最後,他失去了往常生氣,可是又努力笑笑,佯裝自己只是疲倦,和思思踏出校門。941Please respect copyright.PENANAhspoGY0JQS
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阿朗覺得思思較往日不同,但他不知道為什麼。941Please respect copyright.PENANAeh9dG9sPEF
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她有時會問他一些奇怪的問題:「如果你俾人屈,咁你會點會?」941Please respect copyright.PENANA9KAuuLtqFc
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「睇吓係邊個屈我先?」941Please respect copyright.PENANAoaUdPYquay
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「譬如,老闆?」941Please respect copyright.PENANAYnXz3f4c5H
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「同佢解釋,我係冤枉㗎囉。」他側頭。941Please respect copyright.PENANA3XyDJBrP3d
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「如果佢堅持,咁點?」她追問。941Please respect copyright.PENANAYnH6PLIw8n
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「咁都冇計啦……如果講極佢都唔信,咁咪唯有say sorry,如果唔係,繼續同佢拗,會冇咗份工添。」941Please respect copyright.PENANA2jjCfqxvXx
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「哦……」聲音越來越低、遠。941Please respect copyright.PENANAC4iunQ9lhF
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然後,她不再說話,睡覺。941Please respect copyright.PENANAIlBrY7H8lA
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是因為最近她太累?她不適應新環境?但又不見她和他說工作煩憂。隨即,他又想到,思思不喜主動透露情緒,那就由他給她一個閒適的星期五晚上吧,這樣,可能就能誘導她講出心事。941Please respect copyright.PENANAXPudGTZoS9
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在思思工作的校門外,阿朗等着,眼睛一脫離手腕上的錶,就看見她和一個學生一起出來——有傾有講有笑。941Please respect copyright.PENANAAlKkTcxxF8
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思思看到阿朗,隨即向前大踏步,再牽上他的手,不自然地和朝光說再見,仿佛尷尬;而他一看到朝光,就知道這個學生對思思有意。941Please respect copyright.PENANANSS6DhK1Ef
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同性總能察覺同性的心思,尤其,朝光以鋒利目光打量阿朗,有些不忿,又有些無奈。朝光的五官,若然細看,還真的找得出阿朗的影子,喜歡同一個女子,恰若不是什麼新奇事。941Please respect copyright.PENANAOAUq1hJ6Pw
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不言而喻。思思知道嗎?那麼。941Please respect copyright.PENANA2m2DC4Sl14
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「佢邊個嚟㗎,同你一齊走嘅?」阿朗問。941Please respect copyright.PENANA9yTcnesOJ6
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「學生,中六㗎啦,考試壓力大。佢有時會嚟社工室,吹吓水咁。」思思嗅到他身上的消毒藥水氣味。941Please respect copyright.PENANAgwHAH3gnuE
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「壞學生?」他注意到朝光的打扮。941Please respect copyright.PENANACkOPStMKlo
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「唔係嘅,我起初都以為,但其實都係固執、堅持己見,同埋唔太守儀容規矩啫。」941Please respect copyright.PENANAQaYlke1geU
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「你哋成日見?」941Please respect copyright.PENANAoXMf2r60RP
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「嗯……唔係嘅,有時啦。」她想,也不是常常吧,她又不是每天都留校。941Please respect copyright.PENANAH3gmX5bXow
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「佢鍾意你?」941Please respect copyright.PENANAUMt9Kuca5C
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「痴線,點會。我大佢咁多。」941Please respect copyright.PENANAuop8557Yur
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「我覺得係喎,佢啱啱咁樣望你——同埋,佢有啲嬲嬲哋咁望我。」941Please respect copyright.PENANAaocauicNGQ
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「你多心咋!佢係學生嚟咋喎。」941Please respect copyright.PENANAA1Co7URzny
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「佢成日嚟揾你?」941Please respect copyright.PENANAGMZprFPaDi
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「都算係嘅,咁佢有嘢想講,但冇人聽佢講啫,所以咪揾駐校。」941Please respect copyright.PENANAs3V8QqZV8d
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「可能佢唔係有嘢講,只係想對住你。」941Please respect copyright.PENANAaqwD5kAE7i
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「點會。人哋學生嚟,邊有咁多呢啲心思?唔好屈人啦,冇人聽佢講嘢,已經好慘㗎啦……」941Please respect copyright.PENANAoc5vb3uZjR
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「我真係覺得係。」阿朗打斷思思,停下腳步。941Please respect copyright.PENANAloLw2IaXnE
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「我覺得唔係。」她堅持。其實她也不知道朝光之意,但覺微愠。941Please respect copyright.PENANAVsNCM4iD4U
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二人不語,有些惱火。就快走到餐廳,思思問:941Please respect copyright.PENANAeWJeMQJBjN
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「係呢,點解今日收咁早?」941Please respect copyright.PENANAzj712Aky5f
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「接少咗兩單,想嚟接你吖嘛。」思思聽後,牽得他更緊了一些;阿朗見狀,又說:「點知見到你同其他人一齊。」941Please respect copyright.PENANAI0Ka1qgCZr
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她敏感:「冇一齊呀,行出校門啫,唔好多心啦,好冇?」941Please respect copyright.PENANApKsMfDoGav
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「咪就係一齊出嚟,你咁心虛做咩?」941Please respect copyright.PENANAxAZGst4w5H
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阿朗覺得,思思最近的轉變確實與那個學生有關,但她又應該不是喜歡朝光,但又好像喜歡,至少不可能抗拒與他相處,否則,出校門時,她看起來就不會是輕鬆自如了。941Please respect copyright.PENANAutgw9IXca7
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「都唔知你擔心啲咩。」她點菜,之後不再說話。941Please respect copyright.PENANAjPx37hLm6N
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她承認,自己有變化,所以坦白講,她有些心虛。但並不是愛上了別人——但也許,比愛上別人更差麼。941Please respect copyright.PENANAwlRvmozNaP
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好像,她對於「家」感到厭倦一樣。看到阿朗時,已無昔日欣喜,只如常地瞥一眼,再繼續手頭上的事,行雲流水。聽他說話時,也會不自覺地出神,不能聚焦於他的所思所想。大概,是因為日子不斷重複,但她又不想以此歸因——明明她捱得過平淡、苦難、寂寞,明明現在一切都很好。941Please respect copyright.PENANAa1vXf88zck
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明明,她已歷剖腹產子時的一次鬼門關險況、蠶食身心地自我慰寂寥、隱忍地原諒丈夫抵觸自己的異心;到如今一切都安穩時,她卻覺得不太對勁。941Please respect copyright.PENANApueBeU8YpC
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她倦怠。941Please respect copyright.PENANA1byrpoTjXW
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她想念以前的阿朗,那個勇敢、坦率、直抒所想的他,那個會與她緊緊相擁的他,那個會直直盯着她的眼而從不迴避的他。她當然愛他,永永遠遠,可是,如果有得選擇的話,她還是希望回到十八歲的夏天。941Please respect copyright.PENANA15Cl5s0Lpg
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「咁你同個學生熟唔熟?」阿朗吃着河粉,問,然後將一塊豬排夾給思思,他總覺得她吃不飽,不太長肉。941Please respect copyright.PENANA2x1EyziVx4
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「唔太,佢講佢嘅,然後我聽再回應,咁囉。」她真誠的答。941Please respect copyright.PENANAUO2q1UMrdj
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可是,每次被丈夫關心,她又會覺得,其實如此也不錯。941Please respect copyright.PENANApZHp5Ufz2L
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阿朗不再說起朝光:「棉花糖呢排都要練舞,好似話三、四月比賽。」941Please respect copyright.PENANAOZVZAf8hRW
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「咁早就開始練?」941Please respect copyright.PENANAdjaqYxYETq
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「係啩,團體舞又要排、又要練齊動作,驚太趕先開始會練唔切。」941Please respect copyright.PENANAGvRzsqKJ9o
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「哦哦,係呢——你出門前有冇淋到水?」思思忽然想起。941Please respect copyright.PENANAWZvZR4l6O5
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「冇呀,諗住棉花糖會自己照顧番。」941Please respect copyright.PENANATwQA9tbarh
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那是學校的種花比賽,高年級學生負責養植一串紅,這是一場專門弄死植物的活動,好多人在捧着花苗回家的過程中,將泥土撒落一地。941Please respect copyright.PENANAVNpmPUcCGf
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「好似好多日冇淋啦喎,番去幫佢淋番先。」941Please respect copyright.PENANAY8zLZUdlJM
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「聽日話吓佢啦,自己嘢都睇唔實。」941Please respect copyright.PENANAZFJAXrkgym
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「可能佢唔記得咗啫,而且,佢又咁夜先番。」941Please respect copyright.PENANAOzKgeUrDsw
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「慈母多敗兒。」阿朗察覺思思的目光,又補充:「咁係吖嘛,我哋全屋都唔熟呢啲嘢,咁宜家係佢做嘅,應該係佢自己handle番。」941Please respect copyright.PENANAnsUlUBP9XD
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「好啦,咁我提吓佢。」本身,思思想說自己非慈母、棉花糖非敗兒,可是,說來何用,她們本來就不是。而且,其實也不重要,他說得對,其實他的言論毫無問題,有問題的是聽者的心。941Please respect copyright.PENANA0DZybPR2kL
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她比極多人遲鈍,終於,失去了新鮮感。941Please respect copyright.PENANARJNTYd8v8e
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她想起朝光,如果是他坐在對面,一定會說些爛gag逗她開心,話題不會圍繞家庭,而是未知的、模糊的、神秘的、穩密的、新奇的。941Please respect copyright.PENANAJO8PG9WdKQ
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下一秒,阿朗又喚了喚她:「做咩𡁻咁耐都唔吞?咬唔開?」941Please respect copyright.PENANA5Ug7vyQOGK
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她回過神來,看,眼前的是伴她十年的成熟男子,她不應在幻想中傷害老公的自尊。所以,她吃了下一口飯。941Please respect copyright.PENANALog9AtIcVs
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難以吞嚥。多喝一口水,舒服得多。941Please respect copyright.PENANAXDx9XFjRi7
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