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可惜,現實中,他卻是情怯的。愛,不一定使人勇敢。913Please respect copyright.PENANAcLmDl3hVKb
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終於星期一,朝光放學,馬上來到社工室。913Please respect copyright.PENANAEOjqUOtvAC
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「Hello,靚女姐姐。」他將書包拋到沙發上。913Please respect copyright.PENANAItvdQmMtCu
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「今日搞咩,咁口甜?」913Please respect copyright.PENANANQJHjygbaR
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「冇呀,咁你係吖嘛。」913Please respect copyright.PENANAQPxe4WXoEs
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「神神化化。」913Please respect copyright.PENANAN2fGMj2XZ9
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「係呢,上個星期嗰個男人,就係你老公?」913Please respect copyright.PENANAHi0hOQLv8i
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「係呀。」那不然?913Please respect copyright.PENANAeawDAqTJcr
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「咁呢,佢係個點嘅人嚟?」他想了解多一些,沒有為什麼。913Please respect copyright.PENANATEJOuuRNXj
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「嗯——」913Please respect copyright.PENANAmtDRn4U7CX
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思思停下手上的工作,思考「程日朗」是一個怎樣的人。913Please respect copyright.PENANAZG8IozHvIR
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勇敢?大方?有義氣?驕傲?聰明?913Please respect copyright.PENANApVlHL91yTq
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細心?温柔?體貼?913Please respect copyright.PENANA60Giq1DhZ9
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不、不。913Please respect copyright.PENANA6VH9jz32wz
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不。他是,他是。913Please respect copyright.PENANAyJQLwUhbXk
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可是,這些形容詞仿佛已經變成了一種遠古的印象,或者成為了一些顯而易見的公論,譬如,說起牛頓會想起蘋果,說起魯迅會想起人血饅頭,說起黃子華會想起棟篤笑——但大體呢?又似乎說不出什麼來,正如世上大部分人都不清楚三大定律的細則為何,一樣。913Please respect copyright.PENANALruEQk8ZXs
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思思「記得」阿朗是怎樣的人。913Please respect copyright.PENANA5GMTiOlmOg
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但這是一種記憶,好像,又變得很模糊。913Please respect copyright.PENANAMcLUbFbIjZ
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慢慢,另一個面向的印象開始浮現——他會因為小事而嘮嘈她幾句,他有時會反對她的意見,他偶然忘記二人的紀念日,他會敷衍地回覆在說閒話的她。913Please respect copyright.PENANAmDCCk2vt3E
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這是他,真實又乾脆的他。913Please respect copyright.PENANA94MgWOS5e2
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他還是他,只是多增少減,變成了一個她更了解的他——913Please respect copyright.PENANADuDFUc81Bo
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「喂呀,你諗咁耐㗎?」913Please respect copyright.PENANAA0oVJQPipY
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變成了一個,她比以往感到陌生的他……更加熟悉,也可以解讀為:更加疏離。913Please respect copyright.PENANArxWgdjq6SY
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「我老公好好,嗯,好好啊。不過,我會話以前好啲,可能係我變咗啫。」913Please respect copyright.PENANALoO2GyxaTR
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「咩意思?」朝光期望她會肯定。913Please respect copyright.PENANAq7k0lH5pro
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「咁一齊得耐,就緊係同啱啱一齊嗰牌係唔同啲㗎啦。唔識點同你解釋……你當係我貪心囉,又鍾意宜家呢種安穩,但同時,又鍾意後生嗰時嘅大家咁。」913Please respect copyright.PENANAnQDM1VLtW0
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「咁係咪啫係,冇咁鍾意?」913Please respect copyright.PENANAHj98TCek5x
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思思也不知道。913Please respect copyright.PENANAWTsbWAjCHe
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不經細思、真要說的話,她會答:「係。」因為她不會再因為他而心跳加速,不會再突然覺得他很好看,不會再想和他說很多無聊的瑣碎,她寧願自己一個沿着海濱靜靜的走。913Please respect copyright.PENANAQ7DOoDYfS6
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她有時覺得很煩,不願意再理會身邊的一切,可是,她不理解自己這種心理——因為,現在一點都不煩惱——已成家、各得其宜、孩子乖巧、工作穩定。她慰藉過丈夫從前的壓力和異心,安撫過女兒的任性和頑皮,迎戰過奶奶的挑剔和責備,抵禦過別個女人的挑釁和攻佔……913Please respect copyright.PENANA9qs0To9CC9
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但她似乎,沒法守護自己的心。913Please respect copyright.PENANAKOay1HvW27
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很煩很煩很煩。913Please respect copyright.PENANAjscszNRrbn
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她知道,有些事情是不對的,可是,它還是出現了,並且不走;像流浪狗把尿撒在街燈的柱上,尿就一直流、流、流,從在柱上清晰可見的水潤,到已與石地顏色所差無幾,再流至街燈照不到的黑暗;但一經過,還是會嗅到一股尿臊味。看不到是看不到,不顯眼是不顯眼,但說到底還是成為了她心頭上小小的疤,她覺得她是那暗巷。913Please respect copyright.PENANAb76S0fIFaF
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「鍾意。」913Please respect copyright.PENANALr4CHtPQR3
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她沒有確切的答案,但她總不能對一個青年學生透露心聲。何況,喜不喜歡的定義,是什麼?熱戀男女的喜歡,和已婚男女的喜歡,完全是兩個次元的物種。913Please respect copyright.PENANA1F4wKyZRWz
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是她忽然想要回到熱戀的最初,想回味那份青澀的悸動。913Please respect copyright.PENANALNgKmzxG5r
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「啫係冇以前咁鍾意啦。」913Please respect copyright.PENANAfHK9uqJpWf
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朝光看得出,她最近越來越不在狀態,雖然她還是專心聆聽、回應,但是,想事情的時間比以往久,答話時的用語又總是不夠貼近問題。913Please respect copyright.PENANAjFT8Kg81rL
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幸福的婚姻會使人如此頹靡嗎?913Please respect copyright.PENANAXgPQQejsPK
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他又有些隱隱的失落——點解,唔可以話俾我聽,同我分享呢?我應該同你算唔錯熟㗎……因為,你覺得我仲係小朋友?而你已經係大人?如此鬰悶。913Please respect copyright.PENANAH3hzUZMaVq
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「唔係呀。點會?」她在心頭慌了一下,迅速答。913Please respect copyright.PENANAtZneZX36Gh
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「做咩咁驚呀?平時問你嘢,你都冇答得咁快㗎喎。其實冇以前咁鍾意,都好正常啫……有咩問題先?」913Please respect copyright.PENANAy06uzMLHWa
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「咁我自己嘅事,當然答得快啦。」913Please respect copyright.PENANAWvCh4Zf8bV
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其實朝光說得有道理,激情褪色,感覺上差了一點,是很正常的事。可是,又似乎非常愧於啟齒,阿朗聽到的話,一定會不開心的;或者,如果阿朗如此和思思說,她難免也會非常落寞。913Please respect copyright.PENANAOIFIiKKW8d
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這應該,應該是一個有共識的美麗秘密;但此刻,沒有共識,只是她的一個小小煩憂。913Please respect copyright.PENANAhaFB1CFIC5
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「係咩,唔信。」朝光肯定地質疑。913Please respect copyright.PENANAcbTMPsF4TW
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「唔信就算囉。」她晃了晃頭,不打算繼續話題,轉身看電腦。913Please respect copyright.PENANAvQSpYS0CJs
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她隱約知道問題所在,他們,再不是當日那個他們。913Please respect copyright.PENANAIsDAw0IZQM