我和日朗在一起。841Please respect copyright.PENANAD2gRpC8BYE
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他對我很好,好得我要向他學習怎樣愛人;在他之前,原來我只愛過父母親,只有他們能帶給我痛楚,也只有痛苦也能實切地證明這份感情的重量,只有快樂的話,不過是一種娛樂,那並沒有厚度。841Please respect copyright.PENANAS2IYZCHjEH
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我與別人交往的時候,只有開心,只有自我關照;但講到尾,其實我並不關心別人怎麼活。841Please respect copyright.PENANAyjhsLIZPsD
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他們開不開心、好不好,我不在乎。841Please respect copyright.PENANArtNutOxKUb
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為什麼我要管他們呢?他們只是提供愛給我的一種工具。841Please respect copyright.PENANAffAfOWvQOd
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但日朗不同。我喜歡他。841Please respect copyright.PENANAcUb0fqyK0T
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感覺是完全不一樣的,我想知道他怎樣看待我——841Please respect copyright.PENANAox2nHdjSZY
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我想知道,佢會鍾意我幾耐?佢覺得我點?同其他人比呢?841Please respect copyright.PENANAYMZf1fHMvj
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但是有些事,我是絕對不會讓他知道的,譬如我收很多觀音兵。如果他發現,我想,我會說:841Please respect copyright.PENANAsEIaespwXJ
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「我唔係有心㗎,咁人哋鍾意我吖嘛?係咪?841Please respect copyright.PENANA9ybFM0UjSf
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你原本都係其中之一嚟㗎咋,只係,我鍾意你咋嘛。」841Please respect copyright.PENANAEVqCBzfra0
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這種說法是不是值得欣賞呢?我不知道,但如果是我,聽時會很開心呢,畢竟對方肯定了我啊,是不是?841Please respect copyright.PENANANLaVIbZp4l
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我喜歡他,明明我喜歡他——我看到他的時候會心動,別人靠近他時我會吃醋,也會在他沒空陪我時感到委屈。如果這都不叫愛,那怎樣才是呢?841Please respect copyright.PENANA5MMvha4HO4
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可是,我受不了。841Please respect copyright.PENANAk5l8HdYZ5s
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慢慢,他要求我:841Please respect copyright.PENANAfWv0GAcKoO
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「你可唔可以唔好遲咁耐到?」841Please respect copyright.PENANAmS94XBFLJ1
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「下個月先買俾你好冇?我做緊part-time㗎啦,但宜家未有咁多錢……」841Please respect copyright.PENANAMeHKaz7WpW
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「喂,你唔好嬲啦,明明係你錯,點解你可以嬲番我轉頭嘅?」841Please respect copyright.PENANAQBEX8v2dNq
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我開始失落。841Please respect copyright.PENANA4OQmnTj7K3
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我覺得,他不夠喜歡我,如果真是足夠喜歡,為什麼會對我有那麼多不滿?為什麼不能更多的包容和忍讓?別人都只唯唯諾諾,為什麼他就不可以呢?從來沒人這樣說過我啊。841Please respect copyright.PENANAv6Qj5qD7Rs
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難得我已努力向你證明:我愛你。841Please respect copyright.PENANAu8jgJ8se3d
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我賣力地和你口交、公開和你戀愛、不再接受他人的美意——很明顯了吧?841Please respect copyright.PENANAHCEr9BHs1l
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為什麼你這樣貪心呢?這種美意還不夠嗎?841Please respect copyright.PENANAlUsV5MLUQU
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「我明嘅……你可能唔太識得點愛人,咁不如我哋一齊學,好冇?」841Please respect copyright.PENANAd0y5Wqruu3
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日朗温柔地牽着我,但口中所說的,對我而言卻是嚴厲的苛責。841Please respect copyright.PENANA6Kd6dbo0W0
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我不懂愛人?841Please respect copyright.PENANAzyt6IcFIau
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我不懂愛人——是的,那是因為,一直都是別人愛我嘛,我看別人付出已足夠了。去到自己愛的時候,好像也因而不那麼的得心應手呢?841Please respect copyright.PENANAYQ63nz9LYX
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日朗說我懶,懶得不願向他多走幾步;我跟他生氣:喂,我已經努力咗㗎啦,咁多人裏面,你已經得到咗最高待遇,點解你唔滿意呢?841Please respect copyright.PENANATAyngcWplV
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係咪因為——841Please respect copyright.PENANAdHdOKqUOzH
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你唔夠愛我呢?841Please respect copyright.PENANAYy5YGG0ANB
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這個念頭成了一顆種子埋在我心間。日朗對我很好,但慢慢,我就沒有安全感了,我覺得他不夠別人那麼無條件愛我。841Please respect copyright.PENANAfXjnAp92IM
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對,就是這樣。841Please respect copyright.PENANA4AmAYUSiLR
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我的心再一次與他疏離。841Please respect copyright.PENANAe1eYL3xbSp
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我突然看不起他。明明並沒有那麼愛我,卻裝出一副委曲求全的樣子。841Please respect copyright.PENANAlNK599Vfio
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但是,我還繼續和他在一起,因為他太好了,如果別人知道他喜歡我,也會在心裏高看我幾分。人性如此;而他本身,也算是頗盡心盡力地對我好的,如果我提出要求,他也會努力做到。841Please respect copyright.PENANAiXovJ5k4f9
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只是,不似別人舉重若輕。841Please respect copyright.PENANAdEtA3YM0gl
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而像我這樣的女神並不會滿足於此的,我要得到很多很多,才能區分我自己和別人的差距。841Please respect copyright.PENANACGheSsd0Ps
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所以我出軌——841Please respect copyright.PENANAYLUaSNJRfJ
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其實這也是一種貼心吧?我想要的在日朗身上得不到,方才另覓他人,提供我所需,填補我和他的空隙;又不需勉強他勞苦自己,他既可以繼續愛我,我的私心又可繼續被滿足,一舉兩得。841Please respect copyright.PENANAUKJIQIGC18
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本來,日子很好,我也因為得到別人的疼愛而變得更柔和一點,沒有再對日朗提過分的要求、沒有再輕易地發脾氣,總覺得自己要有觀音的氣量。841Please respect copyright.PENANAXmuZlBpdSS
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直到,日朗發現我出軌。841Please respect copyright.PENANASHuzGlEbUl
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他很激動。他不明白為什麼我要這樣做,他覺得他已對我至好,為我獻出全部;我只說,我要更多,他給我的還不夠。841Please respect copyright.PENANA3ZCZuk3qbX
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那一刻,平常冷靜沉穩的他突然捨棄了自尊,雖然,他指出我的不對:841Please respect copyright.PENANA896D9fTmG9
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「你唔滿意點解唔同我講?如果唔鍾意,應該係分手而唔係出軌?」841Please respect copyright.PENANA1q7liQ9jzm
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但是,很快,他又自責地和我說他會改,即使他也不一定知道自己錯在何處。841Please respect copyright.PENANAl3L2OhnF1t
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結果,他不斷付出。841Please respect copyright.PENANAU6tN5zFCRz
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而我看見他這樣,又覺得他的魅力不比往昔了,我比他高級,心慢慢地飛走;或者,不在他那處。841Please respect copyright.PENANA19XAbiV466
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他說:「你唔好同其他人一齊,我哋重新開始好冇?」841Please respect copyright.PENANAcpA5IrScAT
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他說他愛我,想和我共偕連理。841Please respect copyright.PENANA87DhcMXOJo
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「咁……算啦,對唔住。」841Please respect copyright.PENANAWVqKsNSZMM
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我開始覺得心煩,突然,我不需要他的愛了,我喜歡的是光芒萬丈的程日朗,不是這個垂頭喪氣的男人。841Please respect copyright.PENANAiSKOHMwXCD
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唉,真令人無奈。841Please respect copyright.PENANA7OcE1MHRXw
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我有別人給我的愛了。841Please respect copyright.PENANAJ6IimSnANq
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而且,他不能接受我有別人,不能包容我的廣交——841Please respect copyright.PENANAwuOURPxLkE
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唯有再見。841Please respect copyright.PENANAJug5k6Fw7V
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再見。841Please respect copyright.PENANAqfw0hjiGiA
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只是,後來,我又念記他。841Please respect copyright.PENANAF2PHeN3nEz