892Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6BsOOvfGDG
可惜，現實中，他卻是情怯的。愛，不一定使人勇敢。892Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgkPLZ7Mgn9
892Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeai1fIKvF5
- - - 892Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8RDk2X7YgK
892Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡprWP3t9W9V
終於星期一，朝光放學，馬上來到社工室。892Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcyDFKGI9Ju
892Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrt4SR8awr0
「Hello，靚女姐姐。」他將書包拋到沙發上。892Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLd8gP8OgDG
892Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiH4KcuiNEF
「今日搞咩，咁口甜？」892Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡE40fNVqfnU
892Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡttcYfmxvqE
「冇呀，咁你係吖嘛。」892Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡw9D0PyWyHV
892Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTU3kCeTslZ
「神神化化。」892Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFuhNdUNzbQ
892Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXVoAsHDQGZ
「係呢，上個星期嗰個男人，就係你老公？」892Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡf8sgvqu24p
892Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuTFQtVqS0C
「係呀。」那不然？892Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6nPgts9r3A
892Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmbmS1lmi4T
「咁呢，佢係個點嘅人嚟？」他想了解多一些，沒有為什麼。892Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡThEWgg7ArA
892Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzu8yWlqdz7
「嗯——」892Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLLGTQ1MZeq
892Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8Mj0cL1zT8
思思停下手上的工作，思考「程日朗」是一個怎樣的人。892Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtzugOmuQ9S
892Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbrS71ZnqE0
勇敢？大方？有義氣？驕傲？聰明？892Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡagr88jsdTf
892Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjWbtdIUWtT
細心？温柔？體貼？892Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfkzegS6rNj
892Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGubeYluCCz
不、不。892Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdfTSGd2Ctm
892Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZOV0gTcSI4
不。他是，他是。892Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNTwJj9vmJ2
892Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbl66KV0iuU
可是，這些形容詞仿佛已經變成了一種遠古的印象，或者成為了一些顯而易見的公論，譬如，說起牛頓會想起蘋果，說起魯迅會想起人血饅頭，說起黃子華會想起棟篤笑——但大體呢？又似乎說不出什麼來，正如世上大部分人都不清楚三大定律的細則為何，一樣。892Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCdol29YVgz
892Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLhUbm7GGlT
思思「記得」阿朗是怎樣的人。892Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOUaZys2KqA
892Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiwcf3RAn5e
但這是一種記憶，好像，又變得很模糊。892Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKYrjUwLyvy
892Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6CtDpbpYYK
慢慢，另一個面向的印象開始浮現——他會因為小事而嘮嘈她幾句，他有時會反對她的意見，他偶然忘記二人的紀念日，他會敷衍地回覆在說閒話的她。892Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡydnRnpbZy0
892Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNvXU7wyuB5
這是他，真實又乾脆的他。892Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYBYTkuTema
892Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3VMUui6PnW
他還是他，只是多增少減，變成了一個她更了解的他——892Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡswIVFskXK0
892Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpWIVhOwbP3
「喂呀，你諗咁耐㗎？」892Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5HrZ4zHCaP
892Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkNRDSe1m0f
變成了一個，她比以往感到陌生的他……更加熟悉，也可以解讀為：更加疏離。892Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrzEctq6PtN
892Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5TvAlOnRTT
「我老公好好，嗯，好好啊。不過，我會話以前好啲，可能係我變咗啫。」892Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYbFRAnX9QD
892Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcsIh6BoGjo
「咩意思？」朝光期望她會肯定。892Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwvy54s4Dpf
892Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAuHVLu44GI
「咁一齊得耐，就緊係同啱啱一齊嗰牌係唔同啲㗎啦。唔識點同你解釋……你當係我貪心囉，又鍾意宜家呢種安穩，但同時，又鍾意後生嗰時嘅大家咁。」892Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUbIqT7qTvb
892Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkPDE1Obs7I
「咁係咪啫係，冇咁鍾意？」892Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOPNSx1xCDU
892Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyILyAbgxJn
思思也不知道。892Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuyFiqnFaOz
892Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7P8ImPvI1V
不經細思、真要說的話，她會答：「係。」因為她不會再因為他而心跳加速，不會再突然覺得他很好看，不會再想和他說很多無聊的瑣碎，她寧願自己一個沿着海濱靜靜的走。892Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjkOEjCT9pE
892Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ74vfOSfBJ7
她有時覺得很煩，不願意再理會身邊的一切，可是，她不理解自己這種心理——因為，現在一點都不煩惱——已成家、各得其宜、孩子乖巧、工作穩定。她慰藉過丈夫從前的壓力和異心，安撫過女兒的任性和頑皮，迎戰過奶奶的挑剔和責備，抵禦過別個女人的挑釁和攻佔……892Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHnUfQHT2ui
892Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTT2fIwykQl
但她似乎，沒法守護自己的心。892Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvFJi4JPh74
892Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKueueNwNPy
很煩很煩很煩。892Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxjAwk1NIrM
892Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwaWawtt3Sg
她知道，有些事情是不對的，可是，它還是出現了，並且不走；像流浪狗把尿撒在街燈的柱上，尿就一直流、流、流，從在柱上清晰可見的水潤，到已與石地顏色所差無幾，再流至街燈照不到的黑暗；但一經過，還是會嗅到一股尿臊味。看不到是看不到，不顯眼是不顯眼，但說到底還是成為了她心頭上小小的疤，她覺得她是那暗巷。892Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIgXMXSmnYU
892Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsLuQTlgdK6
「鍾意。」892Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFAUz2dksAI
892Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrE5V9x4HL1
她沒有確切的答案，但她總不能對一個青年學生透露心聲。何況，喜不喜歡的定義，是什麼？熱戀男女的喜歡，和已婚男女的喜歡，完全是兩個次元的物種。892Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2iRZoMcPGB
892Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgm7diFJ36V
是她忽然想要回到熱戀的最初，想回味那份青澀的悸動。892Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdTCsO8qIYz
892Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoMlyhGIYF9
「啫係冇以前咁鍾意啦。」892Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFiGeLcR94V
892Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVAHpAZ9AEl
朝光看得出，她最近越來越不在狀態，雖然她還是專心聆聽、回應，但是，想事情的時間比以往久，答話時的用語又總是不夠貼近問題。892Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDrIPt0GtOR
892Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvklW461cbR
幸福的婚姻會使人如此頹靡嗎？892Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQ8gwyHFV2k
892Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlwoLsxx78l
他又有些隱隱的失落——點解，唔可以話俾我聽，同我分享呢？我應該同你算唔錯熟㗎……因為，你覺得我仲係小朋友？而你已經係大人？如此鬰悶。892Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQjP0JptPMR
892Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2eiETiOpJD
「唔係呀。點會？」她在心頭慌了一下，迅速答。892Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtOX8bOkdlj
892Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqVdtfPcgT5
「做咩咁驚呀？平時問你嘢，你都冇答得咁快㗎喎。其實冇以前咁鍾意，都好正常啫……有咩問題先？」892Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKGNc1YzDVM
892Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyZeSwVWgvM
「咁我自己嘅事，當然答得快啦。」892Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnE1kslr7sI
892Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbgej7Z6oQb
其實朝光說得有道理，激情褪色，感覺上差了一點，是很正常的事。可是，又似乎非常愧於啟齒，阿朗聽到的話，一定會不開心的；或者，如果阿朗如此和思思說，她難免也會非常落寞。892Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEqDyU9htY6
892Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiduIIO9pap
這應該，應該是一個有共識的美麗秘密；但此刻，沒有共識，只是她的一個小小煩憂。892Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsJUJbsQLs6
892Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKJwFihWpk9
「係咩，唔信。」朝光肯定地質疑。892Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡK4EO44qSd3
892Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKwJtJFKWF0
「唔信就算囉。」她晃了晃頭，不打算繼續話題，轉身看電腦。892Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxhpKWSnTdp
892Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9kLX8aegPM
她隱約知道問題所在，他們，再不是當日那個他們。892Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyPpYUuMi5O
Penana
search
Loginarrow_drop_down
Registerarrow_drop_down
