得都幾合理？但宜家，明明我哋都好好㗎……」817Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuthxrEo593
817Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCh6cNlcQCl
他見她已說不下去的樣子，順着手肘牽起她的手，替她補充：817Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡONxgKl2Rx7
817Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqSqr9Q6Di6
「嗯，我哋係好好，過得幾好，個女又咁生性，又夠錢洗。係咪因為咁，所以覺得啲嘢永遠都只會繼續行落去……我意思係，冇太多進步空間，甚至有啲太習慣、太安穩？817Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9GgBTJO36D
817Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZVBdOEWzP7
變咗，好似好悶咁？」817Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVvUiG5ZC0T
817Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxnfEI6OlFs
他們達成共識。817Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvL3cI7pwlS
817Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpDeY6tQWq8
她表達意願：817Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxR1cke3rQI
817Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGkgvO2ta2u
「嗯……但係呢，我真係唔想再咁。」817Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyrtOsRlAOZ
817Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6OPbecfaft
「我都唔想。」817Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmxEnKbdBR4
817Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlGU2m7rFnJ
「其實，我之前就想同你講，但係每次去到口唇邊，就講唔出咁……817Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnh1b7hQAlX
817Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLEg9gPfYhq
我認我係有少少細膽，但係嗰陣時，我唔知你係點諗。我驚我同你講咗我唔開心，甚至同你講我覺得我哋……淡咗，就會番唔到轉頭，啫係——」817Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIJP6qQaOTZ
817Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIHuDiOIN7Y
「係咪驚我唔係咁諗？或者，我都係咁諗，但係講咗，就番唔到轉頭？」817Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMkUP61vSEP
817Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡey440NFMHX
他忽然心寬，因為，他也有過這樣的思慮過程。817Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOk4aGaKF5h
817Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWMihFdxA0c
「係。」817Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmsGO7kE8L5
817Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIFgqLSLaqU
「明。」817Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYYxRvgV7gH
817Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbwo1sQQ6Hj
「嗯，唔係所有嘢講出嚟，就可以趨向解決㗎嘛，可能一講，連原本咁樣都冇埋呢？咁到時點？」817Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡt1nXnOfyXB
817Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4NbsCqHlad
「我都係咁覺得。」817Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5rfuBvONj4
817Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRBltgniq9U
她有些不好意思地捽捽手指：817Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡU6gVtJIwXG
817Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXzcrFm27nA
「我哋，好似、好似都幾廢。」817Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdTYYpNC1BK
817Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLkcpQlFoa8
「係，垃圾。但係垃圾宜家識開口，係可回收㗎啦喎。」817Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLKlhb6OjDs
817Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSN1KdUTjBN
他指着不遠處的三色回收箱；而她沒好氣地笑一笑：817Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡr7O6AzNcMO
817Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2LjaCVmBeY
「都擺咗成三十幾年啦——唔係嘅，個問題啱啱先有啫。」817Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡe5PUI4amgO
817Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡm2plDW7mOl
「嗯。咁宜家我哋肯傾，你係想……？我係因為想解決，所以先想同你講出口，我唔想再係咁啦，我諗，我哋都好辛苦。真㗎。」817Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfqfpdS5vzY
817Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7f3VXYOPTG
二人的語調平緩，聲線都是輕輕的。817Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKzvcYBZoIf
817Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbfhLFuPs8u
她點頭：「嗯。817Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtQA7Wz7TUw
817Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTRnHyMmvcn
我啱啱咪話，之前想同你講嘅……但係最後冇講到嗰次。就係嗰日，嗯，我話嗰個學生同我表白嗰次。」817Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRWjO1AFCJJ
817Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLDMwUJSOpo
「係，我記得。」817Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6pS0s3MEUW
817Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPnZtWuk7BW
他想起，那天她比往常熱情，笑容燦爛，像一次晴天娃娃顯靈的天朗氣清。817Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡd0sLSmMwHg
817Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡA6lzHNs5Oj
「嗰次呢，就係因為佢同我講完，我就覺得，其實，我好愛你。817Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbFqfl3DuXA
817Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡa2qbnIiwhu
或者係，你真係好愛我——哈哈，有啲肉麻添。」817Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdVCBAoLvT6
817Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvtU5l5fR6Y
這個太清晰的她，阿朗清楚知道，並且予以認識、擁抱、接納，未曾離開。817Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMGJDvd7Ezu
817Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡi5YA0p4EPp
「係，少骨痹。」817Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxjA96HPM5E
817Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjtMLjwgnl3
「就係咁啦——我聽完之後，唔覺得會有人可以取代到你嘅地位。始終呢，我都太多謝你啦。」817Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUbCiKdGYmS
817Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIMZkttlou2
她越說越小聲，很久沒有告白愛意，突然覺得有些難以啟齒；將目光投射到前面在玩「紅綠燈」的小朋友上，微笑。817Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbu4rAY5Vit
817Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6b1PU0LOW8
「噢，對唔住。」817Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyRRuBXy4A6
817Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡp2FKyiEKCJ
他摸摸她的頭。817Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡto6976U3x9
817Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZ1PxQ4Bhmt
他記起，當時他打斷了她，因為他生氣於他們陌生，而她卻與別人熟絡到被鍾情。817Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvdFq8VkTaP
817Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcgXKOGBIZ5
「唔緊要。所以嗰陣時冇講到。」817Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpwH70x7f4m
817Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhups5z4R5g
她的決心竟然在融化。817Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwVknER0WoN
817Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnNxuoy3ZLr
她補充：「我當時聽緊佢講，但係就只係得一種好攰嘅感覺，我只係諗起你，諗起你對我有幾好。」817Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBnzHdQmxag
817Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsE1PwiD6Yb
「你都對我好好啊。」817Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡK42Mb9bAve
817Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUzz4j3moG1
「係唔錯㗎。」817Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTnkxbt1hSg
817Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8d0E89LUgQ
「嗯……我嗰日唔應該發你脾氣，我諗多咗。」817Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeEBWbmTMKk
817Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzAA5gDJuAa
「係囉，嚇到我唔敢講。」817Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFJmXvFT2xB
817Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8j6aHEg2Vn
「Well……雖然我就冇你咁正俾人媾，」只見思思笑着反了一個白眼，他說：「但係，我都有作出反思，都想改善……817Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtKlCjeCVWf
817Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡprdRngf09r
我諗，我哋都有同一個感受，譬如我都會覺得我哋有嘢唔同、好掛住以前、記低對方嘅好，只係有啲無力。817Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡx9S9hFKA0I
817Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlWBFgK5Ax9
咁耐以嚟，我番殯儀呢，成日接觸啲唔喺度嘅人，其實都幾令我珍惜生活，始終我都唔想瞓喺度等其他人化妝……咁但係，我好似——因為太有安全感？覺得呢一種平淡係唔會更改，有好過冇，好過大家連平淡都唔得。817Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZFkW7JLxOP
817Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ13paO1vQMw
所以，雖然珍惜生活，但係，就唔太珍惜……我哋。」817Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ56DoCi67Cv
817Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKZnRkYlc7p
明明說珍惜生活、好好活着，第一個主觀感受是「好煩」，珍惜生活，卻沒有珍惜生活中身邊人的舉動，只在內心默唸、憂愁、後退。817Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡExKxpZyKpc
817Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9ee6bmjazs
「嗯，明白你意思。」817Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJoTapGbYIO
817Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0FARlzp8Zk
「但我想珍惜。宜家——或者係之前咁樣，我都唔太舒服。你呢？」817Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcmMxU6B7y0
817Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1zZwwNzucY
一切醞釀已久，終於不止困於無力腦袋中。817Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNrtqG5zDrx
817Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4QGC5KSNSO
「我都係。」817Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYuucUU66St
817Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjSySWjxK0t
「咁……就好啦。」817Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSyscQsBFhs
817Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5Yi4fgcx4l
小朋友玩耍的歡快和老人家下棋的爭論忽然沒有了聲，他們只聽見自己的心跳，像已歷盡高山爬上了珠穆朗馬蜂，但無以為繼，只看着眼前美景卻不知是否應該原路往返——817Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxmAKgOg8iv
817Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡycia3rp9Wc
說完了，之後呢？817Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8Z8AfRbGG9
817Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkSoP9hdu1t
「我想盪鞦韆，推我吖。」817Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAcXEE5n8SR
817Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnMEmsYFliZ
思思站起，向阿朗笑笑。817Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeGXaDpQKkM
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