思思握了一握朝光的手。883Please respect copyright.PENANAXTZ2cOx5CM
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她像表達禮貌和敬意那般,輕輕地握了他的手,然後放開;欠一欠身,正視他。883Please respect copyright.PENANAcP1wHtiXQ2
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這一刻,她異常念記阿朗。883Please respect copyright.PENANAVd1alKk6Yw
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奇怪的她,有一種奇怪的悲傷。883Please respect copyright.PENANAX3xFxRAi66
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她痛恨自己的心十分死寂,明明已經直面熾熱的情感,明明她也聽見心跳重重地敲打理智,明明這一種不倫在文學作品之中充滿美感;但她並沒有對「梁朝光」這個人心動。883Please respect copyright.PENANAlL3XHx8XTd
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只不過,她寂寞,而難得有個人陪伴自己,有個主動活潑的青年靠近她,和她說說話聊聊八卦;而她感激於他與她度過日晨。883Please respect copyright.PENANAjwL0CQWoja
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可是這一個他,是誰都可以。883Please respect copyright.PENANATeSPIT1aXF
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大可以是某位勞苦的班主任、替她更換垃圾袋的工友、誤墮情網或騙案的學生;既可以是梁朝光,也可以是梁朝暗、梁朝影、梁朝陰——反正,都可以給予她新鮮感,總之只要那人不是自己的丈夫,都也是新秀,但不一定與情慾有關。883Please respect copyright.PENANAxl3CN2xhuN
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愛和新鮮感之間的距離,異常遙遠。883Please respect copyright.PENANA55vTGlrzlp
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舊情真是食之無味嗎?如真是,棄之有何可惜!但是,若果心頭有猶豫、有憐惜,是不是也代表二人應該拖手面對問題,而非轉投新一個未知的懷抱呢?883Please respect copyright.PENANAkMD2N3kj0i
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愛是不息的温柔,可是新鮮感很容易有激情的濾鏡,給人一種蠱惑的錯覺——883Please respect copyright.PENANAui0vg1k8eI
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你睇吓,同呢個好似好開心、好有feel喎;你又睇吓,同舊嗰個,悶啦。883Please respect copyright.PENANAUA9UtQdSqV
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但是,思思要的是愛,新鮮感於她雖然重要,但也不過如此;一刻快樂之後呢,無盡孤獨,已足夠蠶食不算年輕的她。883Please respect copyright.PENANA2DnVL3m6l5
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說到底,她是一個理智的人,始終,朝光是她在工作場合認識的學生。883Please respect copyright.PENANAKUK5wbHvkS
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大火燙着水煲的底部,確實燙辣,確實不斷呼出銷魂的生息;可是,只消扭熄煤氣爐,怎樣的澎湃也只會化成幽幽的蕭聲,一些白煙飄過以後了無痕跡——多過一會兒,水煲已經變成室温,一切如常。883Please respect copyright.PENANAp4JkdZTEnX
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一刻心動,也不過如此。883Please respect copyright.PENANAzjzAagFh2F
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而且,她知道,世上無人比程日朗更愛她——883Please respect copyright.PENANAyJMMLKcbLl
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剛剛,朝光牽起她的手時,她心裏想的是:883Please respect copyright.PENANA56yTmpPd20
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「梁朝光,你足夠認識、了解我?」883Please respect copyright.PENANAs7VVQOwCab
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可是,沒必要說出口,沒必要問這種過分主觀的問題;而她早已有一個十分主觀的答案:883Please respect copyright.PENANAugUyD68bQQ
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「你唔知道我。」883Please respect copyright.PENANAqc8qe92eFn
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她竟然受到尚有大好未來的青春學生的青睞——她竟然暗暗地開心了一下,為着自己仍有吸引力。883Please respect copyright.PENANAJ86MYS34Zc
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好自私呀你,程思思——她嘲諷自己。883Please respect copyright.PENANAiF2xiobP8j
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大概,他想像中的她是更好一點,必然是落落大方、成熟温文、認真細心;但這不足一年裏,他認識的,或者她讓他認識的,只是「程姑娘」,而不是「程思思」。883Please respect copyright.PENANAhnk6rmiW9m
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真實的思思——883Please respect copyright.PENANAU5nAB5TH6A
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是敏感脆弱的,她會在發現他人對她態度有變後偷偷不樂;是善妒不安的,她會介意其他女人和阿朗快樂調笑,即使沒有越軌;是自私避諱的,她不願意向丈夫坦誠心事,因為害怕一切不能挽回,不願證實自己將要失去安穩的現在。883Please respect copyright.PENANAvPmke1XnRW
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朝光知道嗎?883Please respect copyright.PENANAX1XyBqq35n
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不,他不知道;如果知道,但覺反差太大吧。883Please respect copyright.PENANANZ0JXPOt9C
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但剛才,她暗嘲自己後,卻想起——阿朗呢,在了解這樣的她後,對她不離不棄,難得地。883Please respect copyright.PENANAcf86UGg4oi
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曾經,阿朗在她因家庭瑣事而崩潰大哭時,無措地擁着她,一時吻吻她的額頭,一時摸摸她的後腦勺來安撫她,無言地告訴她:我喺度。在反反覆覆的憂傷裏,他擦去她的淚。883Please respect copyright.PENANAQojl7H0F0a
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曾經,棉花糖出生後,她有些產後抑鬱——為漲奶、身材走樣、家務、應付親戚,脾氣暴躁,已非昔日可人少女;但阿朗沒有表達過任何不滿,連皺一下眉都沒有,他和她分擔家務、聽她發嘮騷、和她說她仍然漂亮。883Please respect copyright.PENANA5khUNbttyr
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曾經,Fiona向阿朗示好後,思思終日疑神疑鬼,常覺得會有另一個女子向他獻媚。於是對他嚴格查核,查遍他的手機所有應用程式、相簿和一切歷史紀錄;他不滿,可是也沒說什麼,只一天天地表現清白,最終,她不再懷疑。883Please respect copyright.PENANAhUR6AhfM0o
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曾經,她逞強地嘗試同時處理工作、棉花糖、家,最終壓力太大又休息不夠,身體抱恙進了醫院;阿朗厲聲地責罵她不可如此,下一秒又柔和地和她道歉,擔心得眼睛通紅。883Please respect copyright.PENANA5ib74PkH7D
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曾經,他們因阿朗買錯米飯牌子而爭執,她在學校受了些氣,語氣變得猙獰、咄咄逼人,多爭吵兩句後,他沉默半晌,說她今天和平時很不一樣,關心她,然後安慰她,不再與其爭論。很快,她向他道歉,他只像什麼都沒發生一樣笑着環抱她的腰。883Please respect copyright.PENANArOKpmJziJ4
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太多、太多——太多。883Please respect copyright.PENANAqgVKpKA0h2
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這個太清晰的她,阿朗清楚知道,並且予以認識、擁抱、接納,未曾離開。883Please respect copyright.PENANAwLpGhemRtP
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而別人,是不會知道的,他們只知道優點滿滿的她。883Please respect copyright.PENANA9FqR03V1Et
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她從不允許別人了解她的歇斯底里。親疏有別,她分得清清楚楚。883Please respect copyright.PENANAleGOZacbJU
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這一種充實的安全感,無可比擬。這些年來,有些人也說愛她,可是,根本沒有人知道,那些人是不是真的愛她。883Please respect copyright.PENANAvh1adoxCEW
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她看向朝光,心頭有種理智的冷冽。883Please respect copyright.PENANAOY8PINtdiK
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而且,她知道,世上無人比程日朗更愛她——883Please respect copyright.PENANAiStEBwm4IS
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她也知道,這世上她不會更愛他以外的人。883Please respect copyright.PENANAMRxznFg0L0
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程日朗的温柔,不是別人可以替代的;同樣,程思思的極致,也只會讓他知道883Please respect copyright.PENANAAfq6aNxX8z
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原來,他們已貫穿對方十多年的生命。883Please respect copyright.PENANA9ImhBPuRRR
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